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4 minutes. 4 minutes is all Yagami Light had in the bathroom without raising suspicion, since Light calmy said he was going, to use the bathroom.
Light is still chained to L, so the door is slighty open so he turns on the tap so it would muffle the sound of him using the bathroom. Although he had different ideas as he reaches for a dull shaver, that is kept in the bottom drawer, he quietly breaks it apart quickly with speed and practice as he, pulls down his boxer shorts slightly with his pyjama bottems, Light checks his watch, 2 minutes remaining. Light swipes fast pressing the blade roughly on his thigh, it's barely wide but he sees it go white then fill with crimson red liquid.
Light swipes a few more times not checking how long left, L on the other hand is still outside and sighs.
"Light what are doing in there, you have been 4 minutes and 37 seconds." L says in his usual tone, you can never usualy tell what emotions, he feels by his voice.
Light jumps at his voice, immediately looking down, the blood hasn't poured onto the floor this time, thank god.
"I'm sorry I'm still rather bladder shy, I'm about to wash my hands." Light lies straight through his teeth. He stands up and washes his hands and ties his pyjama bottoms, and then leaves the bathroom.
L and Light exchange looks at each other, L knows something is up but decides not to mention it and drags him, back to the bed the chain rattling as L does some research on his laptop. It's currently 4am they woke up too early.. well Light did he doubts L slept one blink. Light states at a wall thinking "Why don't I just kill myself. Why don't I just cut and lock the door and L- wait the chains I can't..." Light sighs, slightly too loudly. L glances.
"Can you please sigh quieter" L says in a more low voice then usual.
"No I will do what I want." Light says arrogantly and moves his arm to stretch. Around 30 minutes later Lights eyes are shut, not sleeping just eyes shut until L is poking his face. Light immediately opens his eyes.
"You are bleeding onto the bed Light-kun" L says with slight concern in his expression but it's barely noticeable. Light sits up immediately his face feels hot.. his cheeks are bright red as he sees the blood, on his dark blue pyjamas and on the white bed sheets. He had fucked up once again.. Light doesn't make rye contact with L but he can feel his big round dull eyes staring at him. Light tries to speak but he can't get any words out usually ended at "I-". A few moments of silence later L speaks up.
"It's alright, dont force yourself, is this why you took so long in the bathroom?" L clocked it, L well.. already knew slightly he noticed the scars while he was sleeping awhile back. Light nods and wipes tears he didn't even know were falling soaking the sheets. L feels... pity. Self-harm isnt very taken seriously and he himself has participated in it. L takes Light into the bathroom leaning up to reach a first aid kit. Light gives him this dirty stare.
"I don't want your help" Light mutters but hes embarrassed. Ashamed. L smiles and doesn't take that for an answer and struggles but manages to get his pyjama bottoms off. L starts by cleaning the wounds and then applying cream. Light whimpers in pain, L just glances and continues eventually bandaging his thighs. Light looks.. defeated to be honest L has never seen Light with such a dead expression, he hums.
"These are deep, you should be more careful." L says helping him get into new clothes unchaining him for a few minutes.
"They were fine.. they would've healed alright without help" Light says still defensive but that's to be expected. L glances at Light as he changes into his normal clothes. Light is particularly skinny, maybe even underweight. L smells throw up sometimes but never mentions it, could Light be.. no- he shouldn't assume, but he is extremely curious. The next few days seem to be similar L keeps having to patch up Light after cutting.
"I'm sorry" Light says quietly. He never usually speaks when he's patching him up but, this time Light had done it in a delicate spot, his wrists. L glances
"Don't be sorry, although I am suspecting this could've been some sort of suicide attempt?" L was too smart, he knew everything. Light goes red his eyes start dripping tears, splat. splat. onto the floor. L hesitates but rubs his back it's strange, why is he trying to comfort the man he suspects is Kira.
"It didn't work clearly" Light says staring at L in the eyes for the first time in these moments.
"You shouldn't have to be dealing with me cutting, or attempting, you think I'm Kira why do you do this." Light asks this in a rather sad tone. L blinks and several moments of silence later L speaks.
"You are struggling with your mental health, Kira or not cutting will get you nowhere even if you are a mass murderer. It just brings pain and suffering.. suffering to others around you too." L speaks sort of strangely, more.. normal then usual. Light blinks, they don't say anything just sit in silence until, Light leans in for a kiss but backs away as soon as he notices. L is shocked to say the least, his face going pinkish.
"I'm sorry" Light says again grabbing bandages and tries to bandage his own arms, but L grabs him and does it. It's awkward for awhile L doesn't ask about why he leaned in, or why he tried to attempt he just continues bandaging him. Around 11pm they are in bed, Light is trying to sleep while L, is on his computer. It's soothing to Light, the clicking. Eventually L speaks up.
"Why did you try to kiss me earlier on" L states. Light sits up, his face slightly red.
"Miscommunication" What a obvious lie, usually Light had good excuses but that, has to be the worst one yet. L sets down his computer.
"Do you like me Light-kun?" L straightforwardly asks. Light hesitates staring at a wall
"Perhaps. Although you still think I'm Kira so it shouldn't matter." Light says quietly almost like a whisper under his breath. L hesitates but takes his hand and lays down, Light doesn't question it and shuts his eyes, their shoulders slightly touching, L feels Light is currently sweating, but doesn't comment on it. They both quietly fall asleep hand in hand.