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1. this definitely didn't hurt... right? by sleepingatmygrave

   Fandoms: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Major Character Death
   • Gen, M/M
   • Complete Work

   13 Jul 2020

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Major Character Death
   • Shang Qinghua/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
   • Shang Qinghua & Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
   • Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
   • Shang Qinghua
   • Luo Binghe
   • Minor Luo Binghe/Shen Yuan | Shen Qingqiu
   • Heavy Angst
   • Angst
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • Major Character Injury
   • Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Self-Hatred
   • Self-Esteem Issues
   • Unrequited Love
   • Break Up
   • minor mental breakdown
   • the ending is kinda left open
   • No beta we die like SQQ
   • Flashbacks
   • This is just a lot of pain
   • i love cucumberplane i swear
   • very self-indulgant
   • again im so sorry

   Summary

   Shang Qinghua hated this. He hated feeling like this but the pain and deep rooted hurt was all he had been able to feel at all besides the harsh numbness.

   He thanked his past self for unfollowing and muting Shen Yuan on all social media, he kept all the chats to read through for bittersweet nostalgia (more like pain parties, he could only look at their past affections and picture it all being extremely fake and forced).

   Series

   • Part 1 of why couldn't we just have talked sooner?

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