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My body is a potted plant.
Just a sprout, I yearn for roots to keep me grounded. I wish to grow leaves that reach for the sky. A stem would be nice, that way I can be taller and see the world from a new lens. This solitary shade of green is a bore. Oh, to have colorful petals that dance in the wind… it’s all I could ever ask for.
I want to be better, but I want to be better now.
I don’t like being a sprout. I no longer like the me that I am. No one can see me. I’m just a little stub shrouded in a body of dirt and minerals. All I need is water. If I can make my base swim in a pool of water, the growth I need can come swiftly.
Oh no. It’s too much! Too much water all at once, it’s making me suffocate! I thought if I did everything I needed to do to grow all in one moment, I could be a new me starting tomorrow. I have no petals, no leaves, no stems, and no roots. The only thing I have is a sludge of dirt and a glimmer of green.
Perhaps the growth I seek will take some time. A little water a here. A little sun there. If I give myself the time to change, maybe I can be the me I wish to be in no time.
Now, I finally have leaves. I want petals more than anything, but perhaps I am not ready for that. Right now I am green, but when my petals come in, maybe they’ll be a new color. Pink, yellow, blue, purple… Some day, I will spring with color.
I’m not the plant I want to be, but that’s okay. I will give myself time to grow into a flower I can love.