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Eddie closed the door behind him and appreciated the temperature of his trailer for a moment. It was still hot but fresher than outside. Wayne was in the kitchen, he looked at Eddie and said hi. He was packing some food for his night shift and was about to leave.
“you want me to drop you ?” asked Eddie while he carefully put down his guitar case.
“oh I’m fine, I’m going with James, thanks”
James was another man living a few trailers away than Wayne and Eddie’s. He was working at the same place as Wayne, so sometimes they’ll go to work together. Eddie walked toward the sink and quickly rinsed a mug to fill it with tap water, he drank it fastly and exhaled.
Wayne asked Eddie if he wanted him to cook him some pasta and Eddie answered that he already ate at Gareth’s place, apologising for coming home that late.
“hadn’t planned to stay that long…” Eddie left the trailer at 2pm and it was about to turn 9.
“as long as you ate” Wayne never really established rules for Eddie, he just prefered him to spend the night here as much as he could, but he didn’t have hourly rules.
Wayne closed his little tupperware and put it in his work bag, he saw Eddie grabbing his guitar case and he warned him before he got toward his room.
“oh- uh, there is uh- Steve, in your room” he said, pointing to the corridor.
Eddie stopped himself and looked at Wayne with eyebrow knitted, he was about to talk but Wayne did first :
“he knocked an hour after you left” he lowered his voice “he asked if you were here and looked lost when i told him you were at Gareth’” he stopped for a sec “that kid seemed off, I told him he could stay in so he did” Wayne looked confused, he wasn’t bother by Steve staying in because he knew him and liked him but he was confused about Steve state.
“is he okay ?” asked Eddie with a point of worryness in his voice, his body turned toward his room’s door, he wanted to go but he waited to let Wayne finish.
“didn’t seem like it, usually we talk and laugh when he’s here but- he was quiet, I think he slept all afternoon”.
Eddie thanked Wayne and wished him a good night shift. Wayne answered that in case he needed something, he had to call his boss. The number was written on a post-it under the phone for years but Eddie never called, he knew the boss wouldn’t let Wayne leave his work but he appreciated his concern.
Wayne wished him a good night and left, locking the door behind him.
Eddie stopped moving in front of his room door and did a little tapping against the wood to warn Steve that he was there, he didn’t hear any noises back so he slowly opened the door and leaned his head into the room.
The room was quiet, you could just hear Steve’s breathing. He was laying in Eddie’s bed, turned toward the wall, under Eddie’s duvet even if the room felt as warm as a sauna. It looked like he was still sleeping. Eddie went into the room quietly and gently put down his guitar case.
He stood here and looked at Steve for a minute, hand on his waist, not knowing exactly what to do. He bended his leg and came closer to the ground to open his guitar case as quietly as he can. He led the the zipper over the length of the case while keeping his eyes on Steve.
He finally opened the case and he took his red marbled beautiful guitar by the neck to land her on the wall hooks which were there to welcome her.
After that, he took off his denim jacket and put it to the back of his chair. When he looked back at Steve, he had turned his body toward his side of the room and he was looking at him with sleepy eyes.
“hi” whispered Eddie with soft eyes “how are you” he instantly asked while going forward to sit on the edge of his bed.
Steve raised his shoulders “could be better”. He put his hand out of the blanket and rubbed his face to wake himself up. He pushed himself on his hand to straighten his body and sat against Eddie’s pillows.
“I’m sorry I took your room, I-” he couldn’t finish his own sentence.
“you needed a way out” said Eddie, Steve nodded “sorry I wasn’t there, though I told you I was at Gareth’s”.
“you did, I just forgot”
They stared at each other's eyes for a moment, Steve let his head fall against the wall behind the pillow and Eddie was still sitting on the edge of his bed, looking at him.
“did you ate ?”
Steve turned his head toward Eddie’s bedside, where a bowl of pasta was laying.
“Wayne brings me a plate of pasta, almost bursted in tears when he did” said Steve with a laugh. “he’s so nice”. His expression changed quickly, going from a smile to him biting his lips while trying to not get wet eyes. He looked at Eddie’s windows to avoid his gaze. The curtains were close but he could see some inches of the outside.
“he was probably happy to help you, you know you’re welcome anytime Steve you don’t need to be embarrassed for that.”
