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''Oh sh-''
Crash.
The girl got on her knees trying to put back into place the remanents of a broken plate, it was nothing special, just a random gift Silco had given to her not long after she found herself under his care. It was merely a white plate with some funny drawings around and under it a monkey drawn as she would often do. It was accompanied by some other things very well design so as no one would use them besides her, only for her.
''No no no nononono...'' she kept muttering, her voice getting a higher pitch every time. ''No no, it's okay, it'll be fine. It's just- It's just an object, it's not that bad-''
'You fucked up, he's gonna get really angry' a voice said at the back of her head, Jinx felt her eyes prickle with tears. ''No, no- he wouldn't it was an accident I can just put it back with glue and-'' a mocking laughter made her flinch as she tried putting every little piece back as if it was a puzzle, her fingers got little cuts on them dying the floor with a few drops. She paid no mind. 'You're always breaking everything, how can you be so much stupid?' ''...I can make it so someone else grabs it and it will appear as if they broke it- I did it a lot of times, right? This is just-''
There were more than one voice, each had a different tone and she didn't want to try to recognice them. She just wanted time to go back before she commited the stupid mistake of thinking the thing would be just fine at the border of the table, how could she had been so dumb?! It was obvious it would fall! It was so obvious yet everytime she would always...
''Shut up! It's fine, it's fine, he won't mind. I break a lot of things daily, I almost blew up a factory, he won't... he wouldn't-'' her tears kept falling down filled with frustration at herself and anxiety.
'You broke it, it's such an important thing but you still were so careless. He will be sooo dissapointed.'
Her hands turned into fists around her blue hair, she scratched and hit herself in desperation, whines coming from her throat. He would hate her, she didn't mean to- she cared about it, she really did, it was a gift from him after all. But she broke it, she... she was being a jinx again.
''Jinx- Jinx! What happened?'' there was a voice, this once not from inside she noticed, but still felt so far away. She was drowning in tears and blood, she was drowning but the voice still tried to reach for her. ''Breathe, Jinx, Breathe with me. I'm here, it's okay.'' the blue haired girl realized it was her caretaker and tried to imitate him, when he asked if he could take her hands with a softer tone Jinx slowly nodded, still some hiccups escaped from her.
His cold hands brushed hers as he calmly helped Jinx relax them, some shards still were buried inside. Silco took them out with precise movements, she was still trembling and muttering under her breath.
After a couple of minutes of reassurance, Jinx's voice had a bit more strenght.
''I'm sorry, i'm sorry I broke it...'' she said, not daring to look into his mismatched eyes. He analyzed her to make sure he wouldn't trigger her again, and softly spoke.
''Is it because of the plate?'' he had noticed the scraps around her but held no mocking tone, a slight relief allowed her to let her eyes wander around. ''What happened, dear?''
''I... I was just washing dishes and put it too close to the border of the table- I thought it would be fine! I didn't expect something to push it after I placed it wrong! I- please don't hate me, I didn't mean to break it, I know i'm always messing things up but-'' he interrupted her with a brush of his left hand on her bangs. He cupped her face with his other hand and made her look at him, she still had tears running through her cheeks although not as bad as before.
''I could never hate you, Jinx. Especially not because of something like this.'' Silco stroked her cheek as she sniffed. ''It is only an object, it can be replaced.''
She stammered, still anxious ''But, but you got it for me... and I...'' his lips pressed onto her forehead in an attempt to calm her down yet again.
''If it really bothers you, we can glue it together so you can keep it in a safe place and I will get you another, functionable one.'' A tiny smile appeard on his lips, she sniffed once more. The voice had stopped talking long ago. Jinx hugged him. Silco patted her back with care.
''It was only an accident, a mistake if you must, things happen. No need to fret over it, I will never hate you because of it.''