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    Every part of Shane’s body vibrated with want and need for Ilya. Neither of them escalated the kiss though. Not yet. Shane wanted to relish in the feel of Ilya’s hard body pressed against his. The slowness of the kiss meant they had time. A whole weekend. That was more time than Shane had ever thought possible for them to have.

    [OR continuation of No choice but to love you
    --- Ilya realized he made a mistake letting Shane go after their hookup in Vegas. As he's rushing to find Shane, he receives a text message from Shane that read: We didn’t even kiss.

    When he gets to the elevator, Shane is still there. And the way they kiss inside that metal box is healing, and destructive, and transcendent for both of them. It shatters them completely.

    Ilya and Shane agree to spend the night together in the Vegas Penthouse, which turns into three.]

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    19 Jul 2026

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    Ilya's heart shouldn’t be pounding at the prospect of having Shane in his arms once again. And yet, it was.

    When Ilya exited the club, he saw Shane inside a sensible car—a blue Jeep. Seconds later, the car was skirting off the gravel road. Ilya tried his best not to be disappointed, or hurt, but managed neither.

    (Or Alt. post-club scene from Ilya's POV. He finds Shane's car pulled on the side of the road. They talk.)

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    06 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander ended things for all the right reasons.

    He has Rose. He has hockey. He has a future that finally makes sense.

    Then Rose points across a crowded Montreal nightclub and says three words:

    "Isn't that Rozanov?"

    Or: What if Ilya ran after Shane that night at the club?

     

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    So this is my very first fanfic! I am an avid reader here on A03 and after reading literally 100's of stories, I decided to take a crack at it myself. I do not have a beta, so this was all edited me, myself and I. If you see any errors......no you didn't.

    jk - If you see anything that doesn't seem right (grammatically), please let me know. Otherwise, I hope you enjoy this fic as much as I enjoyed writing it for yall!

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    03 Jul 2026

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    “Perfectly fine. I’ll be good as new in a couple of days.” 

    “Good.” A moment of quiet on the other line. Shane could hear Ilya breathing. 

    “I love you so much. You know this, yes?”

    “Of course I do. And I love you too. I’ll see you…” Shane had to consider when the next day they could visit would be.

    "When you see me," Ilya supplied.

    “I'll see you when I see you. Okay. Sure.”

    “Bye, Shane."

    “Bye.”

    The Boxing Day argument doesn't happen, Ilya doesn't seek professional help, and he and Shane keep pretending everything's fine. In the last few weeks of the season, Ilya reaches a breaking point. After saving his boyfriend's life, Shane is forced to grapple with the broken pieces, figure out what went wrong, and try to slot everything back together again.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    This thing that they have—whatever the hell it is—it’s good. It’s easy. It feels like the only thing keeping Ilya afloat sometimes.

    He can’t let it get to a place where it’s more than just a good, convenient fuck and some fun teasing in between. Even if sometimes, in brief moments of tenderness, it already feels like it’s more than that. Or at least like it’s something that can be, if they just let it.

    But they don’t. They can’t.

    Although sometimes, Ilya does find himself giving in to the urge to look at Shane just a little bit longer, to let his touch be just a little bit gentler, more reverent, than what it would be for something as casual as they claim this to be—albeit sparingly.

    Sometimes, just for a moment, he lets himself indulge. He lets some of that affection bleed out of him because he feels like he’ll implode if he doesn’t.

    But he always catches himself before it can linger.

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    where six months of ghosting is shane’s final straw and he cuts contact with ilya after vegas, tired of the wall that just keeps getting higher each time he tries to chip away at it

    so ilya is forced to reckon with his feelings much sooner

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