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hunger hurts but starving works

Summary:

If you told Jude Bellingham when he first laid his eyes on FC Barcelona midfielder Gavi that in six months time of knowing him he’d be sitting next to him comforting him in his childhood bed then he’d have honest to god spat in your face but one thing Jude had learned after joining Real Madrid was that life was unpredictable and fast.

OR the one where Jude figures out the thing between him and Gavi that keeps pulling him towards the brown haired boy while Gavi figures out himself and how to keep people around.

Notes:

okay so this is my first fanfic EVER so i don’t even know what im doing or how far this is gonna go i just got this fucking brainrot of an idea a literal day before my exams and HAD to write. actually no ive been obsessed with this one anonymous person’s judegavi fics yk who you are shoutout and they asked if we the readers had any requests and i did but this was honestly too much to request so i simply decided to write my own fic. pls be kind.

anyways about the Actual stuff so HEAVY TW for eating disorders that’s really what this whole fic is about. im making it up as i go though so if anyone has any suggestions pls feel free. title room fiona apple’s “paper bag”. pls leave comments and kudos if u like this pls bc i do wanna keep writing this brainrot of an idea. also anybody wants to beta pls tell me like

Chapter 1: hiding in plain sight

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It wasn’t like Jude was trying to pay attention. really he wasn’t. That’s what Jude would tell you if you asked him because that’s not something that they did. Paying attention was’t part of their bargain. If you could even call it that. Yeah, that’s what he would say because paying attention to Gavi and whatever the fuck was wrong with him wasn’t Jude’s responsibility.

It’s just that whatever was wrong was glaringly obvious to anyone paying even the slightest attention to Gavi.

The first time Jude noticed was after a long night of staying in bed together doing things he’d really rather not recall , like most things between them tended to happen. He really didn’t have a name for what was going on between him and Gavi. They weren’t friends and he wouldn’t go as far to call them enemies , atleast not anymore. Fuckbuddies. That’s what Gavi had said in a rather blasé tone after Jude asked him one morning.

Fuckbuddies? Are we fucking middle schoolers mate?”, to which Gavi had simply responded by mocking his accent.

However whatever their relationship was Jude couldn’t help but Notice. That morning when he had gotten up Gavi wasn’t next to him which was nothing unusual. He usually liked to get up quite early and be out of Jude’s hair before he even woke up. When Jude checked the alarm clock it said 10:30 which was quite late. Before he could even get up however he heard a bit of noise coming from the kitchen. “You’re still here??.” he asked when he saw Gavi rummaging through his fridge.

In classic Gavi fashion instead of answering him directly he proceeded to hit Jude in the head with a spoon. “Why do you have like five cartons of full fat milk in your fridge?”. Jude noticed the black coffee in his hands then and scratched his head. “I’m glad to see you’re making yourself comfortable then , fuckbuddy.”

Gavi wrinkled his nose at that , while sipping on his coffee nonchalantly and simply asked Jude , “What’s your schedule like today?”

I’ve got training in the evening today then some gym work then i should probably be off if the rest of the boys don’t have any plans. What about you? I thought you’d already be out before I woke up.”

I thought so too but then I didn’t want to drive myself to an expensive coffeeshop so i stuck around.” Jude sat down on the dining chair now feeling his stomach rumble because of hunger. Gavi didn’t usually stick around long enough after for them to have small talk.

Looking back at it he should have known there was something softer flashing across his features. “Since you were fully robbing me want me to make you breakfast too? I’m honestly starving.”

Gavi put his cup down at that and smacked Jude’s forehead lightly before turning his face away and starting to mumble , “And get food poisoning from your awful cooking?. No thanks. Plus since i was raiding your pantry you had leftover oatmeal packets left so i ate that.”

After that Gavi proceeded to get closer and leave rough kisses along the side of Jude’s jawline. Something he knew drove Jude absolutely up the wall. Before he could respond however Gavi proceeded to get away then grab his phone and wave at Jude cheekily. “Call me if your ‘mates’ don’t have any plans later alright?”

Jude simply huffed at that before yelling out “You’re such a fucking slut!” while Gavi giggled before closing the door.

And really that should have been Jude’s first indication that something was up. Because as far as he could remember he had never liked oatmeal or bought it willingly in his life. There was also the tiny yet gargantuan detail that his groceries hadn’t been dropped off by his nutritionist yet meaning his fridge was most likely empty