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"I refuse." I said plainly as I laid on my stomach, I was on the Ada couch trying to relax. I rolled my eyes when Kunikida sighed. "I've agreed to be little around the Caregivers and babysitters. But not other Littles." I remind them as I went to mess with my headphones. Maybe I can tune them out.
"Dazai, it might be good for you. Interactions with other Littles helps most relax better." Chuuya explained as he sat down beside me.
"No." I said again as I glared down at my music player. "Don't I get to decide what I want? I'm not little right now. Have I ever wanted other Littles around when I'm little too? No! So stop pushing it." I raised my voice a little as I finally got up, tossing my stuff on the couch and storming off. I wanted to throw something at them when I hear them talk.
"Told you he wouldn't go for it." I think Chuuya said.
I grumbled as I decided to just hide in Yosano's office. I stepped inside and plopped down on a bed. I huffed as I curled up and decided to just mess with my phone. After a few minutes of playing, Yosano came walking in. She looked surprised to see me.
"You okay?" She asked, walking over and feeling my forehead for a fever.
I swat her hand away, "I'm fine, just hiding." I admit as I set my phone down and sat up.
"Why?" She asked as she narrowed her eyes in suspicion. She crossed her arms and stared at me.
"Kunikida and Chuuya are being dumb. They want me to hang around other Littles. I said no, but they keep pushing it!" I exclaimed, growing frustrated. Just became I'm a little does not mean I can't make my own decisions!
"Ahh, I see... that's my fault. I told them how Ranpo and Atsushi have a lot more fun when they're little when they play together." She explained as she smiled sheepishly. She walks over to her desk and started organizing papers. "I didn't think they'd bother you so much about it. Not all Littles like being with other Littles. Some like to just be with their caregiver or givers in your case." She said matter-of-factly as she taps a stack of papers on the desk to even them out.
"Yeah, I don't like people seeing me little to begin with. Why would I want a dumb play date!?" I huffed, looking away. I was growing more irritated just thinking about it.
"Well, I could talk to them. They just want what's best- oh! Hello!" Yosano said, her voice going a few octaves higher. I know that voice. Damn it!
I looked over and saw Atsushi, he's little right now. Atsushi is usually around six or five. I watched as he bounced on the toes of his feet, he was excited to see Yosano.
"Hi! I came to see you!" He said happily, then looked over and saw me. "Osamu!" He exclaimed, grinning and running over. He'd never call me Osamu when he's big. He's definitely little. I forced a smile and waved. "You should come play! Yosano said babies can't play big kid games, but we can find one you can pla-"
"I'm not a baby!" I shouted, glaring at him. I quickly stopped and looked away. "I- sorry... I didn't-" I hear sniffling and cringed. The small shuffling footsteps grow quieter as Atsushi runs over to Yosano.
"Dazai..." Yosano said, her voice stern and not happy. I see her holding Atsushi close as she pets his head. He had his face hidden against her.
"I've told you all to keep them away when they're little." I muttered as I got up and walked off. I felt bad, but- I don't know... seeing Littles, they annoy me! How can they be so okay with this!? I don't get it! I went to leave the building all together, but Chuuya stopped me.
"Where are you going?" He asked, he looked concerned.
"Out." I muttered, opening the door.
"You're due for your little time, I don't think that's a good idea-" I groaned and cut him off.
"I don't think I need two guys my age telling me what's best for me when I'm a grown man too!" I shouted then stormed out of the building.
I need to fix this, I've gotten too comfortable being little lately. It was probably Chuuya being around. That's it- I've gotten too relaxed because I'm around too many safe people. I sighed as I walked around the block. I shouldn't be little, Mori is sure acting nice around everyone. But- he wasn't nice when he found out my class! I know he thinks I'm weak now. Being little is weakness! I shook my head trying to ignore the flashbacks. Why did I have to be little!? As I walked, I felt my head getting fuzzy. Probably from being upset this long. I decided to keep walking, maybe the fuzzy feeling will go away! I grunt when I ended up bumping into someone. I landed on the sidewalk and winced. I looked up and saw it was Ranpo and Jun'ichirō. Oh no- this is not what I need right now!
"Dazai!? You okay!? Sorry!" Jun'ichirō said as he quickly tried to help me up.
I moved away and looked down. My head already felt fuzzy, add surpise and pain into the mix and you're asking for a little. I chew at my bottom lip as I clenched my fists. I fought back a sniffle, I can't let them see me like this! But I can't get up!
