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Mike Wheeler had never believed in angels. Not even as a kid.
Angels were the kind of thing people talked about when they wanted comfort, a bedtime-story shield against the dark. But Mike had seen the dark. Really seen it. He had watched shadows bleed into the walls of his hometown, listened to screams tear through places that should have been safe. He had felt evil breathe against the back of his neck.
If angels existed, they had never come to Hawkins. Only monsters had.
And even the people who fought those monsters, even El, with all her power and courage… had never felt angelic to him. She was human in a way that hurt: fragile and fierce, wounded and brave. She didn’t descend from heaven; she dragged herself out of hell to protect them.
That was goodness. That was real. But it wasn’t holy.
Mike had learned early that goodness was something you built, something you bled for and not something that descended from the sky wrapped in light. So angels had never been real. Until now.
Until Will.
Mike saw him before he saw anything else. His shoulders were tense, his posture alert, but around him… the air looked different. Softer somehow. Brighter. As though something unseen had decided he was the only thing in this ruined place worth illuminating. And Mike, stunned and breathless, could not stop staring.
Will didn’t look human in that moment. He looked sent. Like someone set down in darkness not to be swallowed by it, but to drive it back.
Mike’s heartbeat slammed into him hard, so loud he could feel it in his throat, his wrists, the trembling soles of his boots. It was the kind of heartbeat people wrote about in wartime stories, pulsing against danger, pushing through fear, choosing one face in a crowd of falling walls.
His breath hitched, thin and ragged. His fingers twitched at his side, scraping lightly against his palm as though pulled by instinct toward Will’s glow. He clenched his hand into a fist to stop the motion but even that small gesture felt impossible to hide from himself.
He tried to think of plans, of strategy, of what came next. But his mind refused to obey. It kept replaying the same unbearable truth: If the world fell in the next hour, the next minute, the next breath… Will would never know. Will might never hear the words trapped in Mike’s chest… words that had been screaming for years behind bars he didn’t know he’d built.
He loved Will Byers. And the world ending was the only thing that had been powerful enough to make him see it.
Mike felt a tremor run through him. If the universe had categories Mike was certain which one he belonged to. He’d always been the kid who messed up, said the wrong thing, felt the wrong thing, wanted too much, failed too often. He’d always been the one who broke under pressure, who doubted himself, who disappointed the people who believed in him. And Will had never fit into Mike’s idea of humanity the way everyone else did.
There was a softness in him, a gentleness that didn’t make sense in a world like theirs. A quiet resilience, a light that flickered even when everything else went dark. There was something in Will that felt untouched by the ugliness they’d lived through as if the world had tried to ruin him and failed.
Sometimes Mike felt like he was staining that light just by standing too close. That was the worst part. Because the closer he got to understanding what he felt for Will, the more he felt like a sinner reaching for something sacred. Like wanting Will in any way was an act of desecration. Like his feelings were dirty, clumsy, wrong, especially when compared to Will’s quiet goodness.
Mike was terrified. Terrified that if Will ever knew - if he ever caught even a glimpse of the storm inside him - it would shatter something fragile between them. That his stupid, aching, impossible feelings would destroy the only friendship that had ever felt like home.
Mike feared himself more than he feared the monsters.
And yet-
Whenever Will wasn’t beside him, Mike felt himself darken. He grew impatient, restless, sharp at the edges. He said things he didn’t mean, pushed people away out of habit, picked fights with ghosts. A piece of him recognized that Will’s presence kept him anchored, kept him from unraveling into someone he didn’t want to be.
Because Will somehow softened him. Grounded him. Pulled him back from the places his mind liked to spiral into. When Will was near, the world felt survivable. When he wasn’t, Mike felt himself slipping.
It was pathetic, probably. Needy, definitely.
And then there was El. Mike loved her. She had been impossible not to love. She saved his life, and he saved hers, and they grew together and hurt together and held onto each other because losing each other would have meant losing everything they understood about hope. But lately… Mike’s love for her had gentled into something warm, steady, and almost painfully platonic. He still cared for her deeply and always would but it wasn’t the type of love that clawed at his insides. It wasn’t the kind that made him shake or lose sleep or forget how to breathe.
His love for El made sense. It was stable. Kind. Familiar. Will drove him to madness. Mike didn’t know what to do with that. Did not know how to hold it, how to hide it, how to survive it.
And when the world’s ruins reclaimed the silence Mike stayed frozen in place. His hand slowly lowered. His heartbeat didn’t. It thrashed inside him like something newly awakened, something refusing to be buried again. He felt changed. Exposed. Split open in a way that could never be undone.
For so long, Mike had feared his feelings, feared losing Will, feared wanting him, feared ruining everything that mattered. But now, standing in the dust and the dimming glow, terror felt different.
He couldn’t keep living in this purgatory: half-truths, half-steps, half-versions of himself. Not when the world could end at any second. Not when one person meant more to him than survival.
He realized, with a sharp ache of clarity, that he needed to choose. Not choose between people. Never that.
Choose between fear and truth. Between silence and the voice that had been clawing its way up his throat.
Between living safely and living honestly.
And for the first time in his life, he understood why people prayed. Maybe prayer wasn’t about heaven.
Maybe it was about finding something, someone, worth kneeling for.