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the end of the beginning by squidexplosions
Fandoms: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV)
23 Jan 2021
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They do not speak in malice against you, his brother had reassured him on occasion. We must have compassion for those held to expectations they do not consent to. He listened to these words with reverence, light dancing in his eyes in silent awe of someone who always seemed to have the words he needed. Xiongzhang told him not to take their words to heart, and so it did not phase Lan Zhan. He did not let it phase him.
He left his peers in the dark about how much thought went into every syllable he spoke, though some days it felt more like he was the one being left by them, if not in the dark then behind and if not behind, then in the emptiness of the hearty Library Pavilion. Eventually, Lan Zhan stopped quoting things in everyday conversation. The snow that had fallen as he sat outside his mother’s residence as a six year old fell over him again.
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One step forward and he could walk into the fire, he thought. One step forward and Wei Ying could watch it curl around his legs and his waist and his torso until anger circled his ribs and his chest and his lungs. He could. He didn’t.
A few months later, just as he was about to experience death for the first time, Wei Ying took a moment to watch as the sunset beyond the cliff painted the world an angry red, and golden light glinted off of the tip of his brother’s sword.
If I screw up now, will their fates be worse than if I hadn’t intervened?
Wei Ying had not known then just how right he had been.
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“We should get married.” A moment passed.
And then, cautiously, “...Do I get a hedgehog if I say yes?”
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i really don't know clouds at all by ImaginationCake
Fandoms: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
18 Apr 2020
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Nie Huaisang develops a crush on Lan Xichen when he's studying at the Cloud Recesses, just like every other disciple his age. As the years pass, no matter what he goes through, he can't seem to shake his feelings. Fortunately, he's been able to keep it a secret, so at least Lan Xichen will never find out.
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18 Jul 2020
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He thinks of how it feels to hold Nie Huaisang, how good it is to have his uninhibited trust when he lets himself fall apart in Lan Xichen’s arms. He imagines what it would be like to steal him away from the Unclean Realm and all his duties, to bring him back to the Cloud Recesses and dote on him like he’s a treasured pet. He likes the idea of pulling Nie Huaisang into his lap, of scenting the cologne he wears, of pressing his mouth to Nie Huaisang’s throat and hearing the shaky little exhales he would make. The same ones he makes sometimes when he is very drunk and Lan Xichen strokes his hair. Lan Xichen feels a fresh pulse of heat as he realizes that if Jin Guangyao is right, maybe those sounds aren’t completely innocent.
He realizes he is trembling and he tries to take deep, calming breaths. What he needs is a long soak in the cold spring. After that…well, he can think about that later.
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Miya Osamu grows up in the company of background noise.
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21 Jun 2020
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In the end, it is you and him against the entire world, even when you are not standing beside him as you conquer it together. But like you said, it is for the best. Here is you, trying your hardest to be the happier one. Here are both of you, Osamu and Atsumu, happier.
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you pick up your glass and say to yourself by Anonymous
Fandoms: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
07 May 2020
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Song Lan is not sentimental.
Or: What happens, afterwards.
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21 Jun 2020
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But all scars fade. He’s hoping the memory of the four faded lines on his cheek won’t, not just yet, please.
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It had been a genuine query in the first few years, but thirty five years makes rice into wine and makes little questions like are you going to leave, and roam the world again into inside jokes shared between two out-of-place people. He expects Song Lan to laugh mutely, or shake his head, but it does not feel right on this nice night.
He flicks the words off the talisman. The moon is huge and round above their heads.
Perhaps I shall.
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i will look for you (as the sun rises high) by folkrck
Fandoms: 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV), 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
19 Mar 2020
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Song Lan and Xiao Xingchen think about what they have lost. Also, a memory.
Set post-Baixue temple massacre.
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13 Jun 2020
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He pinched his eyes shut as they began to well with tears. He cried. It hurt. He felt his sobs echo throughout his entire body. He buried his face deep in his arms as he felt his body tense and shake, warm tears made cool on his face by the occasional breeze.
He missed his friend. He missed his master. He missed and he missed and he missed. Where was he to put all this ache? This loneliness? It leaked out of him, unable to be held inside.
Biting his lower lip, he lifted his head again. The moon’s rays seemed blurry through his wet eyes. He blinked them over, and it was clear again.
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"Tell Lan Zhan that I'm weeping uncontrollably," Wei Wuxian says to the juniors. "Tell him I'm truly pitiful and he needs to do everything I say until I'm well again."
Lan Congyi is in the middle of carefully holding his eyelids open to check his pupils, but he still obeys, bless him. "Hanguang-Jun, Senior Wei would like us to tell you that he can't stop crying and he'd like for you to do everything he says until he's better." There's a moment of silence, and then Lan Congyi says to Wei Wuxian, "Hanguang-Jun says he already does everything you tell him."
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Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji find themselves cursed, unable to see or hear each other. They figure things out anyway.
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12 May 2020
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At least Lan Wangji orders wine for him and even pours it, because he's really a very good husband. Wei Wuxian makes a note to himself to tell him so later. In the meantime he contents himself with making sure Lan Wangji has enough tofu on his plate; he tends to go for only vegetables and forgo protein, bless him. In return Lan Wangji makes sure he gets enough vegetables. Their chopsticks keep clicking together as they serve each other, and Wei Wuxian thinks abruptly, That's what love sounds like.
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Jiang Cheng stares at him. After a moment he spits, "Fine." He salutes Liang Zhi shortly, then turns to Lan Wangji and says, "What's it like, huh?" Lan Wangji gazes at him blankly. "What's it like, for him to always choose you?"
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"Home," Lan Wangji says.
"Home," Wei Wuxian breathes. "I haven't had a home in so fucking long, Lan Zhan."
"You have one now," Lan Wangji says. "As long as I breathe, Wei Ying."