"Dazai... you okay? Oh no- ranpo I think he's hurt-" Ranpo cuts off Jun'ichirō's frantic talking with a loud groan.
"Just my luck- did he really have to regress right now? My head isn't in the right space for this. Hey- Jun'ichirō. You may want to call someone." Ranpo said before he walked over and leaned against a building. I glanced over at him and saw he was picking at his sleeves. Is he turning little too!?
Jun'ichirō was confused, but he called anyways. "Uhh... yeah, I have Dazai and Ranpo. I don't know- Ranpo said to call- yeah he's fine- Dazai is- he isn't really doing much. Okay, I'll keep them here." He said then hung up his phone. He looks over at Ranpo who seemed to be walking off. "Ah- wait! Ranpo!" He called out and chased after him. When they were out of site I grew tense.
"Mmh..." I whimpered as I hugged my knees to my chest. Why did they leave!? I hiccuped as I let out a small sob. Sniffling, I looked around but didn't see them. They must have turned the corner? I didn't have to be alone too long, I see Jun'ichirō dragging Ranpo back. Ranpo didn't look happy.
"I don't wanna! I want the toy!" Ranpo shouts as he tries to pull away. I covered my ears, I didn't like loud noises. Ranpo is very loud.
"Ranpo- we need to stay here until help arrives. Dazai- you oka-... oh... " Jun'ichirō looked worried now. He seems panicked. Makes sense, he's a babysitter. Plus- he's never really taken care of me, Ranpo or Atsushi by himself before. Now he has two. "D-Dazai! Don't put your fingers in your mouth!" He quickly ran over and pulled my fingers out. But- because he did that, Ranpo got free.
"Ugh! I'm going! Babies are gross! He's always crying too!" Ranpo huffed as he starts storming off.
"Wait!" Jun'ichirō quickly grabbed Ranpo before he got too far, he pulls him back and makes him sit down next to me. "Okay- okay... now. Both of you stay. You have to be good until someone comes to help."
"I don't wanna! I want a new toy and candy!" Ranpo shouts, kicking his feet out as he throws a tantrum.
"Ranpo- we have to wait. Dazai is with us. He's just a baby, he can't walk with us. I'm not strong enough to carry him." Jun'ichirō tried to explain, but Ranpo wasn't having it.
"Leave him! Babies are dumb. Look- he isn't doing anything!" Ranpo said as he points at me.
He was right, I was just sitting there sniffling and hugging myself.
Jun'ichirō was going to argue, but his phone rang. He sighed and answered. "Yeah- down the street and turn left. Yeah.."
As he talked on the phone, Ranpo looks over at me. "Wanna be useful?" He asked softly.
I looked over, tilting my head. I was curious. "Uh huh..."
"Cry, distract that dumb dumb so I can get away." Ranpo said, leaning in close so I could hear him.
"Bad..." I said, frowning. I didn't like being bad. That was definitely bad.
"Ugh, stupid baby!" He huffed, and before I realized it he grabbed my hair and pulled.
I whined loudly as I pushed him away. I felt myself about ready to cry. My head hurts now! My bottom lip trembled, I opened my mouth to scream, but then I saw two familiar people coming over. Chuu and Kuni! Jun'ichirō hung up his phone and sighed in relief. Ranpo wasn't happy now that he can't escape. My two Caregivers come jogging over. Kunikida kneels in front of me, he checks to make sure I'm okay then picks me up. I sniffled as I hide my face against his shoulder.
"I got you, you're okay." He said softly as he carried me.
Ranpo was throwing a fit, kicking and screaming. Chuuya had to pick him up and throw him over his shoulder. "Come on kid, I ain't putting up with your tantrum." He muttered as he carried him.
Kunikida sighed as we walked back to the agency building. "Your hair is messy, we should brush it." He said, talking to himself mostly.
"Pulled..." I whimpered, holding onto his shirt, tightly.
"Pulled?" He frowned and looked over at Ranpo, then back at me. "Did he pull your hair?" I nod, still not looking up. I sniffled again, I knew ranpo would be even more upset with me now. "Ranpo you get six minutes in time out!" Kunikida said, his voice stern and louder than his normal volume.
"Six minutes is a bit much, it's just a tantrum." Chuuya said as he struggled to keep Ranpo in his arms.
"I'd agree, but he pulled Dazai's hair. He knows to keep his hands to himself." Kunikida explained, as we reached the agency entrance. Once we got inside, Jun'ichirō looked drained, Ranpo was being put in timeout and Kunikida took me to Yosano to check out my head.
