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I had another nightmare. I used to have them all the time but I've been having them less and less recently. I haven’t had one in a month but that just had to end last night.
In the dream I was back at the castle (like when Belos ruled it) and I was a little kid again. My hair was how he always wanted it, and I had a scouts uniform on.
I walked into the throne room and he was there, like Emperor Belos, not philip, or that green blob but my uncle i loved so much.
I told myself to run far away, as far as I could, but my body didn’t listen. I just stood there with a stupid smile on my face as I said something. “Uncle, look what I found in the gardens”. I suddenly realize that this isn’t a terrible nightmare my brain had just come up with, it was a memory.
Belos didn’t turn around, but I could see his fist clutching up. “Uncle look look”. He turned around and I could see his blue eyes flashing. I immediately knew what was going to happen from all the years I lived like this. “Hunter, weren't you supposed to be training”. He asked in that fake kind voice I had learned to trust. “Yes but I fell in the gardens when I was training”. I lied last time I would ever do that (you know before flapjack). He stepped closer and said to me “say that again but look me in the face this time” and moved my head so I was looking at him. “I fell in……..” I stopped. I knew I lied but maybe if I told the truth he wouldn’t hurt me too much. “I got bored training so I went to the gardens and picked some flowers, but look how pretty this one is. It's as blue as your eyes.”
He picked the flower up and crushed it in his hands then leaned over me looking like a monster now and said “Not only did you not obey orders and go training, but you also lied to me about it. How are you supposed to protect me if you can’t even do as I say?” I was six when this happened. I remember, no one wanted to train a six year old so I was usually just stood in the training area. That gets boring for a six year old.
“But Uncle I did train but the gardens had such pretty flowers I thought you’d like”. I said crying. He didn’t say anything, making his arm into a spear and slicing my cheek. I screamed and then woke up.
I could hear chirping of birds outside and for a minute thought it was flapjack, but then the truth hit me like a bullet. Flapjacks dead, Belos killed him. He will do anything just to make me suffer. I touched my cheek remembering the dream. I couldn’t hold it in anymore and just started crying like I had never done before.
I thought back to the 16 years of my life I had put up with him, Thinking he only hurt me out of love, cause he only wanted me to be better. Or on really bad days when my brain couldn’t justify why he did something I would just tell myself, it’s the curse that makes him act like this. Once I help him he will be better and won’t hurt me anymore.
I started writing in this Journal about the dream and everything. Then I walked up stairs to find Camila and my sisters eating breakfast(this was the two times in a row that I woke up last).
Luz said good morning and handed me a plate. I took it then sat down. Camila looked at me and asked what's wrong(I think she saw my red face with tears). I told her it was just a nightmare, and Luz looked up and asked if it was about him. I nodded my head, and they all got up and hugged me telling me it was ok, that he was dead and would never hurt me again.
Camila then exits the hug and tells us what she was going to say before I walked in, was she was going to take us to the zoo. I got excited. I had never been to the zoo, I can’t wait to see the wolves.
After breakfast we got in the car and she drove us to the Zoo. The whole car drive, I was bouncing in the seat so excited to see the wolves. As soon as the car stopped I was out the door running to the front.
Camila paid for our tickets and then she told us to stay close because there were a lot of people at the zoo today. We started walking around and I saw a lot of different animals, like lions, elephants, and giraffes which I stood as far away as I could. I remember Belos telling me about them and how they were evil so they had to banish them.
Then after a little bit I saw the most beautiful creatures I had ever seen, wolves. Their majestic fur and their mysterse eyes, I love them so much.
I ran right up to the glass to see them.Not releasing I had left my family behind, so when I turned around and saw a lot of strangers, but no one familiar I got immediately scared.
I didn't know what to do so I just stood there, but I got bored so I went to find them. As I was walking though I heard a familiar chirp and turned around to see a bored cage, and inside was a red cardinal. All i could think of was flapjack, then the bored flew away to his friends. And I had to remind myself this wasn’t flapjack, it was just a bird. There were tears running down my eyes and I couldn't stand to look at the birds so I ran. I didn’t know where I was running to, I just ran.
I ran into a flower patch where I fell. As I was getting up I saw some beautiful flowers that I thought my family would like, so I picked them up. One was a purple flower for Luz, another was a yellow flower for Vee, and finally there was a bright blue flower for Camila.
I decided to continue my search for them, with the flowers in hand I got up and walked around the park.
After a while I saw Camila talking to a police officer and I started running to hug her. When I did she hugged me back and the police officer walked away. I then saw Luz and Vee running up to us and I took the flowers out of my hands and gave them their flowers. They said thank you.
Then I turned towards Camila and gave her the flower, worried she would be mad. She took it and said it was beautiful and told me she was so glad I was safe.
We went to see a few other animals, but we were emotionally tired so we went back home. While in the car I looked at my family and realized I actually had people who cared about and loved me. That felt good, Uncle never gave me that. I love my family, and even if I know now that Uncle never loved me or cared about me there's still a part of me that loves him too.
This is Hunter reporting off.
BYEEEE