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anonymous_cat Okay, let's do this Hi, I’m anonymous_cat. I’m having a hard time right now with school and my mum. I just have a lot of stuff going through my head, a lot of dark thoughts The worst part is there’s this guy I’m seeing. Oh yeah, I’m a gay guy, sorry. So, this guy I’m seeing is not out yet. And that’s totally fine. He’s scared, and speaking from experience he is right to be scared. But the fucked up thing is I think he doesn’t even want to be out? Like, out with me? On the one hand I think that’s cool, I can live with that, it’s what I deserve after all. But on the other hand I’m like “Hey, I’m out, and I’m not going back into the closet for you or anyone!” I mean, seriously, we don’t come out - or in my case, get outed - just to go back into the closet again for someone. So yeah, that’s fucked. People are just so mean! And yeah, okay, I get it, they don’t feel comfortable with a gay guy sharing their locker room. But seriously, do they think just because I’m gay I’m gonna jump their bones immediately??? They’re not even that attractive!!! Yikes. I can’t believe people are still such assholes!! My sister is also here on tumblr, and she told me how much sharing her thoughts and feelings here helps her. She knows I write poems to air out my feelings, so she bullied me into posting them on here. In a loving way, that is. So I suppose I’m gonna try that too, for a month to start with, to see if it works for me as well. I’ve turned off the comments. I’m being bullied enough at the mo, I don’t want to deal with that on here, too. #life sucks!#poetry #teenage angst 0 notes