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Buuuuuuuuuuck
omg
I had the best night
oh yeah?
it was amazing
I can't remember the last time I clicked with someone so immediately
wow
you can't remember, huh?
Okay, I can
It was you
but this is different, right?
........ right
of course
go on
We just got on so well
talking, laughing, little touches
touches already?
just little ones
nice
that’s great
what was their name again?
River
cool
I’m guessing she’s also hot?
😉
they
they're very attractive, yes
oh! River's nonbinary?
yeah, River's enby
well I’m glad you had a good time
so good
we left the restaurant and went for walk in the park
holding hands
giggling
I didn't even know I COULD giggle
yeah you can giggle
.......... how do you know?
cause I've heard you, duh
I don’t believe it
when?
whatever
doesn’t matter
… okay
anyway, so we wandered through the park for over an hour
wow
you really did hit it off
we really did
when we kissed, I felt ... like, tingles
so what went wrong?
huh?
nothing
why would you think something went wrong??
you didn’t go home together?
of course not
I don’t move that fast
right
sorry
don’t be sorry
we're going out again on Sunday
okay
cool
have fun
....... are you okay?
of course I am
why?
you just seem kinda ... distant
or something
nope all good over here 👍
if you’re sure
I mean I guess I thought we might do something Sunday since we’re both off, but it’s fine
oh
we can still do something
I’d like that, too
okay
if you’re sure
yeah, of course
awesome
then it’ll just be when you’re on your date that I have to find something to do on my own
..........
maybe I’ll spring clean my apartment
you could watch Christopher, if you want company?
uhhh that depends
on?
is a second date still too soon for you to go home together?
😳for me it is
okay
maybe not, then
thanks for the offer though
sure
that's fine, my Tia already agreed to take him so at least I don't have to change things there
oh
you already asked your Tia?
only because she's SUPER invested in my dating again
she texted me three times tonight 😅
ha
right
super annoying
it's nice that she cares, I guess
sure
are you really sure you're okay?
........
maybe not entirely
I didn't think so
wanna talk about it?
idk
hey
I’m here for you
thanks
I just wish I had what you have with River
oh
sorry, I didn't mean to bring the mood down
I'm glad you had a good time, really
no, no, don't be sorry
don't worry about me rn
let’s talk about you
it just hurts to know I'm never gonna mean that much to someone
buck …
yeah?
you mean that much to me
what?
what are you saying?
you matter, Buck
you matter to me
I know I do
but I'm pretty sure we're talking about two different kinds of love here
............
it's just... I don't just want a best friend, you know?
I want a partner, a lover, someone who wants me more than anyone else
yeah, of course
I understand that
so ... have you thought about putting yourself back out there? start dating again?
....... not really
okay. so why not?
cause it's a lot of effort and it hasn't done me any good in the past
right
well, I don't really know what to suggest then
it’s fine
I’ll be fine
you don't need to suggest anything
I want to help
well, maybe I SHOULD try dating again
maybe I've been single for too long
idk Buck
but it might help you find what you're after
sometimes it just feels like I'm never gonna find someone who looks at me the way you do
the way … I do?
the way I assume you look at River I mean
that's not what you meant, is it?
do I ... look at you a certain way??
............
buck
how do I look at you?
I don’t know
probably just how a friend looks at another friend
................ right
sorry
what for?
idk
for making things weird
are they weird?
for giving too much meaning to the way you look at me, then
..............
but you want someone to look at you the way that I do?
...... yes
but ... but not me?
you're right I should just put myself back out there
I don't know what you're asking…
I don't know what I'm asking either
okay
well
I guess I should download tinder again
if that's what you wanna do, yeah
I'm not exactly gonna find anyone by doing nothing, am I?
I guess
anyway
it's getting kinda late
oh, sure
yeah
was there more you wanted to talk about?
about your date?
uh, no
no, it’s fine
I should let you get back to whatever you were doing
right
I definitely was doing something before you texted.......
I'm sure you were
mhm
it would be super lame and sad if I'd just been lying on the couch staring into space for three hours
..................
lol, I’m joking
are you?
you know you can always call me if something's wrong, right?
........ it was 4 hours 😇
buuuuuck
you shoulda called me!
you were on a date
I don’t care
which went really well, remember?
yeah, but that doesn't mean .......
doesn't mean what?
if you need me, I'm there
..... even if I'm just bored?
whatever you need, buck
wait
you're saying you'd bail on a date if I said I need you cause I'm bored?
I would've changed my plans, yes
............
why?
because
I told you
you matter to me
...........
how much?
.............
............ all the much, buck
that doesn't even make sense…
doesn’t it?
it does to me
do I matter to you more than River?
of course you do!
River's wonderful, but we've been on ONE date
do you think I could forget you that quickly?
what if I asked you not to go out with them again?
........ why would you ask me that?
it doesn’t matter
but if I did, what would you do?
I’d ask you why
......... fuck, Eddie
what?
what is it?
it's because I'm in love with you, okay?
you’re what?
