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r/2amwordvomit• 12hrs ago
u/agcd
i had a dream where i got married to my roommate and i'm so embarrassed i might have to move out of our shared apartment.
idek if this is the right subreddit for this. is it even called a subreddit? idk. i literally just downloaded this app like two minutes ago just so i could post this. the name is pretty funny though. kind of fitting for my current predicament.
i wish i was being dramatic but at this point i feel like if i don't word vomit to all you strangers in exchange for suggestions and or condolences, i might combust.
uh. hi everyone. this is my first post on here, i'll try to keep it short.
i [alex, 22] have been friends with this one dude- let's call him H[23]- for about three years now.
we started off as roommates, but we didn't actually become civil with each other until like the second month (we kinda of started off on the wrong foot, i was convinced he hated my guts, so in return i hated his guts too. turns out it was all a figment of my imagination.)
anyways, in no time we became fast friends, sometimes i think of all the time we(i, tbh) wasted acting as enemies when we could've have been straight up bonding but thems the past so ig we move on?
anyways, friends for about five years now. more than friends tbh. he's pretty much my person atp. he's my best friend and i would literally die AND kill( i kid, fbi) for him as he would for me. we're basically five and six now. i don't do anything without him there and we almost ALWAYS have to have a part of our body connected if we're anywhere together. he's literally my best friend.
moving into the reason for this 2am panic post
see i'm a 2L law student okay? and two weeks ago i had this term paper that was due in a couple of hours that i hadn't completed. on top of that i ran out of my adhd meds and the pharmacy i got my refill from that was closest to us was closed for some fumigation issue so i was literally stuck.
my fucking brain could not focus no matter how hard i tried. so in my panic induced state i scream embarrassingly loud, go silent for like ten seconds and just… break down. sobbing mess. i'm talking tears running my face snot bubbling all over my top lip. i looked like a whole mess.
but h, my lovely lovely beautiful stunning perfect h, comes running into the kitchen (where i am) and like drags me into his arms- snot and all. i literally tried pulling away but he just held me closer and kept running his hands through my hair(he knows how much i love that) and whispering “it's okay love you're okay” into my ear, and in a few minutes i'm calm. an angel
after calming me down, he asks me what the problem was and after explaining to him plus shedding a few more tears, he hugs me AGAIN, before pulling me away from my books and into the bed( i call it THE bed because we share a bed more times than we don't)
in bed he STILL holds me close and convinces me to take a nap and try again later, seeing as i still have like 12 hours before my deadline. so i do
i wake up about four hours later, but h isn't there. i go into the living room and i'm about to call out his name when he enters the apartment. he's dripping a bit, that's when i notice it's raining. i'm talking full on pouring.
turns out h fucking went to a pharmacy almost two hours away to get my adhd meds in the fucking rain and he's just there smiling at me like it's nothing. like he isn't soaked to his toes. and i'm just standing there flabbergasted.
he makes me a plate of waffles, gets me to take my meds then sits with me as i write my assignment. he's an english lit student but he sat with me- a LAW student and helped me out. i love him so much.
so anyways. like i said, it's been almost two weeks now, we're back to our usual routine. i got an a on my report (yay me) and that too passes. i haven't seen h much for like two days now because he's been having study sessions with some WASPy pos that isn't worthy enough to be in his presence. i think i'm having withdrawal symptoms lmfao
okay i realized i still haven't said the reason the this post. buckle up y'all..
i haven't been able to forget that event. now anytime i'm around h, my heart starts beating so loudly i fear he can hear it too, i stutter when i talk to him and worse.. i kind of want to.. live inside his skin?
idfk what's wrong with me. i kind of branded this as me feeling super duper grateful but. i had a dream this morning (which is why i'm up) and we got married. there i said it.
see here's the thing. i'm a straight man. all the messing around i did with my best friend in high school and my severe obsession with han solo and james bond is the closest i've gotten to anything male related. so i don't think it's that? plus i've only dated women.
h is right next to me right now and i feel like my heart is beating so loud he might wake up. y'all idk what to do. who tf dreams about getting married to their best friend? do you guys think it's all still connected to him going out of his way to get my adhd meds? i don't want to have to move out due to embarrassment. lemme know what you think please and thank you xx
comments:
queen_bohemian: “try to keep it short” my ass
↳ ballboy: we have to admit this is a juicy story though
austinbutlerbemybutler: “i love this man and i'd kill for him and i'd die for him i want to live in his skin. i get jealous when he around other men. i'm straight though” what level of no homo is this?
↳ nowayjosé: he's broken the no homo record
baybey: i can't tell if you're being serious or not
naraaran : now honey…
judas_is_carrot : i don't know how to tell you this. i can't believe you haven't figured this out. do you by any chance, know of the term “bisexuality”?
↳ abiboy: he'll get there soon please don't lose hope in him😭
pusseepink: babes you want that man to fold you in half and take you to pound town. get your head out of your ass
pistachionuts: you have a whole paragraph dedicated to you basically waxing poetic about this man and you still think you're straight? oh!
move-julius: he calls you love and pets your hair? you always have to touch each other and you do everything with each other? HE WENT TO GET YOUR MEDS IN THE RAIN?? you're in love with him and seeing this he's in love with you too. your dream is a prophecy. invite me to your wedding tnx
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r/2amwordvomit• 2hrs ago
u/agcd
update
Y'ALL. lmfaoooooooooooo
turns out i'm very fucking bi (thank you @judas_is_carrot) and i was halfway (full way actually) in love with h. as soon as i realized i shouted “holy shit”, and h being the fucking angel he is dropped what he was doing and came up to me. all that made me do was lose my ability to keep shit my self and i blurted out that i was in love with him. i can't get his teary eyes and bright smile out of my head. i'm giggling as i write this. omggggggggg
anyways we're dating now. i can't believe this is my life. i get to call this beautiful man my boyfriend. life is so fucking good my dudes.
thank you to all of you that indulged in my panic induced post. couldn't have done it without you. peace out
abiboy: omg yayyyy
semisemmy: congratulations
austinbutlerbemybutler: glad you pulled your head out of your ass
move-julius: still want an invitation to the wedding tnx
↳ agcd: you got it :)