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this was it.
it was gon’s last day as a student in yorknew city. he had graduated with average grades but a not so average experience. four years had gone by in a flash and gon assumed it probably had to do with a certain someone. his best friend killua zoldyck.
killua was a pale, silver-haired man who he met in his freshman year of university. they had bonded immediately after finding out they had very similar interests. killua was funny, kind, and extremely gorgeous . gon found that he often had trouble looking away from his friend. he had also found that underneath all of the admiration he had for killua, there was something more he felt for the man.
he was helplessly in love with him.
over the four years they spent together, their friendship bloomed beautifully. killua more often than not had sleepovers at gon’s apartment. and on a few occasions, gon would sneak into killua’s house to hang out.
gon assumed it had to do with killua’s family. his friend never went into specifics about his experiences within his home, but gon was able to pick up the subtle hints. his friend seemed to always have marks on him, which he blamed on skateboarding. but gon knew that a skateboard wouldn’t create such deep cuts. he also noticed that killua’s entire mood would change the minute his family was even mentioned. he would go more quiet than usual and often closed himself off. either way, gon didn’t want to pry, in case it was too much for killua to talk about it.
gon had already said his goodbyes to his other friends. he knew he would especially miss kurapika and leorio but that they would always be a phone call away. leorio more than kurapika, since the latter never seemed to answer his phone. the last person he had to talk to was killua. on a normal occasion, gon would absolutely dread saying goodbye to killua for the last time, but this wasn’t a normal occasion.
killua had always talked about wanting to leave his family and how he’d do anything to get away from them and gon knew just how to help his desperate friend.
he wanted killua to run away with him.
at first, the thought sounded silly. but the more gon pondered on the idea, the more it made sense. killua could join him on whale island for a few months until they were both ready to find their own place. he knew it was his only chance to convince his friend to be so reckless and he planned to make it count.
gon hopped into his fully packed car, boxes filling up the trunk and most of the back seats. he planned to take a boat back to whale island, as it was the most efficient way to take everything with him. another plus was that he loved the ocean so sailing a ship sounded amazing.
gon started his car and slowly pulled out of the apartment parking lot for the last time, grinning softly as he drove away. this was a start to a new chapter in his life. one that hopefully included killua at his side.
the drive to killua’s was slow and quiet, only the air conditioning and the window wipers making noise. gon’s heart kept beating faster the closer he got to killua’s house. gon knew that it would take a big push to convince killua to leave everything behind, but he was determined and was ready to do anything to make it happen.
at last, killua’s mansion was in view. gon parked a few houses down to avoid being seen and he quietly made his way up the street. it was currently sprinkling so gon pulled up his hood to avoid wetting his hair entirely.
after successfully sneaking onto the zoldyck property, like so many times before, gon picked up a few pebbles and threw them at killua’s window. it took about five rocks for killua to finally open the window, dread shadowing his face. killua waved his hand, signalling it was safe for gon to enter. the latter climbed up with ease, as he had years of practice under his belt.
“took you long enough,” killua teased as gon entered his dark bedroom.
“yeah, yeah. i had things i needed to do,” gon replies, shutting the window quietly.
“so this is it, huh?” killua asked, sitting on his bed gently.
“god, i hope not,” gon huffs, sitting down next to his friend.
“i mean we can still call and text..” killua suggests, trying to sound hopeful but ultimately failing.
“i didn’t mean it like that,” gon states, meeting killua’s soft gaze. it was now or never.
“what way did you mean it?” killua asked, clearly confused.
“run away with me,” gon pleaded as he grabbed killua’s hands, intertwining them gently.
“you want me to WHAT ?” killua asked, voice laced with genuine shock. his eyes were widened and his jaw was slightly parted. “did you lose your final brain cells during our exam or something? what do you mean ‘run away with you’?”
“lower your voice unless you want the whole neighbourhood to hear you,” gon hushed him quietly.
“yeah, yeah. but seriously- have you lost your goddamn mind?”
“last time i checked, my mind is still in tact,” gon teases lightly. “but in all seriousness, i want you to leave with me. stay with me and aunt mito for a few months. once we get on the right track we can go everywhere together. just you and me.” gon squeezes killua’s hand tighter.
“now i know you officially lost it. i can’t just get up and leave my entire family-“
“oh don’t use that bullshit excuse on me. i think i’d be rich if i had a dollar for every time you complained about them or said you wanted to leave. you told me you would do anything to leave for good. are you implying that was all just lies?” gon protested, refusing to lose this argument.
“of course it was true. i’d never lie to you. but i just can’t.”
“why?” gon asked, desperate to know what was holding his friend back.
“it’s nothing.”
“it clearly is something if you can’t tell me,” gon claimed, now rising to his feet. killua followed suit.
“it’s because i’m scared, okay? i’m absolutely petrified of them. you happy now?” killua finally revealed, voice filled with discomfort.
gon’s eyes softened. before him, killua stood with his arms crossed and looking at anything besides gon. that alone was enough to convince the man. he wouldn’t let killua suffer any longer. “we can protect each other. that’s what friends do for one another, right?” gon suggested softly.
“but what if i’m not enough? what if one day i can’t-“ killua couldn’t even bring himself to finish the sentence. gon tenderly grabbed killua’s chin and moved it so that the blue-eyed man was now staring into his own.
“anything you do, it’ll always be enough for me,” gon whispers softly and he swore he saw killua’s lip quiver.
“okay, fine. let’s say i do go with you. but what if-“ killua was scared, gon could tell. he was reaching for anything to grasp onto. desperate to find a legitimate excuse to decline. gon was determined to know what it was.
