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She should have known better. She should have expected it to happen. How stupid of her to believe Wei Ying would never hurt her.
Lan Wangji half walked and half run towards the direction of the elevator as tears flow down her cheeks.
“ah ah hah, Wei Ying move fast- er mmh good~~ ” she hears the woman spoke once she opened the door of Wei Wuxian’s room. There, to her horror, she saw her boyfriend on top of said woman moving to and fro as he grunts in pleasure.
Apalled at what she has seen, she can only utter a weak, “Wei Ying …”
Suddenly, the motion on the bed went to a halt and Wei Ying turned his head slowly towards where Wangji was standing, with tears flowing down her cheeks.
“Lan Zhan!” says the man as he immediately went off the woman and went down from the bed naked making Wangji look away immediately feeling her heart hurt even more. Wuxian scanned the floor picking up his discarded clothes.
“What are you doing here?” he says as he put on his clothes from her peripheral view.
Wangji had told him she came to bring him food before she ran away as she felt like she can’t breathe.
She would also invite him to go on a date afterwards since today is their day off. That today, they would have created new good memories as a couple. But she didn’t get the chance to do that because she ran away. She just can’t take what she saw. About the fact that her boyfriend seemed to not be contented with her hence he became intimate with another woman.
It has been a month or so ever since they’ve gotten together at the gala. Everything was a bliss to Wangji and she can’t help but wonder if she’s still dreaming. After all, her long time idol has finally become her lover.
But today, that bliss has finally come to an end. And right now, she can’t help but feel stupid. Feel stupid because she really thought that since she had become Wuxian’s girlfriend, she would be the only one for him.
That she would be the only one who can get close to him in that regard. However, how wrong she was. Because she saw it with her own eyes, how he is capable of still doing things with other women what she expected him to do only with her once they get married.
But alas! What marriage! He cheated at this stage! Does she think he wouldn’t once they get married?!
When the empty elevator opened, Wangji was just going to step in it when a tight hold on her wrist made her pause.
“Lan Zhan! Let me explain please! Lan Zhan I’m so sorry! Lan Zhan!” says the person behind her. She didn’t bother turning to look at who it is. After all, she can tell who it was just by hearing his voice.
She wants to withdraw her hand and lash out at him. She wants to punch him in the face and wherever it would be just so he can feel just how deeply he hurt her.
But she finds that she can’t. After all, Wei Wuxian had been a womanizer for years. Therefore she can’t blame him of what happened today. Because she should have known better. She should have known better than to believe the words and actions of a womanizer. It’s her own fault for hoping he won’t cheat on her.
“Lan Zhan, she was my friend and I’ve been telling her how I’ve had difficulties holding back my sexual urges, since you and I mutually decided to abstain sex until marriage. S-She offered to help me with it and I promise you I’ve refused her! Many times! But then as days went by, it’s getting really difficult and I’ve no choice so I…”
There was a pause as Wangji raised her head looking at the ceiling as tears continued streaming down her face. Then she says in a shaky breath. “You gave in.”
She felt a weight rest on her shoulder and hears him whisper. “Yes. I’m so sorry, Lan Zhan. I’ve no choice.”
Turning slowly to face him, the woman said, “You have Wei Ying. You have.”
The man looked at her his eyes red rimmed. “Lan Zhan, I’ve done everything I could! I promise!”
“Wei Ying could have told me. Yet you- “ sniffs. “-chose not to. Did we not promise there will be no secrets?”
Wuxian open and closed his mouth as if to say something. But he found that he can’t refute any of that. After all, they did promise not to be secretive with each other. So he can only settle with, “Lan Zhan, I’m sorry. I’m sorry please forgive me-“
“Will you stop putting all the blame on him? Isn’t it your fault this happened?” says another voice making both look at them.
Turns out, it was the woman who was with Wei Ying earlier crossing her arms.
She was in all honesty, beautiful. Wangji would not blame Wuxian for getting tempted with her. But right now, all she sees is a demoness who seduced the man she loves.
“Wei Ying told me everything. He said you were the one who made this nonsense boundary of having no sex until marriage, and since he was inlove with you, he chose to follow through what you wanted. But what about what he wants? Did you not pause to consider it?”
