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6 months ago Nakahara Chuuya had discovered that he had developed a crush on an annoying and obnoxious, yet beautiful boy.
See Chuuya doesn't mind loving boys, he's very proud of his sexuality acctually. But for some reason he had to fall in love with his co-worker slash friend or whatever homoerotic relationship they had, he seriously needed to question his tast in man.
But enough that, today he was going confess to Dazai, though he may have had planed to confess on his 16th birthday, but he realised that if he got rejected on his birthday, well, it wouldn't be that great. So he decided he confess on Dazai's birthday, but, than he thought again, he would prepare a big birthday party and if he rejects him, wll it be awkward to say the least.
Two weeks until Dazai's birthday and today, he's going to confess to him. Mori had given them the day off, so Chuuya took this opportunity to find that Mackrel, and take him out.
He doesn't really know where Dazai lives, usually when they hang out they would hang out at Chuuya's or go to the arcade. The only thing he knew is that Dazai liked going to the beach near the port Mafia, maybe he was there.
So that's the first place Chuuya went, and funnily enough he found him there. Walking and looking around aimlessly, like a lost child searching for his parents.
"Yo Dazai !" Chuuya said loud enough for the boy to hear, and yet he didn't turn around.
"Dazai, hey !" Louder and, maybe he didn't hear the first time, that was fine. He still didn't loom back.
OK not Chuuya had enough, he ran where Dazai was, and tapped on his shoulder, and than and only than Dazai turned around with a surprised look as if Chuuya hadn't been screaming out his name, seriously what was wrong with him today, and why did he looked surprised, Dazai barely gets surprised.
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When Dazai had opened his eyes, he knew this was going to be a bad day. He just had the feeling something was going to happen.
As soon as he stood up he had realised why he had that feeling. He couldn't hear anything. Well that was the usual part, the annoying part was that he still had his hearing aids in is his ear, yet couldn't hear anything.
Dazai had been deaf since he was 8, he had lost his hearing because of how loud his surroundings were, and his parents had bought him hearing aids because they didn't have time to learn JSL, well that's what they always would say anyway.
Now that he's in the port Mafia, Mori would usually charge them, and keep a spare one. Except, this was his spare one.
He had broken his old pare because he injured himself on a mission, that lucky wasn't with Chuuya. He'd never want to admit it one of his weakness to him.
OK, no that was a lie on Dazai's part. He didn't mind Chuuya knowing some weaknesses, just not this one. This one was the worst, he didn't want Chuuya to treat him differently, he didn't want Chuuya to stop bickering and yelling at him.
The brunette was acctually fond of the other's reaction, it was funny. And in any case, Chuuya made him feel like that. Feel human, or like a real teenager.
And sure Dazai had a crush on Chuuya, and would almost do anything and would be willing to say anything but talking his hearing, there's no way that would ever happen.
Anyway, since he couldn't hear anything, and he was off work, amd he did not want to see Mori, the brunette decided to go for a walk, near the beach, he liked there, it was quiet and he almost never needed his hearing aid there. And the colore and waves reminded him of Chuuya's eyes. How you see his emotions just by looking at them, yet you'd know him well just to see a bit of his real emotions.
When he walk is was calm, he didn't have anyone that bothered him. Well that is until a familiar red-head that tapped his shoulder.
Fuck.
That's when Chuuya started talking. What was he saying ?
"What is wrong with you ! I've been screaming your name like a crazy person for the past minute!" The red-head said basically screaming, and talking faster than he had to.
What was he saying ? Dazai couldn't understand, it happened at times that Chuuya would talk too fast, but those times, Dazai had his hearing aids. And right now he didn't have them.
Usually when he didn't have his hearing aids, on occasion like shopping alone for stuff Mori told him to buy, or when he'd find it unnecessary to have them, he would use JSL, or he would read lips and talk, though Dazai hated talking without hearing his voice. He never knew if he was too loud or too quiet.
But reading lips had it's inconvenience, like when people articulate too much because they think it'll help Dazai understand what he's saying, or when they talk to fast, which was the carse at this moment.
"Dude, slow down, I can't understand you." He said trying to decipher what the older one was saying
"What do you mean you can't understand me ?" Chuuya said looking around confused. Now this was just great, Dazai couldn't read his lips if he couldn't see them, and there was no way he was going to tell Chuuya he's deaf not today.
