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1. The Shadows of My Mind by orphan_account

   Fandoms: One Direction (Band)  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   12 Apr 2017

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Major Character Death
   • Niall Horan/Harry Styles
   • Niall Horan
   • Harry Styles
   • Louis Tomlinson
   • Liam Payne
   • Zayn Malik
   • Mental Illness
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Diary/Journal
   • journal style
   • First Person
   • POV First Person
   • first person POV
   • Niall-centric
   • Depression
   • Depressed Niall
   • Suicide
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Suicidal Ideation
   • Suicidal Niall
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Self-Hatred
   • BPD
   • BPD Niall
   • Borderline Personality Disorder
   • Borderline Niall
   • Eating Disorder
   • Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
   • Niall Has An Eating Disorder
   • Diary
   • EDNOS
   • Anorexia
   • Anorexic Niall
   • Cutting
   • Journaling
   • Psychiatric Hospitals
   • Hospitalization
   • AU
   • Alternate Universe
   • Mental Instability
   • Sad
   • Angst
   • Triggers
   • Trigger Warnings
   • Anxiety
   • Anxiety Disorder
   • Panic Attacks
   • Panic Attack
   • Anxiety Attacks
   • Generalized Anxiety Disorder
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Psychiatric Medications
   • Therapy
   • Psych Ward
   • Self-Harming Niall

   Summary

   My name is Niall James Horan. Or at least it was. Chances are, if you’re reading this, I’m not alive anymore, so there’s no point pretending. If I am still alive and your name isn’t Niall James Horan, and you’ve stumbled across this somehow, turn back now. I’m serious. Put this down and walk away. You’ll be much happier. Just erase it from your mind, forget about it. Everything will be so much better that way.

   Or the one where Niall's diary keeps all of his deepest, darkest, most well-guarded secrets.

   Massive trigger warnings for eating disorders, depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, borderline personality disorder, and mental illness. PLEASE DO NOT READ if this may be triggering in any way.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   7,831

   Chapters:

   22/?

   Comments:

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