“Sisi, stay out of this! Don’t fault her for my mistake! ” says Wei Ying putting himself in front of Lan Zhan.
“It is rather fine. After all, she is right.” Wangji replied as she stepped out standing in front of Wei Ying facing the Sisi making them look at her. “Lan Zhan… “
“Ms. Si, I presume that your conception about love is giving everything your partner wants, is it not?” says Wangji as she wiped a tear from her cheek looking at the woman.
The woman unfolded her arms and then put it on her either side waist looking like a brat bitch. “What about it?”
“I hate to correct you, but that is not love at all. Love may be give and take but you do not have to give your all to someone in one setting. Learn to have strong foundation first in your relationship before diving in to physical intimacy.”
Listening to her speak, Wei Wuxian can only bow his head in shame.
“Hah! How old fashioned! No wonder Wei Ying turned to me."
“No wonder you have nobody permanent by your side. Hence you are seducing other's boyfriend.”
Sisi gaped at that. “Wha-but what about you?? Didn’t he cheated on you? You have no right to accuse me of having no one permanent by my side seeing how your relationship will never be permanent since he seems to be discontent with you!” she says with gestures.
“Sisi, I am not discontented with her! I was just tempted and then I made a mistake!” says Wei Wuxian feeling anger towards the woman.
“Is that so-“ starts Sisi but then a voice interrupted her.
“You are incorrect.” Turns out it was Wangji, making the two person look at her.
“Huh?”
“It might not be Wei Ying, but I know that someone will eventually stay by my side.”
Hearing that, Wei Wuxian felt fear and shock at that. “Lan Zhan, what are you talking about?”
But Lan Wangji ignored her and continued speaking to Sisi.
“For as long as I keep my dignity intact and never settle for temporary pleasure, someone will eventually know my worth. However for you Ms. Si, I pity you.”
Sisi was just going to retort at that but Wangji was not done yet.
“You will forever live in a life where no one would ever take you seriously. No one would ever love someone who does not know how to value their selves.”
“I value myself just fine thank you very much!”
“By making yourself commit such an evil demonic act? Is that how one values their life?”
“You! Who are you calling evil? Hmmp!“ Sisi flipped her hair trying to not lose composure and then crossed her arms again. “Whatever. Call me whatever you want! It still doesn’t change the fact that your boyfriend cheated on you! She cheated on you because you won’t satisfy him!” she says laughing mockingly at Wangji.
Wangji looked down at that, new grains of tears forming in her beautiful sad eyes ready to fall out as she was reminded of Wuxian’s betrayal to her.
“Sisi! What the fu**! Stop talking already!” says Wei Wuxian who has been silent as they speak with each other. He then walked in front of Wangji facing her, holding both her shoulders. “Lan Zhan, don’t listen to her! You never lacked anything! It was my fault. This is all my fault! Lan Zhan look at me. Lan Zhan, please!”
Wangji didn’t move for a moment seemingly paralyzed at Sisi’s words. But she decided to toughen herself.
Taking a deep breath, Wangji looked at Wuxian and uttered to Sisi. “You are right Ms. Si. Wuxian cheated because of me.”
“Lan Zhan, No! It’s not your fault!”
She shook her head. “You have been a womanizer for years. Knowing that, I still made you went through such difficulty. Of no physical intimacy. For that, I hope you forgive me.” She says as she cups the man’s face, his eyes now flowing with tears putting a hand over the woman’s wrist.
“Lan Zhan, you didn’t! Lan Zhan I’m sorry this is my fault… “
Sighing deeply, the woman continued. “However now, no longer would you need to go through such difficulty.”
“Lan Zhan, what do you mean?” says Wuxian sounding quite fearful.
“Wei Ying, I am- “ Wangji gulped as a tear fell from her eyes. “letting you go.”
The man suddenly stepped backwards at that. “Lan Zhan you don’t- you don’t mean that…!“
As a response, Wangji only leaned in to kiss his cheek and whispered, “Goodbye, my love.”
Then she run towards the stairs, no longer wanting to stay any longer and wait when the elevator would open up next.
