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It is madness.Sometimes, on bad days, you think so.
It's madness to trust Neil and his smiles, his slow caresses and kisses.
It's madness to admit that you want him, that you need him, to feel him, to get inside him.
You never wanted to depend on anyone, yet you know that without him you would go crazy. You nearly killed Kevin to find out where Neil was, and you know you would do it again.
Neil is nothing, and at the same time he is all you want.
You two make love and you feel like you're flying, as if something grabs you by the chest and throws you up, towards the sky, where the air is clear and so thin that you run the risk of burning it if you breathe it.
You are never tired of him, despite your complaints. You thought nothing could be more lethal than your drug addiction, but you were wrong. What you feel for Neil is much more dangerous, it will destroy you if you are not careful.
But this time you don't want to be careful, do you? For Neil, you'd let yourself burn. And the scariest thing is that he would do it for you too.
You are a drug,
I cannot quit you
You are a drug,
I'm still lonely with you
( You Are A Drug
Secondhand Serenade)