So the only reasonable thing Dazai had thought of doing is take his face and make him talk. "I can't understand you Chuuya, what did you say ?" He asked looking at Chuuya's lips.
Wow, ok, Chuuya just short Short circuit. Why was Dazai just cupping his cheeks ? And was he looking at his lips ? What was happening. "I said that I've been screaming your name like a crazy person for the past minute like a dumbass !" Chuuya said slower this time.
"Oh !" Well that made more sense now, Dazai thought.
"Anyway, do you want to euh.. go to the arcade, or go to the mall ?" Chuuya said, very flushed.
"Well considering we went to the arcade last night, I'd like to go to the mall." Dazai said smiling.
Chuuya agreed with him, both boys started walking to the train station.
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OK Chuuy was going to confess now. Sure Dazai hasn't been really responsive, but Chuuya needed to confess now. It was now or never really. Of he did it later it'd be probably too late. At least that's what he'd told himself.
"Hey, Dazai, I know this is a bit ridiculous really. But I wanted to tell you I like you, a lot acctually. More than I should, I know you act like you don't care, but I know you do. I just feel like I've known you for a long time, and I care a bout you." Chuuya said, his face getting increasingly red.
A minute passed. Dazai didn't reply.
OK maybe he was just confused.
Two minutes, they were still walking and still nothing.
Three minutes passed.
Ok, now Chuuya was pissed off, look, they haven't even had a proper conversation. Honestly Chuuya didn't know what to do now. He had talk, asked questions. And all that whatnot and Dazai's wasn't responding, he just was looking around aimlessly. And now, he just ignored his stupid confession. What the acctual fuck.
It was fucking annoying. Chuuya had been trying he really has, but at this point Dazai must be deaf or something.
It was starting to piss Chuuya off, look it was either Dazai talked or he would leave. And Dazai hasn't talk yet, so he took the second option. And he added the fact he was going to make Dazai realise shit.
He turned the brunette around so was facing him. "Listen here you fuck face ! You're really starting to piss me the fuck off. And don't you dare look at me like that, you know damn well what you did."
Dazai just looked confused. He had the audacity of looking confused. Chuuya really wanted to punch that tuckers face, and also question his taste in man, because what the acctual fuck.
"Seriously? You really want to pretend like you haven't been basically ignoring me this past hour. You haven't been listening to me this whole day, and you ignore my confession, fuck you."
And immediately after that Chuuya stormed off. He didn't need that bastard anyway.
And that's when Dazai realised he fucked up. That he should've maybe not be that constipated emotionally (like the author) and tell him he was deaf. And God he just realised he had to apologise.
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Chuuya won't lie at this, walking home alone was weird. Sure he did walk home alone often. But for some reason this was different. And he swore that he saw more couples in the train than usually.
When he arrived to his apartment, he fell right into his couch not thinking about anything, especially that bandaged bastard.
He put on some show that him and Dazai would usually watch and just stared into space.
He was just thinking, maybe Dazai didn't respond to be nice ? Or something. Chuuya was deep in his thoughts until someone knocked on his door, he swore it's only been a minute since he came home.
"Chuuya ! It's me. Could you open the door." Great the bastard was here
"Fuck off!" Chuuya scream why was he here?
Dazai just looked at the door, it's been a few seconds. He guessed Chuuya told him to leave, because the door didn't open.
Since the red-head didn't want to open the door, he'd have to pick the lock, not that it wasn't unusual that he did it, he just hope he wouldn't do it this time.
"Chuuya, we need to talk." Was the first thing Dazai said when he entered in this beautiful boys house.
He walked slowly to the living room, to see Chuuya sitting on his couch, probably cursing at him, with "howls moving castle" on the TV.
"I told you to fuck off, you peace of shit" Chuuya slured out.
"I don't want to see your fucking face right now." The older continued looking away from Dazai.
Before Chuuya could even say something else, or even do something Dazai opened his mouth.
"I can't hear you for shit, Chuuya." Dazai wasn't sure of he was yelling or not, he just went with it.
And that's when Chuuya shut up, he looked back at Dazai. And for a brief moment, there was just silence between them.
"What the fuck do you mean you can't hear me ?" Chuuya said, slower this time, just incase the yonger wasn't lying and couldn't hear him.