“I didn’t know what to do” his eyes were definitely wet and Eddie could see it even if the room was dark: “I couldn’t handle one more fight-”. His voice cracked, Eddie knew he was in a bad place mentally and physically, he was exhausted to hear his parents fighting over and over, sometimes the screams were just too much and he sneaked out, often to come at the trailer park like he did today.
Eddie knew how it felt, he had been through that for years before he finally got to live with his uncle. He knew exactly the feeling of physically not being able to hear more screams.
He leaned his body toward Steve and wrapped his arms around him. Steve let his head fall against Eddie and he put his hands on his arms, grabbing his skin hardly in his hands, to keep him close. He breathed loudly against Eddie, feeling loved and finally not alone in his arms.
“You okay here” he whispered.
Eddie kissed his cheek once and his jaw after that. They were comforting kisses, true love comforting kisses. Then he squeezed him tighter in his arms. Steve kissed him back on the jaw and stayed in his arms for a minute, Eddie gently rubbing his back.
Then Steve moved backward to face him. They looked at each other’s eyes and Steve looked at Eddie’s lip for a sec, he asked for a kiss. Eddie got closer and closed his eyes to kiss him softly. They ended the kiss with a noise and pulled their lips together once again, and then, one last time, keeping their lips together as long as they could.
Steve felt great, the anxious feeling in his stomach became surrounded by a warm feeling. Eddie’s cheeks were pinkish when they separated and Steve still felt like he wanted to kiss him.
Eddie looked down around his thighs : “did you sleep with a hoodie of mine ?” he said with a giant smile. He saw a piece of a hoodie sleeve next to his thighs and pulled it from under the blanket. It was one of the hoodies he'd wear if it was cold in the trailer.
Steve felt shy, he played with his bottom lip and said :
“maybe I did” with a little smile “they smell like you” he said for himself, with a vicious look.
“Well, you know what else smells like me ?” asked Eddie “me !” he said out loud while he jumped against Steve, making him fall against the pillows.
Steve's shirt was too big for him, you could see the beginning of his chest. So Eddie leaned his head over it and made a succession of kisses noises against his collar bones while Steve had his hands on his hair.
“right now you just smell like sweat” he laughed.
Eddie raised up his head, faking up being shocked by the declaration.
“yeah I do” he admitted “it’s hot here, I’m gonna take a shower and then we’ll watch a movie, ok ?”
“ok” answered Steve. When he was looking at Eddie, his eyes were so shiny, his pupils were big.
He moved his lips forward to show that he wanted a kiss. Eddie kissed him a last time with his lips a little bit open, Steve could feel the wetness of his lips right against his. Eddie breathed against his face, showing he was enjoying the kiss, then he left his lips and looked at him with a smile while he walked away for a shower.
“I’ll be quick” he screamed after he got out of the room.
He in fact, showered very quickly. He washed his whole body in a row with a basic soap, insisting on his hairy armpits. He let the water and the soap run above his waist and his hips,
then he just let the water soaked his hair and he brushed his teeth in the shower. He didn’t need to wash his hair but he just wanted to have this cold wet hair falling on his neck, and he used it as an excuse to have time to brush his teeth, to be sure he had a presentable breath.
“Steeve ?” he screamed from the bathroom door, dripping water from his hair falling all along his body to the floor “can you bring me my pyjamas please ?”
“coming-”
Steve kept his eyes closed in case Eddie was naked and held his pyjama, arm out in front of him, another hand covering his eyes to be sure Eddie knew he wasn’t looking.
Eddie huffed a laugh from his nose and took the pyjama while thanking him. They weren’t together for a while and Steve had a point on making Eddie comfortable by not looking at him or always asking if he could. Eddie thought it was because he would like to not be watched or to be warn when he was, so Eddie took the habit to do the same thing.
Eddie didn’t take time to dry his hair a little with the towel, he just put on his shirt and shorts and got out of the bathroom. He wouldn't guess this afternoon that he would be so needy of Steve this evening.
“you look great-” said Steve with a smile, looking at Eddie when he came back into the room.
His shirt always had this effect. It was a cropped sleeveless metallica dark grey shirt that he wore a lot when it was hot like today. You could obviously see all the pinkish healed scar tissue on his waist and on his arms. Steve knew how much more was on his chest, under the shirt.
