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1. the war is still raging inside of me by channelblondes

   Fandoms: The Poppy War Series - R. F. Kuang  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • F/M
   • Complete Work

   06 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Fang Runin/Yin Nezha
   • Chen Kitay & Fang Runin
   • Chen Kitay & Yin Nezha
   • Fang Runin & Altan Trengsin
   • Fang Runin
   • Yin Nezha
   • Chen Kitay
   • Jiang Ziya
   • Tutor Feyrik (The Poppy War)
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Book 2: The Dragon Republic (The Poppy War) - Divergence
   • One Shot
   • POV Alternating
   • Classical Music
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Survivor Guilt
   • Addiction
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • Title from a Sade Song
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Simp Yin Nezha
   • Yin Nezha is Down Bad
   • no beta we die like altan
   • music nerd rin
   • BOAT NERD NEZHA
   • love for art
   • music as a metaphor for grief

   Summary

   Her gaze wandered to the sea ahead of them.
   “But the fire destroys and shatters everything around it. It would always be a corrupted image of my soul, but it would never be able to translate feelings words can not describe.”

   His face lifted up, an idea popping in his head.
   “Show me your soul and I’ll show you mine. You can talk about music and I’ll tell you about my favorite thing in the world.”
   “Is it boats?”
   It’s you.
   “Yeah.”

    
   or: rin rediscovers her love and talent for music as she struggles with grief, guilt and addiction. and nezha’s reaction to rin being divine in a way he had never seen before. (i love you sober rin i wish you were real)

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