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It's been a week since I tried to choke Carruthers. It didn't go as planned and I've been avoiding him all this time. I can't believe that faggot thought I wanted to kiss him, or even worse...
I tried to clear my mind off him and focus on my crossword instead. Not like I'm going to fill that up properly, too boring for me. There is always playboy magazine as an alternative. After a while of writing 'blood' over and over again I got a message on my anwsering machine. I recognized the number immediately - Luis.
Of course I won't call him back, or even waste my energy listening to his voice. In a corner of my eye I saw Jean pointing at the phone as a sign of new missed call. I noded to her and continued reading my magazine. I should buy something new since I saw these photos 3 times at least. I've decided to go back to my crossword again.
Not much time has passed, around 13 minutes, and door to my office got opened scharply. I quickly throwed what I was holding into the drawer, and to my unpleasant supprise I saw Luis bursting into my office. He was a little red on the face, either running or something else. I wanted to give Jean cold gaze for letting anyone, especially him, into my office. To my supprise she simply wasn't there. My attention quickly shifted to Luis as he was slowly approaching me.
"Why are you here?" I asked trying to sound as cold towards him as I could.
"Hi Partick" he anwsered a bit off track.
"You weren't returning any of my calls, probably ignored all of my voicemails as well. And-"
"I was busy, Jean would have told me to call you back " I tried to cut him off. The sooner he leaves the better
"Well... I wanted to check on you Pat" He moved few steps closer while saying that. With every step my muscles were getting more and more stiff. I even started wondering about straight up lashing out at the man for entering that office, my office.
"I'm busy" I rolled my eyes
"I wanted to talk about what happened week ago" Finnaly I stood up and slammed my hands at the desk.
"There's nothing to talk about! Now get out of my office before I'll snap you in half" The words were getting out of me without even thinking about them. But why would it matter? It's not like anyone really pays attention to what I say... I could see chills going down Luis' spine. He stood there in shock while I was sure that noone would interrupt me now. Jean was on a break, and besides long time ago I made sure that the wall were soundproof. I passed the desk on the left, so nothing could be left between us. We were standing in silence for a while, until Luis' face expression changed from schocked to intrigued.
"I didn't know you were into that kind of stuff. Dirty talk?" Said Carruthers, and even started to chuckle, oblivious to the sytuation in front of him. He even got a little closer.
I'm sure he has some kind of death wish. He's clearly unwelcome here, and yet, tries to reason with me. Suddently I got amazing idea, why not test how naive that fag can be? Luis surely won't tell anyone if I hurt him right now. I have no reason not to. So I smiled at him, and he smiled back.
"You would be supprised how much you actually don't know about me" One step closer. I'm gonna finish the job. Deal with the body later. Maybe pretend he got sick?
"Oh Patrick, why won't you show me then?" Another step. I wasn't really sure what to say next, he clearly has some plans towards me. Well, why not tease him a bit. I got my leather gloves out of pocket.
"Remember those?" I asked while putting the first one on.
"As far as I'm concerned you really liked them" I smiled at him thinking about choking his neck. He smiled back assuring me that he in fact liked them.
We were near one of the walls. I saw him trying to get his hand on mine. He's making it so easy. I grabed his wrist, at the hight of his head, and pushed him against the surcafe. I could hear his muffled sigh, probably just turned him on. Doesn't matter. I have to focus. I unwillingly placed another hand on his left cheek. The delight in his eyes got me wondering: how quickly i coud see that sparkle leaving his eves forever while stabbing him. If only I had a knife...
"I knew you wanted me" He said with dreamy voice. That was last straw for me. I grabed his neck instead, placed my thumb on his artety, thrusted rest of my fingers on the other side. That sweet, I mean amazing state of shock I managed to once again put on his face. I got my face a little closer to him, just to watch as his expression would change over time. I wanted to see his skin getting pale.
