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lilybear
janetheloon
Hi
lilybear
Hello
janetheloon
Are you sure about us talking here? Instagram DMs?
lilybear
Yes, is okay
This way you and I don't have to spend so much on texts while I’m in Russia 😝
janetheloon
I mean I’m a professional hockey player, I can pay for it
You can pay for it too
lilybear
Jane that is financially not responsible of you
I am proud, I think
janetheloon
Shut up
lilybear
😂😂
But seriously
Is good here I swear. We even use dummy accounts see, not our official ones
janetheloon
Okay, if you say so.
lilybear
Ok. Now be honest
Are you still mad about Vegas?
janetheloon
What? No, I’m not mad
lilybear
Hollander
You said we should talk more. We’re here. Talk to me.
janetheloon
…
Okay not mad, but just…embarrassed and a little hurt, I guess
lilybear
What why?
Did I hurt you?
janetheloon
No, no
lilybear
But?
janetheloon
You didn’t physically hurt me, I guess
lilybear
Jane
janetheloon
Lily
lilybear
Please, tell me now. I fix it
janetheloon
It's just
It was hot yes, I liked it. But after…after it, you just made me feel small. You ignored me for 6 months and made me feel so small and replaceable
We didn't even kiss
And I’m sorry if now I’m ranting or whining, and I know it's just casual
But I thought I mattered just a little bit, thought we cared about each other enough
Fuck I’m sorry
lilybear
No no no, fuck of course you matter
Hollander, fuck i am sorry
Please do not say sorry
I am sorry
In Sochi, it was bad…and not safe for me, or us
I was scared, I’m still scared
So I ignore you for six months
And in Vegas, I thought I could protect myself and you
And talking about family… is not good for me. It just makes me a little angry, maybe sad
I am sorry
janetheloon
Oh, Lily. That sucks. Thank you for sharing it now
I'm sorry as well. I didn't know that. I just really wanted to check up on you. Nothing else.
lilybear
Is okay. Like you said, you didn't know. Maybe we should talk more
janetheloon
Glad to see you admit I was right.
I’ll try not to ask much about Russia or family from now on.
lilybear
You can distract me instead if you want to make it up to me? 🙂
janetheloon
I'm still saying no to sexting.
lilybear
Ugh shut up, I mean. Tell me something else. A show you watched, songs you like?
janetheloon
Hmm.
Well, my cousin made me listen to an album by a boy band a while ago.
And I guess it made me think of you? https://sptfy.in/xqhs
lilybear
“A boyband” he says
Jane that is the biggest boyband in the world
janetheloon
Okay so? I don't care about them
It made me think of you
lilybear
Ok I will listen
Wow
This song is funny 😂
“if you like causing trouble up in hotel rooms
And if you like having secret little rendezvous”
Hollander, is this song about us???
janetheloon
😂😂
That’s why I said it reminded me of you
lilybear
How did One Direction know??
janetheloon
I don’t think we’re the only ones meeting up in hotel rooms in the world, Lily.
They might draw from their own or others’ experiences, I guess.
Okay, your turn then.
lilybear
My turn?
janetheloon
Yes, send me a song you like.
janetheloon
Ariana Grande? You listen to her?
lilybear
What you think I can’t listen to pop princess Ariana Grande?
janetheloon
No, no, not that! I actually thought you were going to send me something in Russian. Which would have been totally fine, too
Also, pop princess?
lilybear
Yes, she is the princess of pop, obviously
I listen to her and other American artists a lot.
When I came to America, my English was still not that good, yes?
So I listened to American pop and top hits and all that shit
They help me learn more, I think, about the language and culture
janetheloon
Hey, that’s actually smart.
So you ended up liking Ariana Grande then?
lilybear
Hmm yes, she is good. And I like this song in particular
janetheloon
Why this song?
lilybear
Lets just say it’s really catchy
janetheloon
“Been waiting and waiting for you to make a move”?
Are you losing your touch, Lily? 😏
lilybear
What? No! You take that back! I just like the song!
janetheloon
😂😂😂
lilybear
You know what, I’m surprised
janetheloon
Of what?
lilybear
That you actually listen to music
janetheloon
What? Of course I do.
I’m familiar with only a few artists, and I listen to specific songs that I really, really like. I just don’t know much about “pop culture”.
Do people really think I don’t listen to music?
lilybear
Well, that’s according to people and media.
They think you have no personality and only care about hockey
janetheloon
And you believe them?
lilybear
Of course not. I know better. I know you’re boring.
But you’re also the most interesting person I know
janetheloon
I am?
Wait
Are you fucking with me, Rozanov?
lilybear
What no! Is the truth, I swear
I like this. I like talking to you
I like
Knowing you.
janetheloon
Oh.
I like getting to know you, too 😌