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Drummond always watched, he noticed every little detail on Alfred's face, the way his dimples formed with an upturned smile, the way a strand of hair always fell out of place and landed messily but still perfectly on his forehead. Drummond lived for every little quaint detail upon his lovers face. Drummond smiled at the sight of Alfed Paget, ever since Scotland he'd felt this immense connection to the boy, however reality slowly set in that they could never be together. As they sat down for dinner, surrounded by oysters and champagne Drummond told Alfred how he could not go ahead with his engagement.
"Surely you understand why?" Drummond spoke softly, the light of the candles creating beautiful shadows upon his face, illuminating his heavenly bone structure upon which Alfred admired.
Alfred simply nodded, he was at a loss for words, surely Drummond understood that they couldn't be together so Alfred was dumbfounded on why he would sacrifice his engagement. As Drummond swallowed his last oyster he looked at Alfred, a tender glance but on which held as much depth as a thousand oceans. Drummond saw a flame in Alfred, one perhaps, which he ignited himself. The flame danced delicately but with such roaring passion which Drummond found himself unable to escape. Like a moth, he was drawn in, to his flame. Together they were a fire, a fire that burned brighter than the sun, a fire dangerous to the touch however all fires can be extinguished and perhaps this was there time. A short while after, Drummond and Alfred found themselves in the serendipity of their loneliness. With nobody around them for once, no hawk eyes burning into their beautiful skulls. Drummond delicately placed his hand on Alfred's shoulder, Alfred moved into the touch longing for Drummond to make him feel complete. Drummond gently moved his arm up towards Alfred's face, tracing his jawline quaintly with his fingertips. Alfred was nearly at a loss for breath, as he closed his eyes and felt Drummond move in closer. Slowly yet passionately, Drummond placed a kiss upon his lovers lips, whilst cupping his face with his left hand. Alfred kissed him back softly as if each kiss was oxygen and he was suffocating, he needed Drummond's kiss and Drummond needed him.
Once Lord Alfred had caught his breath he looked into Drummond's eyes, warm as the embers that burned in a fire.
"I can't not have you" Alfred spoke, each word harder to say.
Drummond smiled slightly, his eyes starting to well up as he began to speak.
"Nor me you" He replied, reaching out for Alfred's hand. He delicately but lovingly traced Alfred's fingers with his own, whilst a tear fell down Alfred's face.
"What do we do Drummond?" He asked, eager for a solution to their almost impossible situation. He felt as if he was trapped beneath the earth, suffocating and nobody could hear him, nobody except Drummond.
"I don't know, I just know that I cannot give you up" Each word pronounced perfectly even though his lip was trembling, tears were now streaming down his face as Alfred pulled him in for a tight reassuring hug. Drummond felt safe in his arms, he felt as though nobody could ever hurt him as long as he had Alfred by his side.
Drummond took a deep breath, he glanced over at Alfred and whispered "We are going to find a way"
Alfred let out a slight laugh, an expression of relief perhaps. He then smiled and simply squeezed Alfred's hand and that was enough for now.