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    Shane Hollander has a heart attack and "dies" on the ice after the hit from Marlow in the Montreal vs Boston Game.

    Ilya handles his emotions poorly and has a very public meltdown.

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    12 Mar 2026

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    A second, then a blur. Ilya knocking over one of the kitchen island stools to engulf Shane. His shaking frame holding Shane so tight, Shane felt himself shaking back. He could only hold on back, just as tightly.
    “Please.” Came the strangled voice by his left ear. “Please, tell me.”
    And who was Shane to ever deny a wish of Ilya Rozanov.
    “I’m signing to Ottawa. Tomorrow. If you would want to come with.”
    And then Ilya was shoving him back, holding him close to his face. “Of course. I drive. Of course I come.”
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    Shane, fed up with Montreal, signs to Ottawa before their relationship is revealed. While he doesn't plan on keeping that a secret for long, he asks Ilya to let him get to know the team first, before they come out. To maybe have a normal season. Meanwhile, the rest of the Centaurs are going crazy trying to figure out what is going on between their captain and Shane Hollander and why they keep showing up in the same car??

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    09 Mar 2026

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    When Shane Hollander looks into the future he sees— not a flat sheet of ice, not that, not anymore, but something equally as empty.

    His backup plan was always to go to university. He hadn't thought he'd ever need it, not really. Especially not near the end, when everything felt so certain. But his grades were good, his mom made sure of that, so when he woke up in the hospital he already knew what he was going to do next. But after?

    There's a standard path people take, he knows, that comes after school. But when he tries to picture it, slot himself into the picket fence and the corporate overhead fluorescents, it disappears. Like it was never going to be real at all.

    (Or: after ending up at a jazz bar to celebrate the end of finals season, Shane Hollander finds himself where he never thought he'd be— in the orbit of NHL superstar Ilya Rozanov.)

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Hayden Pike found out who Boston Lily was through a mishap of his own making, in Boston, 2014.

    Cliff Marlow figured out the truth behind Montreal Jane through the power of friendship and vodka, in Montreal, 2015.

    In 2017, they found themselves working together to cover for the Most Obvious Secret in NHL, while Boston Raiders and Montreal Metros were trapped together during a snowstorm.

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    06 Mar 2026

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    “You might just have dealt the final blow.”

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    For years, Shane and Ilya spent their nights in the shadows.

    Just stolen nights, longing stares, and almost-confessions.

    When Shane finally asks for more, Ilya walks away first. It’s safer that way. Kinder, even. Or so he tells himself.

    But hockey is a cruel sport, and hearts are even crueler.

    One hit on the ice forces every truth to the surface, and Ilya must face the possibility that the final blow wasn’t the breakup—it was never saying I love you when he still had time.

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    Currently a WIP.

    Timeline may not be canon.

    Title is from Taylor Swift's "You're Losing Me". Tags will be updated as chapters are published.

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    04 Mar 2026