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You Can’t Fill the Void, but You Can Pass the Time.

Summary:

Sapnap has always avoided trouble, always been a regular citizen aside from the fame. But that’s only the day speaking. At nights, Sapnap slips into a carefree side, indulging in his vices.

He’s hidden this life from his friends for over 6 months, but in just a span of two weeks, he discovers his secret is becoming a lot less secretive.

Notes:

Hello! You probably have never read any other work of mine, but for starters I am EXTREMELY bad with updates! I am a college student and am currently working as well! I write for fun, support is always appreciated and valued in the form of comments or suggestions. thank you. :)

Possible trigger warnings are tagged, any possible additions will be introduced in each necessary chapter to accommodate returning readers/future readers.

This is not intended to be a heavy based story but contains heavy content. Be ADVISED before reading.

That is all, welcome!

Chapter 1: Prologue

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His leg jitters as he tries to calm the black hole that begins building in his head. He ignores the pit that pools in his abdomen as he jets into the kitchen from the garage. He grabs an orange, and a half empty Gatorade bottle before darting into the basement from a hall over. He immediately spots Dream snoozing on one of the movie room couches. The large LED screen still lit up, he shuffles for the remote and finds it beneath the other’s arm, one click, then nothing.

 

The blonde’s phone, sitting casually on one of the couch arms, is illuminated in the darkened room from a missed call, alerting a notification. Missed call from George. 

 

It’s fine.

 

His heart races and he walks back up the basement stairs, then to the second floor before retreating back to his room, to the mess. To the discarded laundry and assorted cardboard boxes. The isolation. But most of all, behind the mask and nightlife, is something more.  Tearing through the sudden rush of memories and thoughts he dives and swivels into his gaming chair, peeling his orange as he peeks through discord messages for a distraction. Spam, spam, spam, and -wait. Oh. A direct message from Karl.

 

Wednesday 

 

You didn’t answer my cup poing :(

Pong*

Also don’t forget ur flight leaves 7 am THIS Friday! 

And don't forget to bring ur plane buddy as well lolololol

 

He didn’t forget, he had only gotten sidetracked. He totally remembered his flight that left in 9 hours. A flight he had been dreading for weeks and tried to delay due to the “possible unsafe traveling conditions” the weather might’ve been brewing. He had been missing Karl, but the 6 hour flight was going to be a hassle, and it was only the perfectly sunny skies of weather that could potentially prevent him from going. 

 

“Oh well,” he shrugs it off, and finishes his orange as he throws the peel in a random trash bag grouped into a clutter pile. As he turns his computer off he chugs the rest of his Gatorade, throwing it off in the distance somewhere as he sinks back into bed. He sees his packed suitcase off in a corner of the room next to the light switch.

 

“Alexa, turn the light off,” the dim room is painted with a color akin to earlier’s black hole, and with an alarm set for 6:30 am, he lays in bed as the static vision and white dots wear off. Leaving the black hole to consume him.