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Excerpts from Lance’s diary
(Taken with permission)
Excerpt #1
Dear Diary,
Hey, my name is Lance, and today was my first day at the Galaxy Garrison! I have a lot of mixed feelings – I didn’t get into the fighter class program like I wanted, but at least I’m here. There’s a chance I might move up to fighter class later if I rise to the top of my class and if someone up in fighter class flunks out, so I’ll do my best!
Um I’ve never kept a diary before, so I’m not sure what to say. I wouldn’t even be doing this, but my mom said that this way, I can write stuff out to look back on later and to just kinda deal with everything going on. I’m glad the tablets here have a private file mode because otherwise I’d be super scared that this might get hacked. As it is I named this file “History paper research notes” so hopefully no one will want to read it. So…
Maybe I should write more about myself? Uh, so, I’m Lance. Well, my first name is actually Mateo, but my dad’s name was Mateo and I’ve got like two different cousins named Mateo, so I got really tired of that name by the time I was like 10. Lance is one my middle names, and I like it, so I started going by it when I was 10 and I guess it stuck. I think my soulmate will probably have Mateo on her arm since that’s my “real” name and I didn’t start going by Lance until shortly before my mark showed up, but who knows.
Speaking of marks, mine is literally the worst. Well, okay, maybe not the worst, but it’s bad. I remember it showed up when I was 10, so pretty typical, you know? But I looked at it and I literally couldn’t read it. I tried showing it to my mom but she couldn’t make sense of it either?? It starts with a K and there’s a t in the middle but besides that I have no idea what it says. My soulmate has the WORST handwriting. I guess I’ll be doing all the paperwork when we get married!
I know it’s cliche, but I like to think about my soulmate and wonder who she might be. I hope she’s cute. I mean, I like hot girls of course, but I really hope that she’s cute AND hot, but especially cute. I hope she’s shorter than me, but honestly, that’s not hard. I’m not short. I’m like 178cm tall and I’m probably not even done growing yet. Or uh shoot they use imperial units up here, so I guess that makes me something like 5’10”? I can’t keep track. Metric is just objectively better tbh. So much easier. I’m glad the Garrison itself uses metric, but we’re still required to learn imperial for some reason???
Anyways I got kind of off-track but yeah the point here is that I’m not short so my soulmate will probably be shorter than me. She’ll probably be cute and hot too. I wonder if she’ll want to be a space explorer like me? I hope so. It would be really awesome to go on missions side-by-side with her. I bet she’ll be a bit of a rebel like me.
Shoot it’s almost time for curfew. Ugh this is gonna be annoying to get used to. But yeah even if I’m a rebel, I don’t want to get in trouble on my very first night. I need to figure out how this place works so I can get away with rulebreaking after all!
Until next time!
– Lancey Lance
Excerpt #2
AHHHHHHHHHHHH MY SOULMARK ACTIVATED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I DONT KNOW WHAT IM THINKING OR SAYING OR DOING OMG I JUST THIS IS AMAZING AND TERRIBLE AND I DONT KNOW WHATS GOING ON OR ANYTHING I JUST
Okay hunk just told me to calm down before he hits me with a pillow but AHHHHH he just doesnt understand this is literally the best and worst day ever I cant possibly contain myself right now
Okokokok so BASICALLY I was walking down the hall between classes and talking to Hunk because hey if he’s my roommate and classmate I should get to know him right? And anyways we’re in this big crowd and I only know Hunk (tho I recognize Keith because he’s kind of a star and he’s right in front of me but ANYWAYS he’ll be important in a sec) and I’m talking to Hunk when we all hear some yelling and some footsteps behind us and I LITERALLY GET KNOCKED OVER as someone just SLAMS INTO ME from behind so I land on top of someone and someone lands on top of me and there are some other people who all fell down around us and Hunk’s squishing like 4 people and it’s a total mess.
And anyways the person on my back gets up and takes off running and I can see her going down the hall and she’s like this short girl with long reddish hair and I’ve never seen her before and she’s really kind of cute but anyways she’s not important to the story
SO the guards like awkwardly jump over this pile of teenagers in the hallway and take off after her and I realize that I’m sprawled all over someone. As I come to my senses, I realize that KEITH KOGANE is under me!! WHAT. And then AND THEN I REALIZE THAT MY SOULMARK IS WARM OMG but I try to play it cool so I get up off of him and stand up and I know that really there are a lot of people all touching right now so it might not be Keith BUT his sleeve is pulled up a little and I can see a little flash of something that looks like ‘Mat’ before he pulls his sleeve down!! MAT!!!!! I just I can’t even that’s gotta be “MATEO” THERE’S NO WAY THIS IS A COINCIDENCE.
