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“Happy 4th anniversary, Sei!” Reo shouted the second Nagi stepped on his apartment. It was expected for Reo to do this, he’s been doing it for 4 years now, yet the boy in front of him is still surprised whenever Reo pulls this kind of trick.
Reo laughed seeing Nagi’s reaction and Nagi just looked at the laughing Reo in front of him. Reo’s holding a cake with a candle on it, maybe that’s the reason why he shines differently from Nagi's point of view. He’s laughing.. Oh god, he’s laughing.
It was sound to Nagi’s ears hearing Reo’s laughter. It brings him joy, positivity, and it can also remove his weariness. Nagi opened his phone’s camera and captured Reo laughing. The purple-haired guy was shocked when the flash of the camera pictured him. He looked at Nagi who put his phone in his pocket and looked back at Reo.
The lad was pouting and blushing when Nagi looked at him. This time, it’s Reo’s turn to be mesmerized by Nagi’s laugh. It took everything in him to snap back and give Nagi the cake.
“Enough now, love. Let’s dig in!” Reo said that Nagi agreed.
Reo placed the cake on the center of the table while Nagi prepares the plates and forks they’ll be using. Reo brought cold water from the mini refrigerator that the apartment had and Nagi put down two glasses.
Once in a while, Nagi feels that they are, finally, married. Nagi works part-time at a nearby cafe and sometimes when he comes home, Reo welcomes him like how a wife welcomes his husband after a long day of work. Whenever Nagi’s having that thought, he can’t help but to hold Reo’s hand because he doesn't believe his heart can take that.
As they ate half of the cake, he and Reo ended up cuddling in the bed and when Reo got tired, the purple-haired lover of Nagi slept on Nagi’s shoulder. Nagi on the other hand, stayed awake and stared at the ceiling for a while then looked at Reo who’s sound asleep on his shoulder.
Nagi chuckled as some of Reo’s hair strands started to fall on his face. Nagi tucked it behind his lover’s hair and looked at Reo’s face.
He looks at peace. When he first met Reo, the guy said he’s interested in Nagi's existence. Soon after that Reo started hanging out with him and giving him whatever he can give to Nagi. Nagi thought that Reo’s the kind of guy who will be tired of him sooner or later, that’s why he let him do and give whatever Reo wants with him.
Nagi soon realizes that Reo won’t leave him alone until the world turns upside down. Little by little, he soon loved Reo’s company and became familiar with his scent whenever he’s approaching, grew attached with his laughter that he can only hear when he’s with him, grew accustomed with Reo’s touch that he does whenever they’re alone. Those little conversations they shared, those growing laughter they had, those secret touches they did, it became Nagi’s comfort place.
Reo became Nagi’s comfort place.
Yet the man he is right now worries what Reo feels about him.
They were never verbal to each other’s feelings. The only time they were verbal about it was when Reo confessed to Nagi and reciprocated Reo’s feelings too.
“Hey, Nagi.” Reo called out Nagi who’s playing mobile games on his phone. Nagi hummed as a reply to Reo. “You’re my best friend, right?” Nagi glanced at Reo who’s looking at him at that moment.
Best friend…
Nagi soon nodded. Of course they are best friends.
“But we kissed?” Reo said confusedly. Nagi finished his game and turned off his phone to look at Reo.
“You kissed me first.” Nagi said. Reo laughed and Nagi shook his head. “Well you gave it back seconds after.” The purple-haired replied.
Reo moved closer to Nagi until their knees touched. Nagi observes Reo on the other hand. Reo put both his hands on Nagi’s side, cornering Nagi on his bed.
Due to the lack of emotion in Nagi's eyes, Reo couldn’t tell what the boy’s thinking right now. He’s on top of him, but Reo seems to be nervous because he would not know what to do if Nagi rejects him right now. Yeah, Reo’s confessing after years of being friends with Nagi. He finally got the courage to do it.