"Poor baby." Yosano cooed as she checks my head. I whined when she touched a sensitive spot. "Ah, yeah he pulled out some hair. It's just a few strands but- I can see why it'd hurt. There are small droplets of blood, barely noticeable." She explained as she fixed my hair, so it wasn't messy. "I can't do much, nothing to do really. I guess an ice pack would work. But I doubt the baby will like that." She said as she goes into a small freezer she has and pulled one out. She gently placed it on my head and I quickly moved away.
Kunikida sighed, "Alright, I'll keep an eye on him. But he should be fine?"
"Yes, he'll be okay." She said as she puts the icepack away. "Just a heads up, Atsushi is little too. Everyone is kind of busy at the moment so... you and Chuuya may need to take care of them." She said as she gently pets my head and ran her fingers through my hair.
"No!" I cried out, I didn't wanna be around them! I want Kuni and Chuu only!
"Zai, I know you're upset. But we need to make sure they're okay too." Kuni said, kneeling down so we were face to face. "Can you play nice for a little bit? I'll get you a gift if you do." Is he bribing me now?
"Kay..." I said softly as I looked down.
Kunikida gives me a small smile then picks me up. "Alright, let's go play." We walk into the room made for the Littles. Ranpo is sitting in the corner, pouting, Atsushi was- he was hanging on Chuuya. I did my best to glare. "Zai... play nice, remember?" Kunikida softly reminded me.
"Chuu..." I choked out, then reached for him. Instantly Chuuya came over and grabbed me. Kunikida sighed and went to take care of Atsushi. I didn't like that either. Chuuya lightly bounced me on his lap when he sat down in a chair. I was too busy glaring to have fun.
"Someone is a grumpy baby." Chuuya cooed as he kissed the top of my head.
I didn't like it! Now Ranpo was out of timeout, he was playing with Kuni too! "Kuni!" I cried out, reaching for him, like I did with Chuuya earlier.
"One second- let me just-" I cut him off with a loud whine.
"Nooowww!" I cried out, squirming on Chuuya's lap.
"Zai, patience. I have to make sure they're okay too." Kunikida said as he sets Atsushi down. He was trying to calm them down but was struggling. Ranpo had even kicked him! "Nakahara, help me with these two."
Chuuya nods, then gets up. "Here, one second. Baby." He said softly before setting me in my playpen. I watched as he walked off to go play with the two older ones.
I'm alone. I wouldn't feel so bad if It was quick, but it wasn't. I saw Chuu laughing as Atsushi climbed on him. Ranpo had finally calmed down and Kuni was reading to him. I'm alone in a empty playpen. I don't even have fishy! I winced when my stomach growled. Now I'm hungry. Don't I get my bottle!?
"Kuni..." I said softly, as I slowly stood up. I balanced as I held the edge of the playpen. He didn't notice me. "Chuu...?" I tried a little louder, but the other two are louder than me. "Buh-Buh..." I whimpered.
"Zai, sit back down baby. You're going to get hurt." Chuuya said, I was glad he noticed me. It was short lived. He went right back to Atsushi.
I plopped down and let out small gasps as I tried not to cry. I knew it! This is why I don't like when it's not just us three! Other Littles are better! They're more fun, they don't cry as much, they aren't a dumb baby! I lay down and chewed on my fingers as I watched them all. I curled up and sniffled. Eventually after laying there crying for a bit, I got tired and fell asleep.
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I groaned as I woke up, I rubbed my eyes and sat up. I looked around and saw no one was in the room with me. Course, they're probably playing with the other two. I wasn't little anymore so I got out of the playpen and headed back into the main office. I looked and saw everyone was working. Atsushi and Ranpo were big again, Kunikida was doing paperwork and Chuuya- he was gone.
"Oh, you're awake. Now you can do your paperwork. It's piled up since you haven't done any for a month." Kunikida said as he places a large stack of paper on my desk.
"Right..." I muttered as I sat down, I got started.
Once the day ended Yosano came up to Kunikida. "You and Chuuya watching them while everyone else worked was a pretty good system. Mind keeping it up? It's easier when there aren't Littles running around." She said with a small smile. She seemed happy she got some work done.
I froze, no way! They're going to keep doing it!? He can't agree to this!
"Sure, Dazai was actually quiet with the other two around. It may be helping him." He said as he got up and cleared off his desk.
I don't like this... "I'm going home." I muttered before heading out without saying goodnight.