“Lan Zhan! Lan Zhan! Don’t do this to me please.. Let’s talk this out! I’ll make amends! Lan Zhan!” she hears the man say and hears footsteps following her. But she only run faster and hide in another floor so that the man wouldn’t be able to find her.
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When Wangji made it home, her brother took one look at her and then enveloped her in a hug. There, she sob quietly in his arms like when she was just a child. Only now, instead of crying for her mother, she’s crying for her first heartbreak.
She wished this is just all a nightmare but sadly, the pain in her heart was so real. It coudn't possibly be a dream.
When she calm down, she told her brother everything that happened. Her brother looked so angry and was going to go away to maybe go punch Wuxian but she stopped him. Sure her brother is not the kind to punch someone but who knows what the reality really is right?
“It is fine, brother. Wangji already broke up with him.”
Lan Xichen look at his sister and then decide to hug her once more. He can't help but regret letting Wei Wuxian into her life. He now knows that his uncle was right when he decided not to trust Wei Ying's intentions. Sadly, it was already too late for regrets seeing his dear sister crying in his arms.
He wished he should have listen to his uncle then but Lan Zhan was just so happy seeing her long time crush liking her back so he just decided to let them be. Now, look at what happened..
There was silence as Wangji felt her brother’s comforting presence. It made the pain less hurtful than before but still the damage is already there and it left a large wound in her heart. The wound hurts so much most especially when she would remember the incident from earlier. About the fact that Wuxian can easily break her heart and trust when she’s not looking.
It may still hurt. However, she’s still thankful there was someone to comfort her by her side. Thank God for his brother.
“Brother, how do I forgive? Wangji does not want to hold grudge.” Says Wangji as her brother caress her hair.
Lan Xichen didn’t speak for a moment and then.
“It would not be easy. However Mei-mei, forgiveness is for your own sake. Not for him. Forgiveness is what would free you from bitterness and hatred. From grudge as you said. And once you forgive him, only then, can your wounds heal.”
(A/n: Mei-mei is a Chinese word for ‘little sister')
There was a pause and then.
“I do not know if I can.”
“ You do not need to hurry about forgiving him. But please do consider it. I do not want you ruining yourself because of the hurt he’s done to you, Wangji. You’re my only sister. I hate to see you hurting.”
Wangji only hugged his brother tight in response.
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Three days later, Wangji calls her brother to her room. “Wangji, what is it?”
“I have decided to forgive him.”
Lan Xichen smiled at that as he leaned his side to the opened door crossing his arms. “You have been aloof for three days hiding yourself in your room. But I am happy to know you are merely considering what I told you. That is good Wangji.”
“Mn. I need help.”
Raising his brows, the man unfolded his arms and walk towards her. “What is it?”
The woman only turned towards Wei Wuxian’s posters in her room. “Wangji has revolved herself around him for years. Wangji has decided it is time to change that.”
There was a pause and then.
“Are you certain, Wangji?” says Lan Xichen seriously.
“One should not make another person be the center of their world. Because one would never really know where that certain person’s heart truly lies. Brother, Wangji is certain.”
There was another pause before Lan Xichen smiled again and replied. “Wangji, you’ve grown mature over the years. I’m proud of you! Alright. Brother will help you.”
She gave her rare slip out smile and said. “Mn. Brother, I have decided to conduct a seminar Camp.”
“Really? About what?”
“Relationships.”
Chuckles. “That sounds good! Do you need my help?”
With a twinkle of her eyes, she replied. “Wangji is counting on brother.”
“Alright. But for now, how about we start cleaning up this poste-“ Lan Xichen paused as he was interrupted by a frantic knock on the door.
“Lan Zhan, Lan Zhan! Let me speak with you please! I miss you so much! Lan Zhaan!”
Sigh. “He’s here again. Wangji, do you want me to speak with him for you or do you think you’re ready to speak with him now?”
Wangji shakes her head and then she turn to look at the open window looking at the beautiful sky.
“Alright. I’ll be back.”
With that, Lan Xichen went out of her room. It made Wangji breathed out a sigh of relief. Really, she’s thankful she has a brother like Lan Xichen.