What if he rejects me? What will happen to our friendship? Will my confession ruin what we have? I DON’T WANT THAT!
“Reo,” Nagi called. He looked at Nagi and saw the boy looking directly in his eyes. He couldn’t help but to look away but Nagi held his chin and made him look back at him. “You seemed nervous, are you okay?” Nagi asked.
Fuck you, Reo. It’s now or never.
“What do you think of becoming my boyfriend?” Reo asked quickly. He’s nervous. If Nagi won’t reciprocate his feelings, he would avoid Nagi in school and won’t talk to him until he moves on. That’s his plan. That’s why he sees his confession as a declaration that he wants to end their friendship and be something more. What if Nagi only wants friendship? What if it’s the only thing Nagi can offer?
Reo’s aware of how unexpressive Nagi is, but when he’s expressing Reo can’t help but to think Nagi likes him in a not-so platonical way. Nagi already told him he likes Reo’s company and that made Reo happy that he gave Nagi a cactus. His reason was “Choki might feel alone since you’re always hanging out with me so I brought Choki a friend!” like that.
Surprisingly, Nagi laughed, snapping Reo who’s having a flashback.
Reo saw Nagi’s laugh before, but why did he choose to laugh in this kind of situation? While he’s laughing, the boy in front of him looks like he’s about to lose his mind.
Fuck you, Nagi, what’s the matter with you right now?
“One more laugh and I’ll choke you to death.” Reo said while he’s turning into a tomato. Nagi wants to laugh more at the sight of Reo but he holds it by placing his hand in front of his lips.
“Sorry,” Nagi finally said something. “I thought you wouldn't ask me about that. I was about to ask you tomorrow and give you this.” Nagi picked something in his pocket and Reo saw a red box with a brand name on it. Nagi opened it and pulled out the gold bracelet.
Before Nagi puts it in Reo’s wrist, he looks at something inside the bracelet and points it to Reo. “Look, it says Nagi’s Reo.” Nagi said and it made Reo’s eyes bigger than usual.
“You carve it?” Reo asked as he took the bracelet and looked into the text inside the bracelet.
“Yeah, the shop helped me. I said I won’t let them carve it because it would be better if I’m the one who did i-” before Nagi finishes his sentence, Reo crushed his lips to his and happily wore the bracelet.
Nagi held Reo’s hand and kissed it. The purple haired guy hummed and took back his hand just to place it on Nagi’s chest. Nagi chuckled. He knows Reo’s asleep right now but his lover can’t really take his hands off Nagi.
“You really like my chest, huh?” Nagi said and kissed Reo’s hair. Reo moved closer to Nagi and buried his head to his shoulder more. Nagi hugged him tightly.
“I wonder if I’m loving you right?” Nagi said while Reo’s in his arms, sleeping. “I wonder if my feelings can reach you just like how yours reaches mine?” Nagi continues. “There are things I actually wonder about. Most of them were about you, actually, I think all of them were about you.”
Nagi can feel Reo’s breath on his neck. God, how he loves his warmth.
“I wonder what you’re thinking all the time. I can read your expressions but not your thoughts. I once searched on youtube how to read people’s minds.” Nagi chuckled remembering that event. “I wonder what will I do if you get tired of me. I’m not really sure if I’m loving you the way you wanted to be loved, but I’m trying my best to be the man you deserve. But sometimes, I also thought about how you stick this long. Four years, Reo. Four damn years.” He held Reo’s head using his other hand. He’s holding Reo like a rare piece of diamond, which he surely doesn't wanna share with anyone.
“How did you last this long with me? Considering what type of person I am, I’m not sure what I’m doing, what I’m giving you for you to be with me this long.” He sighed thinking about it.
"To be honest, I don't know how to love someone or how it would feel to be loved by someone." Nagi can't help but to reminisce. "I discarded that thought for a long time, even buried it since I lost hope of having it, then you came and approached me, then you held my hand and I dismissed the thought of not wanting physical touch, then you laughed with me, and you came. Not a visitor but a permanent citizen in my world." Nagi squeezes Reo who's beside him.
