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cold air filled the room he sat in. window open, all the sound that could be heard was crying, tears falling to the floor as he sat there. knees to his head as he cried, pain. it’s all he felt. had it hurt. badly. karl was never the one to cry. no.. not til recently.
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“karl! welcome back man it’s been a few days. where’ve you been?” quackity asked as karl joined the vc with him and sapnap. it certainly has been a few days, those few days felt like hell.
”yeah, i’m back now. sorry for leaving so suddenly without answering.” karl choked out a soft laugh, he wouldn’t want his friends to know he was hurt. in pain, he’d feel guilty because they’d think he did something, right? or so that’s what he thought.
karl felt his phone buzz in his pocket, scared to look at it. he let a shaky sigh out realizing it was just sapnap. his phone lit up,
sappy: hey is everything good? you seem off. not so talkative today or something up?
karls heart melted. he felt like he hasn’t had anyone check up on him in awhile. and he was glad he has sapnap. he’s always had a soft spot for sapnap.
karl released a sigh as he started typing on his phone to answer.
kar: yeah i’m fine dw
liar. karl sighed, he knew he shouldn’t lie, but he didn’t want anyone to worry about him, he’s happy.. it’s what people expect from him. karl jacobs. a positive person who’s there for everyone and cares about everyone.
false.
his persona wasn’t him. not at all. karl felt weak. the truth of his recent pain was something he couldn’t say, not even if he wanted too. he felt trapped. though it wasn’t important. what was important was making it up to his friends for leaving right now. so he did.
his hands shakily pressing unmute as he unmuted his mic on discord.
“hey guys sorry i was doing something, are we gonna play minecraft or something?” he asked making his voice seem like he wasn’t sad. he sounded happy, this wasn’t about him though it was for his friends sake.
“yeah wanna stream?” sapnap asked the other two. “sure, what about you karl?” quackity said replying to sapnap.
he didn’t want too. but for the sake of them. he did it anyways.
“sure”
time passed by quickly. soon the stream was over before they knew it. quackity asked if they wanted to hang out in the vc. and they did.
”ugh it’s so hot outside. it’s literally 12:34 am.” sapnap whined obviously annoyed.
“put a fan on?” quackity said. “i have one on but it doesn’t do anything.” sapnap replied.
“whatever man, i gotta go now. bye guys!” quackity said disconnecting from the call, leaving sapnap and karl together.
”karl?”
”huh?”
”is it him again?”
“yeah..”
who? karls boyfriend. he was.. well a dickhead. he seemed like an angel but he wasn’t. he was different than he seemed. karl has told sapnap some things, like how his boyfriend is selfish, manipulative. karl never got into detail assuming sapnap got the idea, which he did. sapnap worried about karl. when karl left those few days he was so scared. what if something bad happened..? he couldn’t do anything.
though karl. had an idea. he wanted to buy a ticket to see him. then he wouldn’t be alone.
karls brown eyes widened a bit, with happiness. he’s always wanted to meet sapnap. he loved sapnap. he was his best friend.. meeting him sounded like so much fun.
until he thought of the consequences. if he left he couldn’t imagine what would happen. all he knows is that it would not be pleasant one bit.
karls eyes started forming tears. they fell. sapnap now could tell he was crying by the sniffs and the breathing change.
”sap..” karl softly said. his voice pained. he felt like he couldn’t do anything, helpless. it’s all he felt. like a lost puppy dog. weak and helpless. alone.
“hey.. it’s okay. i’m here, don’t cry.” sapnap said concern coated his voice as he tried to comfort karl.
”i’m coming to see you.” karl blurted out. he knew he’d regret this but he needed someone and sapnap is who he had and who he needed at this very moment.
“what?”
karl discontented from the voice call. he went online and bought a ticket. a ticket that would take him to where sapnap was. florida.
karl started to panic. what if his boyfriend was to do something bad? he knew he was capable of that. capable of manipulation, abuse, should i continue? though karl was sick of it. he’d suffer from the consequences after. he needed a escape, he was desperate to get out of this hell hole.
sure his boyfriend would know eventually, though he wasn’t home. he hasn’t been for a day now. if karl was to leave he had to do it know right?
he grabbed his phone texting sapnap.
karl: i need to get out of here. just for bit. can i visit you please??
karl set his phone down waiting for him to reply. what if he said no? what if karl was stuck here. his phone buzzed and he quickly grabbed it.
sapnap: yeah you can i just wasn’t expecting that.
karl sighed with relief. he needed a break. finally getting to see his bestfriend. someone he cares for dearly, he would be happy for a little while, the happiest he’s been in awhile. sapnap was happiness, he’d be safe.
he packed a bag of clothing and stuff such. he quickly grabbed a piece of paper writing a note
”fuck you. i won’t be back for a couple days.”
and with that,
he left.