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    The first time they hooked up, Rozanov had kissed him before Shane got on his knees. They kissed when Scott Hunter was in the room next-door. And they kissed slowly and sweetly, on his apartment stairway, after Rozanov had taken his world apart and put him back together again. Hell, even in that bathroom, where he felt as if the Russian was trampling on his bared soul, Rozanov had kissed him.

    So why was it different this time? What did he do wrong?

    Shane aches with how much he wants—needs the other man. There is a hollow numbness in his chest every time he thinks about those golden curls and ocean eyes, and he hates himself for wishing he could have more.

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    Wanting Hollander is dangerous, because Ilya is wanting more than he’s allowed to have. But Ilya keeps wanting more and more, because he is vain, selfish, undisciplined. He wants to have Hollander in his arms, sweet, warm, and gorgeous.

    And he will always regret it later, in the quiet moments that come in the aftermath, in the small and lingering ache that follows him once they are apart.

    Or: Shane spirals and avoids Ilya post-Vegas. Ilya chases after him, and they talk.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    Loud vodka

  2. Public Bookmark 74

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    A rewrite and exploration of what comes before and after the infamous 'I could marry Svetlana' moment.

    Ilya Rozanov is a rational man. He could probably do it. He has weighed his options. He has thought it through. Anything to be able to stay in North America. To never again have to worry about being ripped from the life he's trying to build. To finally belong to a place that would not haunt him or hunt him down.
    Ilya could definitely do it. Right?

    Or: Ilya throws Shane an semi-suicidal idea and Shane throws him back what he asked for: a fucking atomic bomb.

    Or: Shane shows Ilya what it feels like to be totally annihilated by pure love and devotion. Ilya shows it to him right back.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    "You and Svetlana. When you - I mean, you don't have to tell me any details, obviously. But do you use condoms, with her?"

    This must be a translation issue, Ilya thought wildly. He'd missed something crucial.

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    01 Mar 2026

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    Scott texts Kip that he’s bringing Shane back to the apartment. “Hey, I kind of have a big favor to ask you and I need you to be supportive about it.”
    Kip replies almost immediately, “That sounds ominous, is everything okay?”
    “I don’t know,” Scott decides to be honest, “You know how I’m shooting that commercial with Shane Hollander today?”
    “Yes…” He can practically feel Kip’s anxiety leaking into that one text.
    “Well, I think something happened to him. Something bad. I’m bringing him back to the apartment.”

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    Shane and Scott are supposed to be doing a commercial together but Scott notices that Shane’s acting… off. He finds out what happened in Vegas and forces Ilya to fix it.

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    01 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 31

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    Seen. That small, clinical word beneath his text feels heavier than it should. Rozanov has read his message, has processed that information, so by this time he must have made a conscious decision to not reply to Shane. He doesn’t know why this is bothering him so much. He has no right to be upset, he is not entitled to Rozanov’s time nor constant attention. They are not… together, he isn’t even sure if they count as close—as friends.

    And yet, he keeps staring at his phone, feeling the familiar and prickling discomfort under his skin. Why isn’t Rozanov replying?

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    He hasn’t prepared for any of this—for the tenderness that follows the storm, only for the storm to sweep away everything again. He doesn’t know how to deal with Rozanov’s confusing words and contradicting actions, with both fire and ice, both closeness and distance, all at the same time.

    Every time Shane feels like he manages to understand Rozanov a little, the pattern shifts, and he is once again left with splintered pieces that don’t make sense.

    Or: All the messages Shane sent to Ilya during the six long months between Sochi and Vegas, and the ones he did not send.

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    26 Feb 2026