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Next week, it was time for me to regress again. It isn't Ranpo or Atsushi's time. I should be okay. They won't take them again. I sit on Chuuya's lap as he holds me and pets my head. I rest my head on his chest and just enjoyed his touch. Kuni was making my bottle, key word... was. I frowned when I hear Atsushi. He runs over to Kuni and tugs on his arm.
"Kuni! I'm hungry!" He whined, leaning against him now.
"Alright, one second. Dazai needs-"
"Noooo! Hungry!" Atsushi complained then stomped his foot.
"Okay- okay." I watched as he left my bottle on the counter and went to get Atsushi some food instead.
Chuuya hummed as he looks down at me. "You okay?" He asked softly as he brushed his knuckle along my cheekbone.
"Buh-Buh-"
"Hat man!" No- not him too! I look and saw Ranpo coming over.
"What's up Kiddo?" He asked, as he lightly bounces me on his lap.
"I'm bored! Come do something with me." Ranpo said, pouting.
"Alright, Zai seems tired anyways. Let me just put him down for a nap." Chuuya said as he got up.
"No... I not-"
"Dazai, you know naps are important. Come on." Chuuya lightly scolded, before putting me in the playpen.
"Fishy..?" I asked softly, but Chuu was too distracted with Ranpo tugging on his arm.
"Alright, alright." He looks back at me and smiles. "Sleep well, Osamu." He said then walked off with Ranpo.
I sat in that playpen for a good hour, no one came to check on me. I was alone until I saw Atsushi and Ranpo walk into the room. To my horror they had Fishy! Atsushi was holding him as Ranpo talked about a game they should play. Atsushi said he rather just play with the fish, Ranpo didn't like that. I frowned as he tried to grab the fish. They both had it now, they were pulling on it! I tried to say stop but they didn't listen. I tried once more, but I froze when I heard a ripping sound. My eyes widened as I stared at my now ripped fishy.
"Great, you ripped it!" Ranpo huffed as he throws his half down.
Atsushi frowned as he stared at the ripped toy. I didn't care. I lost it! One minute it was quiet, the next I was having the biggest fit I've ever had. I screamed and sobbed as I kicked at the playpen. I hear Chuuya and Kunikida come running in. Kunikida picks me up and tries to calm me down. I cried louder and started hitting him. That's when Chuuya tried to help me, I didn't want it! I whined as I threw my head back and hit him in the nose. He cursed and Kunikida quickly took me back. I kept kicking and squirming, Chuuya was tending to his bloody nose. The other two Littles had run off, probably to get away from my crying. I kept screaming, until I was red in the face. Eventually others came in to see what was happening. Yosano tried checking to see if I was sick, I smacked the thermometer away. Fukuzawa tried to hold me but I didn't want that either! Almost everyone was trying to calm me down, until finally someone noticed the issue.
Yosano frowned as she walked over to the pile of stuffing on the ground. She kneels down and cursed. "Oh no..."
"What?" Chuuya shouted over my crying. He was frantically patting my back since I was coughing and gagging from all the crying.
Yosano picked up fishy and showed everyone. Seeing it again made me start crying even louder. I hide my face against Fukuzawa's shoulder and held onto his clothes tightly.
"Oh... Shit..." Chuuya said as he walked over and took fishy.
"We could get a new one?" Kunikida recommended, but that made Chuuya cringe.
"It was limited... besides I got it when he was seventeen. I doubt it's around anymore." He explained as he started at the mess of stuffing and fishy in his hands.
"Okay, let's just get him calm and we can figure this out... he has to tire out eventually right?" Yosano said as she pets my head.
Wrong.
I cried all day, even when work was over and Chuuya was taking me to his place I was still crying. It wasn't as loud or aggressive as earlier but I was still going. Kunikida had come along to help Chuuya since I'm not in the best mood right now.
"I know baby, I'm sorry! I wish I could fix this..." Chuuya said, desperately wanting me to calm down. When he carried me to his apartment I was still crying, he was getting looks, whether it be annoyed or pity. He got me inside his place and set me down. "Alright, baby. What can I do? Whatever you want. I'll do it!" He said, he sounded so desperate. While he was talking to me, Kuni got my bottle ready.
"Fishy!!" I screamed, crying loudly once more.
Kuni brought the bottle over and picked me up, he tried to feed me but I smacked the bottle away. Big mistake. The bottle flew out of his hand and hit Chuuya's TV. Oops. Chuuya stared, eyes wide and shocked. He turned the TV on and the screen glitches. I finally stopped crying, only to see what he'd do. He looked mad. I sniffled as I hide my face against Kunikida.
