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    As he heard the door slam shut behind him, Chuuya was not entirely aware of how he’d gotten to Dazai’s apartment. The location of which, and the route from his own, he still knew by heart. Without a second thought.
    He followed the familiar hallway, sprinting, stumbling slightly to the bathroom at the back of the apartment. The feeling-- that terrible, sickening feeling-- welled behind his eyes and their edges burned. Slowing a bit, bracing himself on the wall, he tried to breathe. He swallowed the stinging, the gripping, the pounding, suffocating sensation back down. His hand found the knob.

     

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    When Nakahara Chuuya sees the familiar appellation, 'Mackerel,' pop up on his phone screen for the first time in four years, he's filled with a mixture of terrible longing, and bitter anger. Both of which melt into fear when he realizes why Dazai has called.

    [or: Chuuya is hopelessly in love with a dense idiot who doesn't know it]

    It’s in the tags but I’ll put it here too– TRIGGER WARNING: Self-harm, blood, gore, suicidal ideation, some hinting of PTSD, emotional manipulation, wasps (not literal wasps but idk I mention them a lot as a metaphor)

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