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    In the early hours of Saturday, the Hockey world was ablaze with the news that Ilya Rozanov was dead. Killed in a tragic car accident leaving behind a slew of devastated fans and a grieving husband still reeling in shock.

    The news also came as an incredible shock to Ilya when he awoke that same day, hungover and bleary, but very much alive. 

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    15 Mar 2026

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    this actually fried me

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    Ilya coughed into his elbow, and looked back at Shane, pathetically. “I think,” he whispered, “I think I am sick. I do not feel good.”

    “I know,” said Shane, rising and placing a gentle kiss on the top of his head. He stood close to Ilya, but busied himself, measuring out doses of medication and checking for interactions on the sides of pill bottles, “but I… am going to help with that.” As he said that, reading the side of a box of decongestant, he felt Ilya tip forward and wrap his long arms around Shane’s hips – the only part of him, he could reach.

    Ilya’s forehead pressed into his waist and he felt the warmth radiating off of him immediately. Shane’s heart split open and his eyes prickled.

    “My Shane,” Ilya whispered to himself. Shane ran one hand gently through Ilya’s hair, and when he was ready, stepped backwards. “Mphhh” whined Ilya, arms outstretched, “come back.”

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    Or, Ilya had the flu, and Shane steps up.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    CUTEEEE

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    14 Mar 2026

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    At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.

    Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    im not even lying I actually cried fr. never seen dementia written so vividly

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    It starts, as many things do, slowly. He quietly stops seeing Galina. He lies about taking his medication. The medication hasn’t been helping anyway. Then it’s Shane noticing he isn’t doing well, and begging Ilya to talk to him. There is nothing to say.

     

    Objectively, everything is fine. His life is amazing. He’s married to the love of his life, they play for the same hockey team, they don’t have to hide their love anymore. They have a dog and a place that is home. He has a family with Shane and his parents. He has friends with the centaurs and Svetlana. On paper, his life is amazing.

     

    The thought definitively doesn’t help the guilt he feels when he holds the handful of painkillers.

    Or: Ilya commits suicide. But when he dies, he finds himself as a ghost and is forced to watch Shane grapple with his death.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    this was actually heartbreaking. and the ending??