existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
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I’ll tend to the flame (you can worship the ashes) by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
Fandoms: NCIS
17 Oct 2021
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Ziva David is dead.
The news had said so. Everyone had said so. About four hours ago, Tony had shouted at Gibbs. Three and a half hours ago, people had moved from shock to disaster response mode.or; Ziva dies. McGee keeps working. It feels familiar.
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- Part 3 of NCIS Episode Tags
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a job that slowly kills you (bruises that won't heal) by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
07 Apr 2021
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She opens the bathroom door, and hesitates. She's not really ready for this conversation, but she never will be. At least it's with someone who understands.
"I'll tell you exactly what I saw if you tell me the same."aka two people with unresolved trauma talk about death, invasive species and Hotch's gift-giving
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ain’t no grave (gonna keep my body down) by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
Fandoms: NCIS
08 Feb 2021
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through it all, he needs to reach the plane. it’s life or death.
Gibbs would like him to stop, so he can stop shooting
or; Tim gets shot.
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- Part 2 of NCIS Episode Tags
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they say you can catch it (but sometimes you're born with it) by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
Fandoms: NCIS
13 Dec 2020
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You've always loved to fight, feel the singing of your blood as you throw a punch. It feels like home, like family, like sweat and adrenaline and your brother's vicious laughter as you tussle in the evening dust.
You love the fight, but you never wanted to fight like this.
or; Ziva thinks about family, blood and the way to lose both and come out of it with something better
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inside this place is warm (outside it starts to pour) by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
Fandoms: NCIS
05 Dec 2020
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Tim has never really paid that much attention to the lab's ceiling.
It's surprisingly intact, free of scorch marks and any other damage Abby could potentially inflict. Apart from the thumbtacks she's driven into the ceiling.
This is stupid. He's projecting. Onto cafpow cups.
or Tim’s thoughts on various coffee shops, semi-awkward silences and finding a family amongst people like you
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just episode tags for NCIS really, maybe 500ish words each
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It’s a nice thought, though: the happily ever after, the champagne wishes and caviar dreams – all those things she used to wish for once upon a time. Now, Abby does not fool herself into believing that people like them get those sorts of fairy tales.
Abby, Carter, and a moment of reflection. Set at the end of Season 11.
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17 Feb 2025
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Evan—Buck, because he grew up while she was stuck in place—is holding her hand. He hasn't let go in… Maddie isn't sure how long. She is sure that she survived. She is sure that Chimney’s alive. She is sure that Doug isn’t. Beyond that, she isn’t sure of much.
Buck’s leg is bouncing.“You can get up if you need to,” Maddie says. Speaking makes her throat sore, but the silence is worse.
He’s shaking his head before she even finishes. “No, I’m, uh… No, I’m fine. I’m fine.”
“I don’t think you’ve sat in one place for this long in your entire life.”
“...I do kinda have to go to the bathroom.”
Maddie could make fun of him. Tell him you don’t need to raise your hand and ask, or something like that, but she knows why he won’t just get up and leave the room. He’d have to put a wall between them. He’d have to let go of her hand.
Bookmarked by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
04 Dec 2024
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It’s probably an evolutionary holdover: starvation rearranging the body’s resources to prioritize hunting and survival. He likes the way his skin fits tighter over his skeleton, stretching over his hipbones and ribs like he’s being wound up. He likes the pace of his thoughts gathering speed and growing ever more efficient. He likes the utter nothingness in the back of his mouth at all times, no lingering taste or smell or waxy texture from a cheap breakfast cereal to distract or irritate.
Bookmarked by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
30 Oct 2024
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When he’s sick, he still wants Maddie.
Buck knows it isn’t weird. It isn’t that weird, at least, for the two of them; most people instinctively want their mom when they’re sick. He’s rescued and transported enough sick and injured people to know that it isn’t exactly uncommon. Buck just always kind of thought he might grow out of it some day.
He thought he’d get over it in high school, when Maddie was beyond his reach and he was basically an adult already and shouldn’t need his big sister’s comfort anyway. He thought he’d be over it when he made it to L.A., when he graduated from the academy, when he finished his probationary year. He really thought that he’d be over it when he got into his first serious relationship.
But every time he has a cold and can’t fall asleep because it’s too hard to breathe, whenever he eats at the wrong food truck and ends up puking his guts out on the bathroom floor, whenever he has a hard shift or makes an obvious mistake or Abby doesn’t pick up the phone, some small, stupid part of his dumbass baby brain cries: I want Maddie.
Bookmarked by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
26 Oct 2024
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‘Or we could push him off the balcony.’ Chimney says. He sounds serious.
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Or the 118 starts a petition to take out the trash and Buck gets his phd in faking it
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- Part 1 of It's Gonna Be Great
Bookmarked by existentialflu (takesomecalpol)
28 Aug 2024