Eddie wasn’t ashamed of his scars at all, he always said it made him look cooler, but Steve knew how sensitive the skin still was and how he avoided touching it. His shorts were basic box/sport black shorts that hide even more pink scars on the top of his thighs.
Steve moved under the blanket and finally got his legs out of the bed, appreciating the temperature, which was lower than under the big blanket. The sheets were still hiding the rest of his body, only from his knees to his feet were out of the bed”.
“Eddie ?” Eddie turned his head toward him “uh?”
“Is this okay if I am in boxers ?”
“Yea, Steve” he said with a little smile “if you’re okay with it I don’t care, but I have short if you want” Steve and Eddie were different on this point, Eddie was careless and could lay bare naked in front of Steve with no shame, but Steve was more shy and private about his body, a thing Eddie respected but it made him smile.
“It’s okay” he said.
Steve got up and stretched his back with a noise. Eddie promised himself to play it cool but he knew how he was easily distracted by Steve’s body. He looked somewhere else and checked his watch on his desk.
Then he felt hot hands on his sides, the hair on his arms standed up. Steve was right behind him and he had leaned his hands on his waist, where his skin was still sensitive. They had talked about both of their scars and about how they felt with the touching part, of course if Steve touched Eddie’s scars, it was because he was okay with it.
“jealous of mines, Harrington ?” Eddie put his hands above Steve’s, feeling his stomach become warmer.
“Yea, definitely” he said against his neck. Eddie's scars were way more big than Steve’s, and it took a big part of the top of his body, it was impressive. Steve wasn’t really jealous of them, and Eddie knew it, but it was something very personal between them, sharing the same kind of scars, and having a big meaning behind them. Plus, Eddie almost lost his life because of them, and it has the power to make Steve very emotional.
Eddie closed his eyes, the touch added to the warmness of his breath against his skin could start something he didn’t want to bring tonight. He just wanted to spend time with his boyfriend, and be sure Steve was okay after what he went through today.
“do you want to watch a movie ?” he asked.
“as long as it’s not an horror movie”
Eddie laughed, Steve acted like a child during horror movies, Eddie found it funny and cute, but Steve didn’t like it, except for the part he got to hide against Eddie during all the movie.
Eddie left Steve’s hand to go search in his movie box, making it an excuse to calm his body.
“Wayne rent that one” Eddie showed the tape of “skate gang”, “but honestly it seems like it suck”
“Let me see”
Steve began to search in the box “‘vamp’, ‘monster in the closet’… are you even watching something else than horror movies Eddie ?”
“What’s the point ?” he knitted his eyebrows “I’m joking, I have ‘back to the futur’ and ‘Cheech and Chong up in smoke’” he said, knowing the last proposition would make Steve laugh, he did.
“I really need to rent you some tapes from FamilyVideo” he faked being annoyed.
“Don’t you remember that Keith banished me from your shop ? I forgot to bring back the VHS I rented…”.
“lord” said Steve, covering his face with a hand to hide his laugh.
“Oh” Eddie seemed like he had an illumination : “I bought a vhs with all the live Aid from last years, recorded on it, though you may like watching it since you wanted to rewatch it”
“great idea!” Steve loved most of the artists who played during live aid, mostly a fan of Beach Boys, Nik Khersaw and Queen. He remembers being disappointed learning that Tears for Fears couldn’t make it.
Eddie was happy as well because Black Sabbath also played during the Live Aid.
“Unfortunately I have to admit that I kind of want to hear ‘I’m still standing’ by Elton John, but he played very late, we will not have time to watch it all” said Eddie with a theatral tone.
The Live Aid lasted at least 15 hours, Eddie remembered Black Sabbath played early compared to all the artists Wayne wanted to hear. They watched it all, from the Saturday lunch to the sunday early morning.
“It’ll be an excuse to spend another night watching tv together” said Steve with a smile. Eddie showed his agreement with a giggle and went to the corner of his room to grab the VHS from a backpack.
Eddie got the VHS and had a hand movement from Steve to the door to make him walk out of the room first.
Eddie followed Steve outside the room and put the VHS on the kitchen counter while he opened some cabinets.