“what are you so afraid of, killua?” gon questions, and his serious tone caused killua to stop in his tracks.
“i’m not scared of anything,” killua retorts.
“i thought you said you didn’t lie to me,” gon asked but it felt like an accusation more than anything.
“i don’t,” killua scoffed.
“then tell me what you’re so afraid of-”
“you! i’m so scared, terrified actually that you’re going to realize i’m nothing special and leave me,” killua admitted, voice faintly cracking.
“i would never do that,” gon whispers, squeezing killua’s now sweaty hand.
“how do you know for certain?” killua was now the one asking questions that didn’t want to be answered.
“i just- i just know,” gon replies vaguely.
“i need a reason, gon. i just, i need one.”
gon said he would do anything to convince killua to join him. and he decided that if it took potentially jeopardizing their friendship and telling killua how he really felt to convince him. then so be it.
“because i’m in love with you-“ gon was on the verge of yelling now. a brief show of disgust spread on killua’s face. gon felt his heart drop.
“how dare you,” killua whimpers. “you can’t just say that in an attempt to convince me- that’s so incredibly cruel.” killua genuinely sounded like he could cry.
“this isn’t just to convince you-” gon could feel his chest tighten. a large lump formed at the back of his throat, making him feel mildly uncomfortable.
why would killua think that of him?
“i love you so much and i just wanna be with you.” gon thought he saw a tear roll down killua’s cheek but he didn’t acknowledge it.
it was pouring rain now. the sound of thunder was echoing around them, making them sound way more quiet than they were actually being.
“prove it,” killua demands, taking a step towards gon.
“you want me to prove that i love you?” gon mocks.
“yes. i want you to-“ killua is cut off as gon crashes his lips onto his. lightning strikes brightly.
it took killua a few seconds to realize what was happening. gon was kissing him. when he was finally able to grasp the situation, he kissed back harder than he ever had before, passion overwhelming his thought process.
killua’s lips were everything gon imagined and more. they were so incredibly soft and had the faintest taste of chocolate lingering on them.
when killua suddenly kissed back harder than gon was anticipating, the latter had an urge that quickly overcame him. he shoved killua against the nearest wall, a small thud was created by the motion. gon wrapped his eager hands around killua’s waist, gripping tightly. a soft sound emits from killua’s mouth as he entangled his fingers into gon’s unkept hair. as they continued making out, gon concluded that this was probably the best kiss he had ever had.
when gon was out of breath, he pulled away, a few huffs leaving both men. killua’s eyes were blown wide and his typically pale lips were extremely red, due to how hard they had been kissing. gon assumed he probably shared the same fate. he could still feel their breaths mingling, as they were only a few inches apart.
“did that prove it?” gon whispers into killua’s ear.
a smug smile makes its way onto killua’s face as he replies, “no, it didn’t.”
gon rolls his eyes and captures killua into another breathtaking kiss. since killua apparently didn’t get enough last time, gon wanted to try harder. he picked killua up by his thighs and wrapped the latters legs around his waist in one swift motion. killua gasped in shock but continued to kiss gon roughly.
gon pulled away from his friend and immediately brought his lips to killua’s neck. out of instinct, killua moved his neck to give gon better access, which gon used to his full advantage. the sudden motion caused killua to tug his hair and gon loved it. he continued to pepper kisses all around killua’s neck, occasionally biting softly. killua continued to lace his fingers through gon’s thick hair as he indulged in his friend’s affection.
everything about this moment was perfect. the rain pouring outside and hitting the window loudly. the moon being the only light source in killua’s room, causing everything around them to be dark. the way gon felt as he continued to press sweet kisses all over killua. and especially the noises killua would make every so often.
finally, gon pulled away and kissed killua one last time before setting him down gently. killua kept his hands intwined with gon’s hair as they both stared at each other. blue meeting brown intensely.
“now, was that enough?” gon asked again, smiling playfully.
“hm, i think one more kiss would suffice,” killua smirked, leaning closer to the brown-eyed man.
gon placed a finger over killua’s soft lips and whispered, “i’ll give you all the kisses you want if you come with me.” gon sees what he thinks is the most sincere smile killua has ever made and he grins too.
“okay. i will. i’ll come with you.”
gon thinks he could jump with delight but he ultimately holds back since he didn’t want to bring any more attention to killua’s bedroom.
“just grab whatever you want to bring and we can buy the rest as we go,” gon chirps, sitting back down on killua’s bed. gon watches as killua pulls out a small backpack from his closet and stuffs it with basic necessities like his favourite clothing, his toothbrush, and other knickknacks. he also noticed how killua slipped in a few personal belongings. they were mainly small treasures or pretty rocks but what was special about them was that they were all things gon had gotten him. gon blushed deeply at subconscious gesture.
once killua had packed up everything he wanted to bring, he pulled gon into a brisk kiss and grabbed his hand. “let’s get out of here before illumi catches us.” gon nods and they both climb onto the roof.
the rain had slowed down but it was still pouring rain. the duo ran quickly off the zoldyck property, hand in hand and never looking back once. once they managed to make it to gon’s old car, they laughed as they entered the dry vehicle.
“this is so exhilarating,” killua giggled as he brought gon in for yet another tender kiss. their lips were wet from the rain but neither seemed to mind as they revelled in the contact.
“i’m so proud of you, y’know,” gon mumbled, and he felt killua smile into their kiss.
“thanks. for everything. seriously, i never would have been able to do this without you,” killua finally replied, taking gon’s warm hand in his.
“it was a pleasure, really,” gon smirked and he’s sure he saw killua blush faintly.
“let’s get out of here then,” killua declared.
“whale island, here we come.”