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Chapter one
Akito Shinonome stares out at the large cheering crowd, catching his breath from just finishing Vivid Bad Squad’s closing act.
“Thank you everybody for coming out, we’re Vivid Bad Squad and you all have a great night!” An Shiraishi announces, and walks off the stage.
“An your vocals were perfect tonight!” Kohane explains happily, pulling her into a tight embrace.
“Thanks Kohane, all of our hard work and effort really paid off tonight, we’re one step closer to surpassing RAD WEEKEND,” An says, smiling at the whole group. Touya walks up next to Akito and grabs his hand
“Akito, I have to hurry home before Tsukasa starts to worry, you make sure to hurry home and eat a good dinner.” Touya says, turning to Akito.
“Thanks Touya, I’ll make sure to eat when I get home after I grab something from the store,” Akito says, watching Touya walk away in the opposite direction. Akito turns back to the girls, chatting away about how great the performance went and talking about how they can improve next performance.
“We should all go to Sekai and have a discussion about our next show! I’m sure Miku would love to hear how the performance went,” An turns around and looks at Akito “Oh, did Touya go home already? We should text him the plan then.”
“Yeah, he went home to have dinner and stuff. I’ll send him a text about it later. I’ve got to do some shit tonight so I don’t know if I’ll be at sekai tonight. Seeya later.” Akito says, walking away
“Alright, hopefully we'll see you in a bit!” An says, pulling out her phone and scrolling to the bottom of her music library, pressing UNTITLED and disappearing in a cloud of triangles. Kohane does the same soon after. Akito waves goodbye and starts his long walk to the next town over
Akito sighs, kicking rocks and staring ahead at the street. He felt horrible for lying to his friends and bandmates, but he was going to lose his mind if he didn’t get his hands on another pack or two of cigarettes. He knew deep inside that he shouldn’t be destroying himself like this, but why stop the poison when it’s one of the only things keeping you afloat? Akito chuckles to himself and keeps treading on.
Clink!
Akito swings the store door open and walks over to the slushie aisle and pours himself a cherry Slushie, then grabs a bag of white cheddar popcorn, a bag of jolly ranchers and a root beer. He makes his way to the cashier. He silently starts fumbling with his wallet, pulling out his fake id and money.
“Will that be all sir?” the cashier asks. “No, I’ll also take two cigarette packs,” Akito responds
“Alright, I need to see your id first though.” Akito hands the cashier his fake id and waits for him to check it. “Alright sir, have a good night.” The cashier hands him a bag and Akito hurries out, sipping his slushie. By now it’s very late in the night and there’s barely anyone around town. Akito continued slurping down his slushie and staring into the night sky. Akito enjoyed staring up into the sky when walking home. Partially because of how much the sky managed to awe him at night, and partially because of a subconscious wish that a car would hit him and put him out of his misery.
Akito unlocks the door to his home and slips inside, kicking off his shoes and walks to his room. He throws his bags on the bed and opens the window, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it. He picks up his phone and checks his messages
Touya :)
10:30pm
Hello Akito, I made it home, how are you? I’m looking forward to our date tomorrow, we really haven’t had many date nights because of all your extra practice. You’ve started to be so distant lately. Is everything ok? Remember that I love you.
Akito stares down at his phone, taking another drag of his cigarette. Of course Touya would be the only one to notice something was off, and it still took him this long to reach out. Akito sighs and goes to respond
1:15am
Hey, I’m fine, don't worry about me.
I can’t wait! I’ll pick you up :D
I love you too!!
Akito smiles and puts out his cigarette, and throws it out the window. He goes and changes to his pajamas, and crawls into bed, turning on spotify
I'm gonna pack my things and leave you behind
This feeling's old and I know that I've made up my mind
I hope you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul
'Cause you were cruel and I'm a fool
So, please let me go
But I love you so (please let me go)
I love you so (please let me go)
I love you so (please let me go)
I love you so
Touya sits up in bed, reading and rereading Akitos last texts over and over again
Hey, I’m fine, don't worry about me.
Hey, I’m fine, don't worry about me.
Hey, I’m fine, don't worry about me.
That couldn’t possibly be true. Touya couldn’t believe that everything was fine. There had to be something up, Akito had just been…too quiet lately. Touya cared about Akito dearly, and he couldn’t just sit and watch Akito suffer without doing anything. Touya feared the worst about Akito, afraid of him slipping away too far out of reach. Touya hesitates for a while, typing and retyping different phrases over and over again. Finally, he settles on a final text and presses send, turning off the light and heading to sleep
I love you too Akito. You have no idea how special you are to me