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1. god loves you (but not enough to save you) by sonic_theredwoodtree

   Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply
   • F/F, F/M
   • Complete Work

   27 Aug 2025

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Jennifer "JJ" Jareau/Emily Prentiss
   • Jennifer "JJ" Jareau/William LaMontagne Jr.
   • Jennifer "JJ" Jareau & Henry LaMontagne
   • Henry LaMontagne & Emily Prentiss
   • Jennifer "JJ" Jareau
   • Emily Prentiss
   • William LaMontagne Jr.
   • Henry LaMontagne
   • Derek Morgan (Criminal Minds)
   • Penelope Garcia
   • Spencer Reid
   • Kate Callahan
   • Aaron Hotchner
   • David Rossi
   • Roslyn Jareau
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Religious Guilt
   • Title from an Ethel Cain Song
   • Song: Sun Bleached Flies (Ethel Cain)
   • Bisexual Jennifer "JJ" Jareau
   • Lesbian Emily Prentiss
   • JJ loves Emily
   • and Will (kind of)
   • JJ is very conflicted
   • Jennifer "JJ" Jareau Needs a Hug
   • Sad Jennifer "JJ" Jareau
   • Jemily - Freeform
   • Religious Conflict
   • religious trauma
   • jj doesn't really like men
   • insane amounts of internalized homophobia
   • Catholic Guilt
   • Angst
   • Self-Hatred
   • Yearning
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • The BAU Team as Family (Criminal Minds)
   • Character Study
   • JJ is in a lavender marriage
   • Useless Lesbians
   • Slow Burn
   • Lesbian Jennifer "JJ" Jareau
   • Mutual Pining
   • Clueless lesbians
   • idiots who are head over heels for eachother and won’t acknowledge it
   • Idiots in Love
   • no beta we die like haley
   • author is writing this in a former meth lab
   • dont even ask
   • it’s intense internalized homophobia to so much yearning
   • jemily slow burn told almost entirely from jj's perspective
   • slow burn of agony and despair
   • Hurt Jennifer "JJ" Jareau

   Summary

   "She was a woman who had built an entire life on choices made out of fear."

   JJ was someone who had everything a woman should want. She was a blonde, blue eyed, christian FBI agent with a husband and a son. A perfect woman with a perfect life. But JJ knew it was built on fear, what-ifs, and a love she couldn't choose.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   59,587

   Chapters:

   23/23

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

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