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Tommy's useless.
Everyone knows that.
But it still hurt to see everyone prove it directly in his face.
Tubbo.. His bestfriend, the one who would always forever be one of his most favorite persons in the world-- moved on without him.
He's not even sure if tubbo mourned for him the same way he mourns for ranboo.
He had came back from phils after dream chased him down for a whole fucking night. Visiting his former best friend at his mansion, he didn't even have to knock. The door was open and he had invited himself into the house by his own.
He found tubbo freezing on the couch, clutching a family picture of him and ranboo with their son near his chest. Completely out of his own conscious mind as tommy tried to talk to him. Ask how he was, if he was okay.
Now?
He's with ghostboo in the front. Micheal, who had finally been saved by tubbo, eret, and fucking technoblade, was playing with his ghost father as tubbo watched fondly.
He couldn't tell if he's happy that they're happy, or if cruel sinful envy fills up his lungs and mind.
He had made his presence known to tubbo by walking up to him. The boy was startled at first yet awkwardly greeted him in hello. (But he could still see the very faint annoyance in his eyes. As if he doesn't want tommy there.)
(Tommy wasn't planning on coming back anytime soon anyway.)
"How are you bossman? What brings you here?"
"Fine. I just.. Wanted to give you this." He handed (well practically shoved) an envelope into tubbos hands. The boy was quick to open it before tommy stopped him.
"No, stop. You.. You have to open it next week."
"What? Tommy. I don't have time for your childish games or pranks. Why can't i open it now?--"
"Just.. Please. Listen to me." Tommy interrupted, because it's the last thing tubbo could truly do for him. After everything, it didn't ever end up with them against the world did it?
Tubbo looked more annoyed but pitied him, shrugging before tucking it into one of his pockets of the thick warm inducing jacket.
"Are you staying?"
"No." He replied, he had better things to do. He has a plan, and even if he didnt-- he's overstayed his welcome.
"Fine. I'll see you around then tommy."
"Yeah.. Okay. Bye tubbo."
His bestfriend didn't say another goodbye in response, walking over to his dead husband and giggling son with a smile he didn't even put on for tommy.
It's fine. He doesn't care. Not anymore.
Not when he'll be in limbo.
He turned around and started walking to the portal. Emotions numb while static went off in his mind.
There's nobody to stop him anymore. He has the chance.
Dreams not near him. (That he knows of.)
Tubbo doesn't care anymore. And if he does, well he doesn't act like it.
Wilburs god knows where.
Phil disowned him- literally everyone hes ever given his fucking life and soul to doesn't care anymore.
So now he has the chance to go and be free.
He hadn't been a ghost when dream killed him in the prison. (Well, he hopes not. When ghostbur was still on the server instead of the newly revived wilbur, he mentioned talking to "him". Despite tommy being completely dead in the prison.)
Ghost or not, it wouldn't stop him anyway.
If he has no ghost, dream can't revive him. If he has no body with it being burnt to a crisp inside hot bubbling lava, he can't revive him.
He'll be free. Limbo, despite being horrible and painful to get there, at least was far more kinder than the server will ever be to him again.
He hasn't even realized he finally reached the nether. Snapping back into reality, tommy looked around for any blank spots with deep filled lava. Somewhere nobody will find him.
He walked around a couple more minutes, before settling into the same spot that has always drawled him towards.
The same spot he tried to jump off off of in exile.
The same spot looked untouched. Sure it had some holes caused here and there from dream, but that was back in exile. Until then, nobody has touched it until now. With him, again.
It was time.
Tommy took a deep breath in, his final, deep breath in. The lava seemed to be inviting him, and he swears he could hear the voices of all the people who have hurt him and who's he hurt in return.
"You're selfish tommy!"
"You're a traitor! A leech, a parasite!"
"Nobody cares about you tommy. Not anymore at least."
"How can one kid be so awfully destructive?"
As the voices screamed insults and mocks in his brain. He stepped forward and forward into the ledge, unhearing the rapid footsteps coming towards him from behind.
He hopes that mexican dream and ghostbur wont mind him staying a while.
Tommy was about to take the final step that would open the door to limbo before familiar arms yanked him away from the cliffs ledge.
And what did tommy do in response?
He screamed.
He thrashed and yelled angrily. Not in surpise or fear, but anger. Offended that someone would stop him from taking away the servers misery. Uncaring of who it was he thrashed and kicked, and shouted insults.
"You fucking dick! Let me go! You can't-- you can't stop me from being in control of my life! I just want control over my life for once-- please." He sobbed. Finally realizing the tears falling from his eyes.
Tommy froze when he realized who the culprit that was holding him was.
Technoblade.
Techno, his now ex brother, had an exact same shocked look in his face. As if he was in disbelief tommy was going to take his own life.
But what the shit does it matter to him?
"Theseus-"
"No! No i refuse to let you be the one to stop me. Let me go-- let me go you fucking bitch!"
That seemed to jolt techno out of shock as he scrambled up yet held tommys arm so that the boy doesn't run off.
"What were you trying to do by taking your life theseu--"
"What?! You want me to explain to you why i was gonna kill myself? Thats rich coming from you technoblade. Have you forgotten you tried to kill me anyway in doomsday? If anything i thought I'd be doing you a favour."
"..By.. Killing yourself."
"Yep" tommy said casually, popping the 'p' in the word.
They sat in silence for what felt forever to tommy before he tugged away from the older mans grip. "Well you can let me go now asshole."
Technoblade?
He fucking chuckled.
"I knew you were stupid. But i didn't think you would go down to farther levels unknown to man kind."
"What?"
Techno yanked tommy upwards. Making the boy stumble and yelp in surprise. "I'm not letting you out of my sight. Not after this, not after seeing my little brother put himself out in open danger."
Tommy.. Tommy's in disbelief and shock.
It's almost laughable how fast he went from fighting and thrashing in anger to standing completely still in shock and fear.
"..What?"
The man didn't respond. Only starting to drag tommy away from the spot even as tommy screeched and yelled in protest.
And it was all futile anyways. He was practically a stick compared to the "almighty technoblade" thin and frail that he's sure technos probably not even trying yet knows even the smallest bit of strength was more than tommy ever has.
It was inevitable being taken back to technos cabin. No matter what he tried.