"I can't hear you."
"Huh?"
Dazai who, again, hated talking when he couldn't hear himself stated talking.
"Look I'm going to make this short cause I can't hear myself, and I don't know if I'm pronouncing words right. Or if I'm yelling. Though I do suspect I'm pronouncing my words well, since you know I've been talking for a while and all and..." he stopped himself from rambling further
"Anyway, yeah, I can't hear you, or anyone In that matter. I'm deaf, and I didn't charge my hearing aids today because I thought I would not need them. If you said something while I wasn't looking. Sorry."
Chuuya goes looks at him dumbly and says "Oh."
"Yeah, um. You probably don't want me here. So I'll leave" he says already turning around.
"NO, NO DON'T LEAVE" Chuuya says immediately, but Dazai can't see his lips he's already moving to the door.
For a good 2 minutes, it's just silence between them. "Can you speak signe language ?" Is all Chuuya askes, and it seems stupid to Dazai why would he ask that ? Chuuya wouldn't need it.
"Um yeah?"
"OK... then. Come here next week at my house." "Without your hearing aids." He adds
"Sure..." is all Dazai could respond.
And yet his mind was questioning everything. Maybe he shouldn't have told him. Who knows, maybe he was going to use that to his advantage. He'll have to take his hearing aids, and put them in his pockets, just in case.
However, Dazai did trust Chuuya. With his life. Should he really bring them ?
A few minutes after he hadn't realised, but he had already arrived to his house (read: shipping container).
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Great. It's already the day Dazai had been dreading all week. But he trust Chuuya. He wouldn't do anything right ?
He put his hearing aids in his pocket and left to go to Chuuya's.
When he entered the other's apartment, he walked slowly into the living room.
Chuuya just looked at him.
He waved, and smiled, the smile that Dazai always enjoyed seeing.
Chuuya gesture him to sit down. So he did.
Chuuya was confident about this. Like the good (soon to be) boyfriend he is, he had learned everything he want to say to Dazai in JSL. With of course greetings, and other things like, he hasn't fully mastered every signe, but he did practice all week.
"Dazai Osamu, I've liked you for a while now. You have these soft sides that make my heart flutter. Anyway, I want to make this short because I'm not good at JSL. Osamu, I love you. Will you be my boyfriend ?" Chuuya signed.
Dazai just looked at him, not knowing what to say. He smiled and jump on Chuuya to give him the biggest hug.
He pushed himself of the other before replying:
"Yes ! Of course you stupid slug !" The other signed back. Throwing another hug at Chuuya.
Chuuya made the younger boy look at him
"I only understood yes, if you insulted me I'll let it pass this time." He chuckled.
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It's been two years since Chuuya and Dazai got together. Meaning it's also been a while since Chuuya started learning JSL. And Dazai wasn't going to lie he got better and better. He truly was a fast learner.
He'd also explained to Chuuya what he should do not to scare him when he didn't have his hearing aids. Like turning the lights on and off, or when he was looking down, waving a bit.
And it's been great. It took a while for Dazai to adjust and take off his hearing aids more, but they got there. Not to mention the fact that Dazai charged his hearing aids at Chuuya's house now.
Today Dazai was in Chuuya's room trying everything to distract himself. Drawing, writing, thinking.
Right, it's also been a while since Dazai had left the port to fulfil his dead best friends wish.
He tried to leave Chuuya just one small letter, to explain everything. And tell him that he deserved better anyway. But somehow Chuuya had found him. The brunette got slapped sure, but at least he was still with the love of his life.
"Osamu I'm home." Chuuya said looking around.
He went into his room with the sight of his boy looking at the ceiling. He flicked the light, and as soon as it happened Dazai jumped up and hugged the shoter.
"Hey, how was your day honey."
"Boring as ever. In fact my husband should stay with me all day next time."
Right there was also that. Chuuya had proposed to him, and as of a month ago, Chuuya was now Dazai's husband.
It still felt weird to say that, but Chuuya was Dazai's forever now and he was Chuuya's forever too.
Chuuya chuckled flicking the other's four head, earning a whine from the younger.
"Chuuya's so mean to me" Dazai pouted.
"Sure." Chuuya replied giving a soft kiss to his love.