"You became a familiar image in my life, a character that will complete the story, a verse in a song I love, a place I would go home to.. I want you to feel that too. I wonder if I’m making you feel that way?"
"Tsk, tsk.." Nagi turned to his lover who he thought was sleeping. The purple haired man sat on the bed wearing a grin on his face, looking at Nagi who's still in shock.
"You've fallen for me really, really, reallyyyy bad." Reo said and massaged Nagi's hair. Nagi's eyes did not leave Reo, he felt embarrassed but he wouldn't show it in front of this purple man.
Seeing Reo right now, after all that thought, makes him happy. He even hopes he can put the sun in his eyes so Reo can see how those eyes shine for him. Reo's purple eyes give him a cozy breeze of summer vibes. That's more like Reo, since he's the sun.
"You're really clueless, aren't you, Nagi Seishiro?" Reo spoke again and Nagi remained silent.
The night was young, the stars were burning, their world was filled with silence. Reo’s eyes were shining more than they shine yesterday. Nagi’s mesmerized with Reo’s face. This night should stay young forever. These hearts should always beat this fast. Those eyes should remain still and certain.
“Looking back, I only wanted to play with you and be friends with you. Thousands of students were there but you’re the most interesting one. You who don't need a grand suit or lavish things or a long ass car or lots of money to stand out in the crowd. You just need to be Nagi Seishiro.” Reo started. He’s looking at Nagi while talking which is new to him.
Whenever he’s being verbal with his feelings, he can’t seem to look Nagi right in the eyes. Nagi makes fun of him whenever that happens but now, Nagi’s listening and admiring. It’s obvious. His eyes never shine like this on normal days.
“You always make me feel that I brought you back to life. That I’m the one who dug your grave and resurrected you. You treated me like a god, you worshiped me when the only thing I did was lend you a hand when you can’t stand from where you are.” Nagi shook his head. Disagreeing on what Reo told him. Reo smiled and put his finger on Nagi’s lips to stop him from speaking.
“I think it’s weird to say that your silence sends me comfort. Your presence alone brings me peace. It feels like I’m at the top of the mountain, hearing the birds singing, seeing the clouds, feeling the wind, getting hugged by the sun, it was you, Nagi. You are my serenity. You are the only one who can give me that feeling. And whenever you speak, you speak with pure tenderness, complete gentleness. Also don’t make me start how hearing you laugh makes me feel. I can literally write a novel just to talk about how beautiful and divine your laugh sounds” Reo laughed. “I thought that feeling would disappear immediately, but it lasts this long and I think it can last for eternity for as long as I’m with you.”
“It’s weird, right? People always told me how cold you are, how I can tolerate your silence, etcetera. They don’t know you never shut up as soon as you open your mouth.” Reo chuckled and kisses Nagi’s lips. Nagi held the back of Reo’s head to deepen the kiss, but Reo tapped his shoulder, that's why he let go.
“Reo,” Nagi called his lover, begging, pleading for more kisses. Reo gave him a peck and that made Nagi pout.
“You’re worth more than those things I gave you, Seishiro.” Reo said with a serious, sincere tone.
“Is that your way of saying you love me?” Nagi asked.
Reo laughed and it made Nagi want to go for another kiss. What Reo said made Nagi’s heart beat 10 times more than usual. He feels like he’s about to cry if Reo won’t kiss him right at this moment. He wants to feel Reo’s lips brushing against his. His lover just gave him the assurance he exactly needed using those kissable lips he has. Damn you, Reo Mikage.
We’re on the same page. We always are. Nagi thought as he looked at Reo who’s laughing.
“What’s your way of saying you love me, then?” Reo asked him.
“Does saying ‘I do’ count as I love you?” Nagi asked Reo as he slid a gold ring on Reo’s finger followed by a deep kiss.