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-...Edward... Arjen spoke softly, lying on his bed, looking at the ceiling.
- Tell me Arjen. Edward was sitting in a chair next to the bed.
- Get out of my room.
-... Edward looked at him for a few moments. He gave a quick sigh and headed towards the exit of Arjen's room Don't do something stupid.. okay?
-... *Arjen waited until he only heard the sound of the door, the room went up in smoke, and the theater disappeared*
The room was slightly disorganized, filled with books in almost every corner, and arjen. Well, he represented his own room currently.
In the main story.
Ariene was always the pov, Let's let Arjen tell this time how the hell it ended up THIS way.
-... Great... ah...some rest...
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I don't remember very well how i ended like this...
That's a lie. I remember perfectly. I just don't want to accept it. It's pretty simple to explain. For a long time, I have been very envious of my twin sister, Ariene.
I just... I don't know, it seems like everything revolves around her.
- The events that occurred
- Our birth
- The way people act when you're around
...I'll be honest, I feel like i'm just looking at her life.
She has greater elegance, greater magical power, she is the "last" descendant of the elves. Although it's funny, I'm supposed to be one too but it turns out that my "elf" blood is almost non-existent. Wonderful. Super convenient.
Anyway. continuous. She has suitors, friends, and Jason..., he simply prefers her, They fall in love.
That's ok! I'm happy for them, but I would like to remember that he also has another master..
- AHG. WHO AM I JOKING!?!? I'M SO JEALOUS-
As i said.. With the family it's the same story. They treat us differently. Just... Everything's just different with her.
And how they call us- AHG.
"This is Ariene, the Emperor's first princess! The last descendant of the elves! The strongest in terms of magic in school and-" Bla Bla Bla.
And I am, ""half of Ariene""
-... I'm disgusted by that nickname.
I feel abandoned.
Actually. If it didn't exist, I feel like nothing would really change. My contribution is almost zero in the events.
And even if. The others seem to know I'm there but they don't feel me.
I don't care.
Pass the time, I have been able to manage my emotions towards others, no one has asked, and it seems that not even Jason can feel me anymore, it is clearly obvious that he has forgotten that i am also his lord. Ariene is too naive and she doesn't realize things until it's too late. Stupid-
But, even though pretending everything is fine. Envy already a long time ago has begun to consume me.
I feel sick to be close to my sister, and for no reason or when i'm stressed i've been eating my nails.Of course, it is not noticeable due to being the son of the emperor, and you already know- golden blood, faster healing✨
I have not spoken much with her, in fact, i can affirm that on my part our connection of twins is completely lost. If Ariene, by the work of the Holy Spirit, find out how bad my mental health is and my great envy towards her happiness. I feel like she would be very angry. But it's worth 3 potatoes.
I can't tell others how i feel, i just can't. I no longer feel comfortable in the castle. It's fine. Everything is perfect in it. The problem is me. That sounds very emo but it's true!
And i can't do anything about it. I can't go live in a villa, they will definitely ask me questions and Ariene will follow me, I always have done it.
And i feel that servants are no longer as aware of me as before!
I feel trapped.
Jason represents the feeling of freedom from us, He canonically feels sick when we feel bad for something. but i don't see that he is affected at all. They all. They seem happy. And I'm just watching. I bet the only thing they know about me is that I like lemon sweets.
.. That's true but it's not all about me.
And after all, I've realized that, I have no purpose.
That is the summary. My mental is in the floor, i don't let anyone enter my room if i didn't order first or put illusion magic into it. The mess in my room is why i've been reading a lot, i try to find that something that filled my lonely life. And i've been saving for a while in case i don't lose my mind and i can think of escape or something.
Due to my depression there are times when I don't leave my room. So, I only have to study, look for something that I am passionate about and when it is time, escape. Or just have the balls to tell Dad that I want to go and send Ariene to shit. To be able to live quietly, far away. very far from here. Leave this jealousy behind and so everything will be happy and we will be fine.
I will be fine..
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...Oh and Edward found me in bad condition one time...
And after that the idiot hasn't left me alone.
He comes to visit me from time to time. and once out of nowhere he told me that he is no longer interested in Ariene... I don't believe anything. I don't trust him.
But he is the only person who know that i am not very well mentally.