“popcorn ?” he turned around, looking for Steve, thought he would sit on the couch but he stayed next to him in the small kitchen. Steve nodded with a ‘mh-mh’
“Salty or sugary ?” he looked deeper in a cabinet, the blue packages were the salty ones and the red was the sweet one.
Steve seemed offended. “who eats salty popcorn ?”
“mh, I do” Eddie was now the one who was offended, with raised eyebrows and a hand on his chest.
“of course you do” he looked done.
“Go for the sugar” he said while rolling his eyes, obviously joking.
Eddie took a paper bag from the box and put it in the microwave,he went to read the package but knitted his eyebrow and ended up helding it to Steve, asking the time he needed to set on the microwave timer. Steve looked at the box and answered “five minutes”. He closed the door and launched the timer for five minutes.
Steve had his back against the kitchen counter, he faced the microwave and had Eddie right in front of him.
“five minutes of make-out I hope,” he said while looking at Eddie turning the timer button.
“Interesting idea, I was thinking about preparing the couch but it seems more interesting”
Steve told him to shut up and grabbed his shirt to pull him closer. Eddie stood between his legs and Steve put his hand on his hips again and lifted them up to his waist.
“you look so good in this” he whispered.
Eddie broke the tension and made him shut his mouth because if he had said a few more words, he would not be able to watch the VHS.
At first, they kissed quickly, pulling their lips together for a sec and then pulling them away with a noise, but the kisses quickly became warmer. Eddie had wet lips because Steve began to open his. He was melting right there. The warmness and the sadness of the day got Steve tired but right now he was feeling great and just wanted to kiss his boyfriend.
It takes only a sec to make Eddie feel how he felt right now. He leaned his hands up to Steve’s neck and held his head while they kissed. When Steve opened his mouth a little, Eddie took his bottom lip between his front teeth and played with it quickly.
The popcorn started to blow. Then Eddie felt Steve’s tongue making a way to his mouth. They played together softly and separated to breathe. They both knew what this kind of breathing meant. They kissed again, mouth closed, making smack noises.
The popping popcorn sound surprised them, they hugged a laugh together. Eddie blew Steve’s hair out of his face and kissed his forehead. Steve went for more kisses and they kissed a few more times before Eddie let his head fall over Steve’s shoulder.
“I’m gonna need a cigarette,” said Eddie, Steve laughed, knowing what he meant.
Eddie left Steve’s neck naked without his hands, he blindly searched for something behind Steve and found the cigarette pack he was looking for. He smirked at Steve while he moved backward and grabbed a lighter while he unlocked the front door. They got out and breathed, the weather had become less hot since the sun was about to leave his place to the moon.
Eddie sat on a white plastic chair in front of his door and Steve sat on the armrest part. He took a cig out of the pack and brought it to his swollen lips. He lightenen it and let his head fall against Steve’s arm while he exhaled smoke. He leaned his right hand to Steve’s thigh and did some thumb caress against his skin just under the bottom of his boxer.
The night was slowly coming but you still could see the trailer park clearly. Eddie exhaled a bunch of smoke again and kissed Steve’s arm right where he had let his head fall.
“the trailer across the road can see you Eddie” softly whispered Steve to warn him, the inside of the trailer was lightening.
He wasn’t ashamed of his identity but he knew how people here could be total dickhead and he didn’t wanted them to annoy Eddie because they saw him being gay.
“don’t care”
Eddie blew his smoke toward Steve’s face to annoy him. He proposed his cigarette to Steve by bringing it in front of his face and Steve puffed on it, wetting the filter.
“and what if I want to kiss you right now ?” Asked Eddie while looking at him smoking. Eddie has a thing with Steve smoking. Everytime he agreed to smoke with him, Eddie wanted to kiss him, he said he liked the taste of tobacco on his tongue.
“someone feels needy today,” said Steve while leaning his body toward Eddie. He still quickly looked around the trailer and approached Eddie.
“you started it big boy” he said right before he kissed him.
Their faces were pulled apart by their own body because of their position but Eddie got to taste Steve’s tongue anyway and he happily enjoyed it until the microwave alarm screamed.