To my suprise I felt my wrist getting pulled away with some force. My hand got so far from the rest of the body, that before I realized, I got closer to Luis. And he kissed me. I must say that was suprising. He didn't shove his tounge into my mouth, as I would expect from one of his kind, instead that was a gentle kiss. I could feel his soft lips on mine. That was unexpected, and I couldn't move for a while. I felt like my brain just froze. My thoughts were multiplying, going through eachother. I was thinking about everything and nothing at the same time. Luis on the other hand kissed me few more times, clearly enjoing himself.
I finally managed to snap out of that state, left go of his wrist and slap him across the face. He just looked confused, with red face and mark of my hand. I noticed just now that my heartbeat was racing and I've started to breathe shallow. What has he done to me?
Silence... that silence was only disturbed by my own panting. I stared at Luis and he stared back at me, he was clearly waiting for me to explain myself, although I wasn't planning to do so. He looked down at the floor.
"I'm sorry Pat" me mumbled.
"I should've warned you. I would never mean to scare you" He looked me in the eyes again, just in time to witness the confusion in my gaze turning into rage.
Does he really thinks that I would be scared of him? That this faggot could scare me?! I'm gonna show him how pure fear feels like. I'm gonna make Luis regret getting better card than me. Going into bathrom that day and hitting on me. He's going to regret chosing that lifestyle. He is going to regret kissing me today. And I as thought about it few plans of killing him showed up. I can... invite him over for a "date". That's it! He won't turn down an opportunity like this. I would have to buy some foil, because Paul's blood almost damaged my-
"Partick are you allright?" His voice finally got to me.
"Yes, everything's fine Luis" I tried to sound calm. "You didn't scare me. I just..." Think about something!
"I'm just used to be the one in charge. I wasn't expecting you to take the initiative" He blushed a litte after the last word.
"I see you like to be the dominant one" He said that in flirty tone and giggled.
"That's great actually, I'm more of a bottom myself"
Yeah, as I couldn't figure it out myself. I decided to save my 'dominant' position and grabbed his neck again. This time gently and from behind. He wasn't protesting, such a weirdo, as if I haven't just tried to choke him.
"I'm gonna show you your place" I kissed him rapidly. I've pressed my lips much harder than he did last time. I felt his hands going up my back to the neck. He decided to play with my hair a little. That's when I bit his lower lip. Luis gasped, reaction I was expecting, and I put my tounge into his mouth. I heard his subdued moan. I decided to put some more passion into the kiss, just to be more reliable for him. Of course Luis kissed me back, although he wasn't trying to get domination over it. He truly is a 'bottom' as he stated. To make things more spicy I pushed him into wall again, pressing my body against his. After a while we stopped and I looked into his eyes without any hate. My heart was racing again and I swear I could feel myself getting red on the face.
"That's the first time I kissed a man" I said outloud, still being incredibly close to him. I don't know why I admitted that. I saw Luis blushing even more and felt pressure near my crotch. God, have I just turned that idiot on? I quickly stepped back but haven't mentioned it. Disgusting. This whole thing is awful. I have to take a long shower at home.
"Oh my, Patrick. I feel honored to be your first one" He said with a happy tone. I could tell he was aroused.
"You're great at kissing you know?" Luis smiled at me and at this point I was sick of it. I have to pretend just a little more.
"Would you like to take this to my place?" I proposed. Some great wave of joy went trough Luis' face. His eyes sparkled with excitement. He probably wasn't planning on getting this far.
"Are you inviting me over? For a date?!" Luis grabbed both of my hands and got them to his chest.
"Are you serious?"
"Yes, yes I am. Now keep it quiet, I don't want the whole office to know, you understand?" He nodded.
"Great, see you at 8 after work. Now let me go back to papers"
I got my hands back. He kissed my cheek and turned around on his heel. By the door he turned around and send me a kiss.
I was waiting patiently for this moment and lastly I could be alone. I sat down heavily on my chair. I felt exhausted. My heart was still really fast. My mind started clouding again. I was procesing what happened moments before. Luis went to my office. Annoyed me. I wanted to choke him. He kissed me. Pause. I kissed him. I kissed him. Nobody told me to do so. Why have I kissed him? What happened to me? What the fuck was that? He would've agree to meet me without that. Why would I do that?
"I'm going to kill him tonight"
Silence anwsered me.