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Euijoo likes the control. Sometimes it even feels like he needs it. But sometimes—now, maybe—the idea of relinquishing it, of letting—no—trusting someone to hold onto him if he went away, if he let himself become untethered, what that could feel like, giving himself over, the onerous weight of everything just for a moment finally lifted—
Aloud, Euijoo says, “It’d be nice to not have to think about it, I guess.”
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Harua looks at Nicholas, then grins, his head tilting to the side. He even flutters his eyelashes a little bit, going for his most innocent look. “Wouldn’t you say it kind of looks like Euijoo-hyung?”
“Oh, um, what?” stutters Nicholas, intelligent. He goes beet red between one second and the next.
or: Unbeknownst to either Euijoo or Nicholas, the maknaes have made a bet.
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It would be so easy to turn around. Euijoo has had this thought for a while now, ever since he realized that it's hopeless, that there's no way out of this cycle. It would be so easy to turn around and finally embrace Nicholas after all this time, even if it meant damning him— hasn't he been damned already? Euijoo has played by the rules over and over, and each time Nicholas is dragged back into the depths of the cave anyway; it has become clear that Euijoo cannot save him.
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One video.
Nicholas will, perhaps, humor his friends' 'suggestion' with one video. He probably won't finish it anyway. He'll click away the moment he feels an ounce of discomfort. Yeah. Okay.
(or: don't make decisions when you're running on caffeine and herbal ointments)
(or or: the camboy fic no one needed but the author)
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- Part 1 of camboy jju
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Something shifts, then. Inside of Euijoo. Around him. The entire world shifts, suddenly feeling so off-kilter that he feels slightly dizzy with it. Like it’s suddenly spinning on an axis that doesn’t exist.
No. This isn’t happening. This can’t be happening, because Euijoo has already seen that picture, 24 hours ago. He stared at it yesterday morning, while he was still fuzzy with sleep, feeling giddy over the slightly exposed skin. It’s not possible that he only just posted it, a mere two hours ago. Did he delete it, just to post it again? Maybe the engagement wasn’t as good as they had hoped, deciding to post it on a Saturday, instead?
Just as he’s about to click into the comments, to see if anyone is saying anything about the apparent repost, a notification comes through at the top of his screen.
nichol
bet
can ricky comeEuijoo refuses to see what’s right in front of him. The universe decides to do something about it.