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I woke up again,
That's not what I had planned.
I surpassed the lethal dose,
So I don't understand.
Why am I awake?
How did I survive?
My liver should have failed,
'Cause I took more than five.
Quickly hide my letters,
Destroy my suicide list.
My will and funeral description,
They don't even know they exist.
Thought I'd wake up in hell,
Paying for what I've done.
Knowing I won't get to heaven,
'Cause I wanted to take a gun.
Is suicide the solution?
Is killing yourself a crime?
I think it's my only way out,
So better luck next time.
I've learned my lesson now,
Next time I'll just take more.
Making sure no one finds out,
And locking my fucking door.
Or better yet, I'll hide,
In a forest, behind a tree.
So it's just a stranger,
And not my family who finds me.
I couldn't do that to them,
Don't want to give them nightmares.
Who knows, maybe they won't,
Then we'll see who really cares.
My attempts keep failing,
I'm sick of the ER.
Maybe I'll try another way,
And jump in front of a car.
Sorry if I disappear,
Please don't call the police.
Just know I'm not suffering anymore,
And I'm finally at peace.
~ 26.04.2024