I’m not saying it again
Buck ...........
it's fine, forget it
I shouldn't have said those things
no, wait
I’m sorry
I'm glad you said it
I had no idea
I thought .........
well, now you know
thought what?
I had no idea you felt something for me
I thought friendship was the only thing you could give me
‘could’?
what does that mean?
Buck, I've been in love with you for years
you’re shitting me
omg
Eddie are you serious??
I'm painfully serious
you’re serious
you’re in love with me
I am
fuck, idk what to say
I really, really am Buck
that’s amazing
why didn't you say anything?
I didn't think you'd want to hear it
it's literally all I've wanted to hear
for so long
omg
Buck, I wouldn't have looked twice at anyone else if I'd known there was a chance you felt the same
wow
I kept thinking you felt something for me too... but nothing ever happened
and I thought I'd made my feelings pretty clear
but then you said you had a date
omg, Buck, I'm an oblivious idiot
you coulda kissed me full on the mouth and I still wouldn't have known
....... yeah that's pretty dumb
😅
I didn't realise you'd seen the way I look at you
I thought I was hiding it pretty well
I was afraid I was just seeing what I wanted to see
You were seeing the truth
but the way you look at me…
I can't even describe how it makes me feel
I want to make you feel everything good in the world
I want that too
I want you, Eddie
You can have me
I’m sorry about River
😬Yeah, so am I
omg, how am I going to tell them???
no idea
thanks, buck. very helpful
I can wait, though
however long you need to figure out how to explain things to them
I'll call them tomorrow
just be truthful, I think
I hate to hurt them, though
yeah
I hate that I've put you in this position
I can't believe you love me
I can't believe you love me
I thought that was an impossible dream
I love you more than I've loved anyone
same, Buck
I love you more than I think I could ever love anyone else
that’s insane
you are talking about me, right?
yes, buck
I adore you
wow
I adore you too
🥰
Eddie
Yeah?
I think we should say goodnight…
oh
I want nothing more than to keep talking to you, but if we keep talking I'm just gonna wanna call you and hear your voice and say things and then I'm gonna wanna come over and touch you and kiss you and stay the night…
ohh
I’m sorry
don’t be sorry
I think that all sounds pretty wonderful, tbh
I want it to happen
It can happen
I just don't think it'd be fair on River for it to happen tonight
I agree
not after the two of you hit it off so well
I want to talk to River first. Explain to them. And then ... we can explore us
a new level of us
wow
I’m giddy 😅
I wish I could kiss you rn
hold you
.......... you're right, we need to stop talking 😅
yeah
get some sleep, Eddie
I'm never gonna sleep tonight
I'll still be in love with you in the morning
omg
you will be
I love you so much, buck
all the much
I love you all the much too 😉
goodnight, buck
goodnight Eddie
I'll talk to you once I've spoken to River
good luck
yeah, thanks
sleep well, mi amor
😳
too much?
I’m turning my phone off
goodnight
night x
*
hey
good morning
hope you managed to get some sleep
oh, hey
hey 😊
honestly? not a lot
sorry to hear that
I pinched myself when I woke up this morning
really?
yeah 😅
wanted to make sure I was awake when I scrolled through our messages from last night
and were you?
well, pinching myself hurt
that means I’m awake, right?
I think so, yeah
Eddie
Yeah?
I’m still in love with you
🥰
I’m still in love with you too
🥰
I'm meeting River in half an hour
right
good luck
thanks
I hope it goes okay
yeah, me too
I feel sick about it
I wish I could help
how hot are they?
do you think they'd be interested in a threesome?
what??
sorry 😅
omg buck
tbh I really don't wanna share you
yeah, good
I'm definitely a monogamy kinda guy
I just thought maybe a joke would help but I probably could've picked a better one
sorry
I’m nervous
It's okay. I'm nervous too
okay, well…
I might jump in the shower
sure
text me when you’re free again?
I will
okay
I love you
I love you 🧡
💛
*
uh, hey. so ..... I spoke with River
hey
glad you’re still alive
that’s a good start
hah, yeah
so, how’d it go?
omg, buck. it was horrible
shit, I’m sorry
they took it well, when I explained. But I could see how hurt and disappointed they were
can't blame them for being upset about losing you
but I'm sorry you had to do that
they were really confused at first
because we hit it off so well
but I was just super honest and they seemed to understand
that's good, at least
one of the most unpleasant conversations I've ever had to have though
I’m so sorry
don't be. it's not your fault
anyway, um
I could really use a friend right now
can I come over?
of course
great, thanks
do you wanna stay for lunch?
I would love to
okay, great
I’ll see you soon, then
Yeah, I won’t be long
💛
and hey, when I get there .... should we talk more about us?
if you’re ready to
I want to
then yes
let’s talk about us
great
I love you, Eddie
I love you too
so fucking much, buck
🥰
see you soon
I can’t wait
me neither
😘
😘