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You know, sometimes things don't always go as we would have wished. Sometimes things go wrong. And sometimes it hurts. It hurts a lot. So much that when you think about it, you wish you had never experienced it in the first place.
What happened to me?
I ended up having a bold move. I breathed in and out over a hundred times and when I finally felt confident enough, I finally opened my heart out loud. I told Hope that I am in love with her.
Well, I slipped a note under the door of her room. But this time, I didn't regret it. Let's say, until now.
Because now that I think about it, it was completely stupid. Hope has a boyfriend, that's a fact. How did I manage to forget that? Further, how could I believe she could feel the same way?
It's been two days. Two fucking days. So this is my punishment, the silent treatment? No answers? But it is also said that silence is an answer in its own right. So here I am, teary-hearted, because it seems Hope doesn't love me.
Some would say that at least I know how things are now and that I can move on, but that's not true. If only it were so easy.
I guess I just wanted to stand up for what I want for once. I just wanted to have more for once. But maybe it's too much to ask. Maybe it was too soon, even after all this time. Or maybe it's because it's too late.
Above all, the truth is that I understand that some things are better left unsaid, so at least I would still have her friendship. Now, I just have nothing.
Karma is a bitch, isn't she?