"Nakahara... calm down, he's little right now. You've told me many times he's just a baby. He doesn't know better." Kunikida said carefully and quietly.
"I know! But shit- that was- fuck! It was expensive!" He shouts as he paced around the livingroom.
"You're scaring him." Kunikida points out as he motions to me.
Chuuya takes a deep breath then sighs, "right... okay.. well he stopped crying. That's good. At the expense of my eighty-five inch TV.... but he stopped!"
"Right, let's get some liquids in him then clean him up before putting him to bed." Kunikida said, making the plan.
Chuuya nods in agreement then picks up the bottle. "I'll go clean this up." He muttered as he walked off.
Kunikida decides to sit down with me on the couch. I sucked on my thumb as I cuddled up against him. Eventually Chuuya came back and hands Kunikida the bottle. I slowly opened my mouth and started drinking. I hummed softly as I enjoyed the warm formula. I felt my eyes getting heavy. Chuuya brushed some hair out of my face then gets up.
"I'll set up the bath." He whispered before walking off again.
Kunikida continued to feed me until about three-forth of the bottle was gone. I whined as I pushed it away when I was done. My stomach hurt now, I didn't want anymore. He sits me up then tries to get any air bubbles out by burping me. Something came up. It wasn't a burp.
I threw up on his shoulder.
I coughed and cried a little as the last of it came up. I whined as I wiped my mouth on his shirt.
Kunikida took a deep breath then gently set me down on the couch. "The bath done?" He called out to Chuuya who confirmed it was.
Chuuya came back into the room, he was shocked to see the throwup on Kunikida, me and... his couch. He forced our a laugh then ran his fingers through his hair. He looked done with today.
"Okay- I'll go clean him up... uh.. I'm not sure how to help you out. Nothing here will fit you." Chuuya said as he picks me up. I cling to him instantly which got throw up on him too. I hear him curse under his breath then sigh. "I'll order you some clothes. There's towels you can wrap around your waist for now. I can also wash your old ones." He said to Kuni as he carries me to the bathroom.
My bath was quiet, I didn't do much. I was too tired. Chuuya had to keep holding me up so I didn't fall asleep. Once I was clean, Chuuya carried me to my room. Chuuya had taken off his own shirt so I wouldn't get dirty again from the vomit. Now hes in a tank top. He sighs as he dressed me in my Pajamas. It was my favorite cat onesie. It went well with fishy.... thinking about it I sniffled and a few tears fell.
"No, no no... baby don't cry. Come on, let's go to bed. Today has been rough. You'll feel better tomorrow." Chuuya said softly as he lays me down. Once I'm laying down I felt alone. Chuuya was there but- fishy wasn't. I hiccuped as a few sobs came out.
"Fishy...." I cried, wiping my eyes.
"I know... I'm sorry..." He whispers as he pets my head.
I see Kunikida walk in, he had on the new clothes Chuuya had ordered. Perks of being as rich as Chuuya, you can order whatever you want and it'll arrive in minutes. Kunikida sits at the end of my bed and frowns.
"He's crying again?" He asked as he holds my hand.
"Yeah, he usually has fishy... he can't sleep without it." Chuuya said, he looked worried. Probably trying to figure out how to get me to sleep.
Kunikida sighs then scoots up and lays down beside me. I frowned in confusion as I looked over at him. He hasn't slept with me since I first joined the ada. He used to lay there while I napped so I'd feel more comfortable. I sniffled then turned so I could cuddle up against him.
"How'd you know that would work?" Chuuya asked, scooting over as well.
"Used to do this when he first joined. He refused to nap, so I'd lay there until he fell asleep." Kunikida said softly as he held me close.
I feel Chuuya place his hand on my arm and I feel him lay down on the other side of me. "Shit... he's finally calming down."
"Yeah... I don't think I could have handled any more." Kunikida admitted.
"Same here... he's never acted like that before." Chuuya said as he pets me.
"He chugged his bottle too fast, that's why he threw up. He only does that when he's really hungry. He had a bottle yesterday. Right?" Kunikida asked, sounding concerned.
"I thought you gave him one." Chuuya said, I could hear him frowning.
"No- I was dealing with Ranpo." Kunikida admits, shamefully.
"I was dealing with Atsushi..." Chuuya whispered in realization.
They continued to talk, realizing they also didn't give me a bottle today. They realized they've been so busy with the other two they hadn't taken care of me as well as they usually do. I decided I didn't want to listen anymore. I whimpered softly as I curled up and dozed off.