They didn’t stop their kiss right away, Eddie got to play with his boyfriend’s tongue, holding back a moan in his throat. He likes how cold the tongue was after smoking. Steve felt how much Eddie liked it because he clenched his hand against his thigh, squeezing his skin. He felt Eddie’s nail pinching him while he thought about what people could see from the outside right now, not because he was scared, but because Eddie was barely hiding how much he was turned on.
Eddie loosened his grip and moved his hand a little, now playing with his body hair.
Steve broke the kiss for a sec because he heard a car driving between the trailer park enter, Eddie kept his face close to his and moaned to complain of the lack of contact.
Steve smiled and took the cigarette which was slowly consuming between Eddie’s fingers. Eddie took the opportunity and followed his hand, putting his above Steve’s.
He took a breath of smoke and blew it against Eddie’s face, making him bite his bottom lip.
‘’look at you’’, Steve could do anything he wanted with him, Eddie would agree.
Steve kissed him one last time and stood up to go inside, proud of how he could make Eddie needy . Eddie laughed at himself and followed him, his face was red.
Eddie locked the door after they came in and put the pack of cigarettes on the kitchen counter, his cig back between his lips. They both smelled the burning scent in the air and looked at each other with eyebrows raised.
Eddie opened the microwave and grey smoke instantly came out of it, making him cough. Steve grabbed a dishcloth and took the bag of popcorn out, immediately letting it fall in the sink. The bag had cracked open in the microwave and half the corn were black burned and sticky.
“Guess we’ll do without popcorn, why does it even burned?” asked Eddie, he put away his cig and let it consume in the ashtray.
He took out the burned corn from the microwave and put it in the trash.
“Unbelievable” said Steve, he was smiling but Eddie couldn’t see him because he was turned to the sink.
“uh, I wasn’t making out alone” answered Eddie with his sassy attitude. Steve turned his head and looked at him with a vicious smile.
Eddie took his cig back and smoked by the wet Steve saliva filter.
“why do you always wet the filter” he asked while pulling out the cig out of his lip and looking at it.
“I don’t know, it makes my mouth wet,” he answered honestly.
“maybe I’m not the only one with a thing for you smoking,” said Eddie with vicious eyes.
Steve had finished cleaning the sink and he had his back against the sink counter, looking at Eddie.
“What's going on tonight ? has the sun hit our head too much or are we just cheesy as fuck ?”
“probably both of them” whispered Steve while he moved two steps toward Eddie. He let his body crash against Eddie and crossed his arms around his back.
“I never want to leave you” he said against his chest.
“then stay here forever” whispered Eddie while he hugged him back with one arm.
“I love you Eddie”
“I love you too Steve”.
Both of them closed their eyes for a moment and just enjoyed the hug. It wasn’t the first time at all they said it to each other but it was a great feeling and both of them knew how much the other needed to hear it sometimes. Their relationship was way more than just making out, but today was the mood for and they both wanted it. Steve always felt great when he spent time at the trailer, there were no screams, Wayne was very great with him and Eddie was the best boyfriend he could wish for. Sometimes he spent days here to avoid getting home and having to talk with his parents, that’s probably what he was about to do this week, and Eddie wouldn’t disagree with it.
Steve stepped back and tipped toes to peck him quickly on the lip.
“now are we going to watch the VHS or no ?”
“Okay Stevie Wonder” said Eddie. This surname had no sense but he found it funny to call him that way.
Steve looked at him with lazy eyes while he sat on the couch.
Eddie opened the fridge and made a face, it was kind of empty. He proposed a beer and Steve said he just wanted a can of coke, which Eddie threw to him across the kitchen.
“are you dumb ?”
“yea” Eddie answered with a proud face. He took the last cereal bar of the cabinet and joined Steve.
“I will go to groceries tomorrow” Steve often did the groceries shopping while he stayed at the Munson’s for days, he felt like he had to, to thanks Wayne for letting him sleep here, and he knew it helped him because Steve had money and Wayne worked hard and didn’t always have enough to buy a lot. Eddie sometimes felt embarrassed by Steve buying them food but he knew why he did it and he knew he did it with honest gratitude.
Eddie climbed the couch on hand and knees and ended up being above Steve. They stared at each other with smiles on their faces.
“are we going to be that needy all night ?” asked Steve with a crack in his voice.