KEITH KOGANE IS MY SOULMATE
But then like???? He just kind of gets up???? And doesn’t even look at me???????? I don’t know what to think like is his soulmark not warm too? I just UGH I lost my nerve completely and just kind of let him walk away without saying anything LIKE AN IDIOT. I LET MY SOULMATE WALK AWAY. I’M SO STUPID.
AHGKSJGDALKGH I am DEAD
UGHHH I should probably try to tell Keith?? Tomorrow maybe???? Idk I mean if he didn’t feel it too then it’s gonna be awkward but I HAVE TO KNOW but??????
Also am I bi?? I guess I just?? Never questioned this before?? I mean maybe not. I’ve heard of guys who were otherwise straight ending up with male soulmates, so who knows?
Anyways I’ll figure this all out later because I am just too SHOOK right now to think or do anything
See ya,
—Lance
PS: I can’t tell if Keith McLain or Lance Kogane sounds cuter JKLDSN THEY BOTH SOUND SO CUTE
Excerpt #3
Dear diary,
I’m about ready to strangle my heart. I’m still severely regretting not talking to Keith about the fact that we’re probably soulmates before he mysteriously up-and-vanished, and I really miss him and his stupidly cute mullet and those violet eyes and just… I have really strong feelings for that boy okay? Nobody’s gonna be able to just replace him. I was SUCH AN IDIOT, hiding my feelings behind that “rivalry” instead of just straight up asking him if we were soulmates or not. And now he’s gone and I have no way to contact him...
Ugh but you’ve heard this all before. The POINT is that I met someone new today. I got my new team assignment since I’m fighter class now, which is… I mean it’s really bittersweet because yeah this is everything I wanted but it came at the cost of losing Keith. I just have to keep reminding myself that if we’re soulmates, we’re meant to end up together, so we’ll see each other again someday… hopefully…
UGH ANYWAYS KEITH ISN’T EVEN THE POINT OF THIS. THE POINT OF THIS IS THAT THE NEW KID IS CUTE AND I’M HAVING AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS
Okay seriously I’m obviously still crushed by Keith but then this KID named Pidge (what a weird name) shows up and I just instantly…??? Idk he’s just really cute and he’s kind of sassy in that like flat humor way and ugh I don’t even know what’s going on or why and this is really just the most basic playground crush ever but I just feel so drawn to him? Like I’m pretty sure he lowkey CANNOT stand me at all and tbh I don’t blame him because I know I can be kinda… overwhelming for someone new but that doesn’t change the fact that I’ve got this stupid crush.
Also that makes two guys now, and one isn’t my soulmate, so… I guess I’m bi?? To be perfectly honest here, I always have liked pink purple and blue. I could easily make that my aesthetic.
Hmm I asked Hunk if I was bi (tbh I couldn’t keep this from him I tell him pretty much everything idk why he puts up with me) and he asked me if I was pansexual. I guess I could be pan. The bi colors are a lot prettier though… and the PUN POTENTIAL. And besides I guess with pan it’s supposed to be that you’re attracted to people without any regard for gender but I think for me it’s more like I’m very aware of the person’s gender I’m just also very aware that both binary genders have potential to be cute/hot. Then again Pidge isn’t exactly manly boy supreme soo…
I asked Hunk for his opinion and he told me he’s pan (duh like I hadn’t seen the flag at the foot of his bed) and he doesn’t care whether or not I join his club or the one right next to his but either way we’re in this together. So that’s nice. Honestly Hunk puts up with so much he’s an angel. I just exist to shout problems at him I swear I’m like so annoying without even trying I guess that’s just my talent.
So anyways Pidge is on our team, so it’s not like I can just choose to pretend he doesn’t exist. Hopefully this won’t be too hard or awkward, but knowing my luck of course it will be.
Oh and also his last name is Gunderson?? Like wow who has the last name Gunderson and then has a kid and honestly thinks “you know what name goes great with Gunderson? Pidge” like wait what? His name boils down to “Pidgeon Gun” like okay that’s kind of an oxymoron.
In any case, I’ll keep you posted about how this goes.
Until next time, bi bi!
--Bisexy Lance
PS: Yup I’m totally going with bi this is great (I mean I’m freaking out because how am I going to tell my parents?? I never even told them about Keith and now this? But at least I can have fun with it)