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Nathan always wanted to be normal. Most people want to be special and different, but when you've been 'special' with a medical diagnosis and all, when your differences lead to bullying and to you being an outsider, you really just want to belong. To not stand out. But Nathan wasn't very good at that. Even though he tries.
Even when his condition went away when he was 9, to him it felt like there was something wrong and different in him, still. It became more and more clear to him over the years. He didn't want to examine the hows, and whys, he just wanted to ignore it, hoping that would make him normal enough.
To an extend, it worked. He thinks he had crushes, he dated Nicole for a summer and Hannah Driscoll for the senior year and it was fine. It (almost) made sense. He didn't quite get the way people obsessed with sex in high school but he could blend in. Could even have it, to some extend. It was fine, and it seemed to work for other people.
Maybe his condition affected his development, maybe he's a late bloomer and he will understand soon enough.
(Right?)
Best not to worry about it. He can be normal if he just tries hard enough (ignores enough feelings, but he's used to that). Someday, he'll make sense.