“definitely the vibes, yea”
Eddie brushed his lips against Steve’s very quickly to tease him then he got up and turned on the TV and the VHS player.
Steve cleared his throat “you know how this is gonna end right ?”
“of course” he answered with a smile which made Steve exhale loudly.
They weren’t going to do big stuff, they never did. But they definitely liked teasing themself and ended up making out for hours. They weren’t together for a long time but they were comfortable enough to end the needy days properly, after hours of pleasure.
Eddie felt a little bit guilty because he was afraid to put aside the fact that Steve wasn’t feeling great earlier by letting his desire be overcome.
“Steve ? you okay with it ? I mean- that’s not why you came at first”
“I know, but I'm with you so I’m great, and- if this is what you ask, I am totally up for a making out night, I had a rough day but it’s better now” he said while tittle his head. Eddie looked at him and wanted to hug him. He went for a kiss and goes back to the TV.
Eddie held the VHS box toward Steve :
“Can you find the first tape please ? there is like four of them because of the length of this day and I don’t know where it’s written”
Steve read the VHS cover. Eddie took time before he told Steve he was dyslexic, but now he didn’t feel ashamed anymore for asking Steve to read sometimes for him.
Until last year, people had always told him it was because of his lack of education. But he lived with Wayne since he was 12 years old and it hasn’t been better since, even if Wayne tried to help him how he could.
After he first failed his senior year, he had to see Ms. Kelley, the counsellor of Hawkins High, and after months, she came to the conclusion that Eddie has dyslexia, and that it was probably one of the reasons why he failed. No teachers ever tried to help him because they thought he was just careless. And it purely pissed Steve off when Wayne and Eddie told him about it. The fact was that he tried, for years, being told that he should try harder, but he ended up giving up, leading to his second time being held back.
“That’s this one” said Steve while he held one of the tapes to Eddie, still reading the cover “you know we will not be able to watch it all right ?”
“Yeah but Black Sabbath got on stage three hours after the beginning so we can see them at least !!” he answered with a lot of excitement in his voice, stimming with his fist clenched.
Steve thought “how could I resist” and watched Eddie put the VHS in the player. He crawled back to the couch and sat between Steve’s ankles. The logo of the Live Aid came on the TV and Eddie moved his fists in the air, excited.
“we agree to watch it all until Black Sabbath, right ?”
“Yea!” answered Eddie, he was excited to see Black Sabbath on stage but still wanted to watch it all until them.
Steve said it because he remembered that Billy Ocean and Nik Kershaw got on stage before Black Sabbath, and he wanted to see them. Eddie kinda had to admit that he liked Nik Kershaw, Steve had made him listen to “The Riddle’ in a loop, also, he found him very pretty.
“you’ll gonna see Nik” said Steve with sided eyes.
“you supposed to be the fan, not me” hiding a smile.
“yea but I know how pretty you think he is”
“shut up”
Eddie let his body fall against Steve’s. Steve put his arms around him and caressed his hair.
Steve watched the screen for minutes before he realised Eddie had his face against his chest, not even looking at it.
The show started with “Rockin' All Over The World” byt the Status Quo and Steve enjoyed the song, tapping his fingers against Eddie’s shoulder.
Eddie finally watched the screen when Style Council came on stage. He was definitely watching the singer. Steve noticed how the drummer seemed happy to be there and smiled.
“they’re cute”
Eddie agreed with a noise, he raised his head and waited for Steve to look at him, he wanted to kiss.
“does all of them gonna turn you on ?” Said Steve with a smile, very close to his face.
He already had noticed Eddie had a thing for most band singers.
Eddie buried his face against Steve's chest to hide how red his cheeks were.
“don’t need them to be” he said, voice covered by Steve’s chest.
“liar” answered Steve, playfully.
Eddie had tried to calm down his body but he knew he needed to finish what they started.
Steve moved a little under Eddie and felt all the weight of his body against himself, making his blood run to his face. He ran a hand all over Eddie’s arm and drew on his skin with his index finger.
‘’Eddie…’’ he whispered.
Eddie raised his head and they broke the space between their faces. They kissed on the lips a few times and quickly brought their tongues in it. Neither of them could hear what happened on the TV anymore, only their breath and the sound of their body against the couch was audible.