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1. if i could go, would i even say goodbye? by Music13

   Fandoms: Merlin (TV), Merlin BBC  

   • Not Rated
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   03 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Merlin/Arthur Pendragon (Merlin)
   • Merlin & Arthur Pendragon (Merlin)
   • Gaius & Merlin (Merlin)
   • Gaius & Arthur Pendragon (Merlin)
   • Merlin (Merlin)
   • Arthur Pendragon (Merlin)
   • Uther Pendragon (Merlin)
   • Gaius (Merlin)
   • Freya (Merlin)
   • Merlin Whump (Merlin)
   • Merlin's Magic Revealed (Merlin)
   • Arthur Pendragon Finds Out About Merlin's Magic (Merlin)
   • Canon Era
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Merlin Needs a Hug (Merlin)
   • Merlin Needs a Break (Merlin)

   Summary

   Merlin kept a magic diary and tries to run away after Freya's death but his magic won’t let him. Arthur finds the diary and has to face what he has stolen from Merlin without knowing it.

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   English

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