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hey, you got a minute?
need to talk about something
yeah what’s up?
it's about our ... arrangement
oh yeah? 😏
😬
I’m free right now…
I kinda want to ... hit pause, actually
sorry
ooookayyyyy not what I was expecting
is everything okay?
shit, I'm really sorry
everything's great
it's just that ............
well, I sorta ... met someone
…. oh
and I just wouldn't feel comfortable dating if we were still hooking up, you know?
right
of course
are you pissed?
what?
are you pissed at me?
no, I'm not pissed
okay, good
so this person
how did you meet?
believe it or not, at the grocery store
seriously??
yeah
they've redone all the shelving, and I was trying to find those cookies Chris loves, but I had no idea where they'd moved them to. And Annika came and helped me out.
We just got to talking, and it was so ... easy
And fun
right
great
so you're going on a date?
I think we will
Haven't carved it in stone yet, but we're texting and chatting
it's leading that way, I reckon
so... you're dumping me for something that isn't even official yet
....................
dumping you?
dropping
whatever
that's not what you said
........... you are pissed at me, aren't you?
maybe a little
idk
look, um, don't worry about it
I'm happy for you
okay
well, thanks
I guess I just got really comfortable
forgot that it'd have to stop eventually
so you .................. don't want it to stop?
uh
I mean
….. idk
you don’t know
no, okay?
I don’t want to stop
I see
but it’s fine
is it?
it doesn't feel fine
you've met someone, you wanna respect them
I get that
…. right
I mean, you'd be telling me the same thing if the tables were turned, right?
what do you mean?
what tables?
if you met someone
you'd tell me that we needed to stop
OH
right
I mean, yes
obviously
okay
okay then
okay
that’s it, then
yeah
I guess it is
let me know how things go
sure thing
you know, if it doesn't..... work out
?
um
would we start up again?
oh
tbh, I hadn't thought that far ahead
no, right, of course
but sure. we could. yeah. of course.
you're hoping this is gonna last obviously
Well, you know me ..... I wouldn't be giving it a shot at all if I didn't think there was SOMETHING there
…. right
yeah
well, good luck
you're really not okay about this, are you?
I can tell, Buck
Eddie......
yeah?
please don't ask me
if you’re okay?
let's just move on, yeah?
.............. alright. if that's what you want
I don't really wanna talk about any of this anymore
oh
sorry
sure
we’re okay
I promise
............. okay
we'll talk later, okay?
I've got a heap of housework that I keep putting off
sure
no problem
take care, Buck
*
are you avoiding me?
no
............ are you sure?
you've barely talked to me all shift, you took off at lunch, and I haven't seen you in two hours
don't you have a date to be getting ready for?
...............
sure, okay
don't tell me what's wrong then
trust me, you don't actually wanna know
I think I know what I want better than you do, but fine
yep
you know what you want
and what you don't want
...... what are you getting at?
nothing
sorry
Buuuuuuuuck
just get ready for your date
I'll be fine
which means you're not currently fine
... d'you wanna talk about it? whatever's bothering you?
no
… kind of
….. no
................
you're not gonna let this go, are you?
I'm jealous, okay?
… jealous?
of who?
of Annika!
why?
because you chose HER!
I’m confused
I know
I know it was just physical
it wasn't supposed to mean anything
......... yeah
I’m so sorry
that was the pitch you gave me
I should've known, cause I've never been good at separating my feelings
............ feelings?
I just thought maybe I could make it work
maybe I could just take what I could get and it would be enough
I think I just need some time, you know?
to get over you
Buck, wait a second
........ to get over ............ me
you ... you have feelings for me?
...... I'm in love with you
What?!
I know
I’m sorry
......... since we started sleeping together, you mean?
um
sure……
so are you sure you don't just THINK you have feelings for me because of the sex, then?
maybe, idk
well, I just mean if it only started after we began having sex
that’s maybe what it is
right
I mean, you would've told me before we started sleeping together if you'd had feelings for me then, right?
'cause you made pretty damn sure I knew it was physical only when we started
…………
why aren't you answering me?
because I'm feeling really shitty
okay, well, let's talk it out
you have a date to go to….
I have time, Buck
....... I'm sorry
why?
I used you
used me??
I wasn’t honest
when?
I've been in love with you for years
………..
WHAT???
Eddie I'm so sorry
I just thought.... fuck idek anymore
Buck, you great big idiot, I'm in love WITH YOU TOO
…………
what?
I thought you KNEW ... or SUSPECTED or SOMETHING. I thought that was why you hammered home the "physical only", so I wouldn't get the wrong idea
what???
and I thought there was never going to be a chance with you. that's the only reason I looked twice at someone else
you..........
I'm in love with you
........... why have you gone silent again?
shock
okay
Buck ....... do you want this? something real, with me?
with all my heart
omg, I can't believe you wouldn't just TELL me that!
Why didn't you say something when I ended our fwb thing?
I didn't know you felt the same!!
well, I do
I do, Buck
I thought if you were looking at someone else, then what I was giving you wasn't enough
I wasn’t enough
You've always been enough, Buck
hell, sometimes you're even a little too much
but you're amazing. you're wonderful. It's you. It's only you.
what about Annika??
........ I already cancelled on her 😬
oh
as gently as I could
so you're..... not going on a date with her tonight?
not anymore
Eddie 😭
I'm hoping ........ can I see you tonight?
PLEASE
can I come over?
I'll keep the reservation. We'll go out. Have a date.
you can come over
we’ll go together
you really mean all this?
Buck
When have I ever said something I don't mean?
I love you so much
I can't tell you how relieved I am that you're not dating anyone else anymore
I'm sorry I hurt you
I didn't know I was doing it
I should've just told you at the start
I wish you had
the sex would've been even better if I'd known you felt the same way I did
I wouldn't have held back like I did
...... you were holding back?
yeah, I really was
wow
you said physical only, so I made sure I didn't let my feelings through
I’m sorry
it’s okay
I forgive you, Buck
I only said it so much to try and get it through my own head
but I want all of you, Eddie
then you are welcome to all of me, Buck
... I never wanna let you go ever again
you don’t have to
I’m yours
completely
good
when I asked if I could come over and you said yes, you did mean now, right?
yes
right now
okay good
cause I’m outside
OMG
get in here!
coming 😊
🧡