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1. Selfishness and Broken Knuckles by Bhaals_Favorite_Son

   Fandoms: Red Dead Redemption (Video Games)  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
   • F/M, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   23 Nov 2025

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Major Character Death
   • Arthur Morgan/Charles Smith
   • Abigail Roberts Marston/John Marston
   • Hosea Matthews/Dutch van der Linde
   • Arthur Morgan
   • Charles Smith (Red Dead Redemption)
   • John Marston
   • Abigail Roberts Marston
   • Jack Marston
   • Uncle (Red Dead Redemption)
   • Dutch van der Linde
   • Micah Bell
   • Hosea Matthews
   • Sean MacGuire
   • Leonard "Lenny" Summers
   • Eliza (Red Dead Redemption)
   • Susan Grimshaw
   • High Honor Arthur Morgan
   • Arthur Morgan Has Tuberculosis
   • Arthur Morgan Lives
   • Protective Charles Smith (Red Dead Redemption)
   • Fictional Take on a Real Disease
   • Hallucinations
   • Hopeful Ending
   • temporary coma
   • Charles Smith Needs A Hug (Red Dead Redemption)
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Spirit Animals
   • Arthur Morgan's Journal
   • Hosea Matthews and Dutch van der Linde are Arthur Morgan's Parents
   • Denial of Feelings
   • Graphic Depictions of Illness
   • Graphic Description of inner turmoil
   • Slow Burn
   • Mutual Pining
   • Arthur Morgan drew smut in his journal
   • Masturbation
   • Coming In Pants
   • POV Alternating
   • POV Multiple
   • Epilogue Part 2: Beecher's Hope (Red Dead Redemption 2)
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Charles Smith Takes Care of Arthur Morgan
   • Flashbacks
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Period-Typical Homophobia
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Broken Bones
   • Forgiveness
   • Panic Attacks
   • Trust Issues
   • Red Dead Redemption References
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Alcohol Withdrawal
   • Period-Typical Racism
   • Unreliable Narrator
   • Self-Esteem Issues
   • Self-Hatred
   • Men Crying
   • Past Sexual Assault
   • Healing
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • Side Mission References

   Summary

   Arthur was still fighting.
   Charles was too selfish to stop fighting now.

   Charles turns back and follows the path of bodies up the mountain. He finds Arthur, broken and still, on the bloodied rock face. Through his grief, he realizes Arthur Morgan lived, despite all odds. Now, Charles finds himself fighting an uphill battle to get ahead of both Arthur's sickness and his own selfish thoughts. He tried to put the softer feelings for the cowboy aside, it wasn't as important as getting him help, but then Charles finds a leatherbound journal that holds more than drawings of flowers.

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