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The Grace files - Entry I
Subject: Dr. Ryland Grace
Symptoms: Stress
Main Concern: Stress
Solution: Undetermined
Notes:
My human acting strangely.
It start normal, Rocky no notice at first. Small changes in behaviour — sleeping bad, excessive eating despite low supplies on Hail Mary ship. Maybe is nerves; we draw closer to Erid each Earth day, Grace maybe anxious to meet Adrian and other eridians. Is new experience for him. Understand.
I still worry, though.
When Grace no get enough sleep, start acting stupid. This is known Human fact that I will report to eridian scientists when we arrive at Erid. I take proper care to ensure Grace care instructions written well and accurately. Humans need:
- Regular food intake (diet consisting of: sufficient energy, calories, carbohydrates, sugars, fats, protein, sodium and potassium, vitamins and minerals)
- Regular water intake (two parts hydrogen, one part oxygen)
- Light (V+ Earth hour day/night cycle)
- Exercise (Grace able to self-manage this)
- Adequate sleep (8 Earth hour rest cycle, roughly I.∀ Erid days. Humans like darkness during this time)
- Breathable atmosphere (in a V% water vapour environment, this consists of: 76.52% nitrogen, 20.53% oxygen, 0.91% argon, plus trace amounts of others specified in more detailed data set provided)
- Regular affection, company and socialisation (Rocky provide this)
I compile this data over many conversations with Grace, though I plan to ask for more specifics when we get to Erid. Biodome schematics been completed but I no sure if they exactly… feasible. I ask other eridian engineer what they think, see if they see vision. Rocky know exactly how would implement, structure, filter Grace atmosphere through, but feel it best to consult others. Grace always say ‘two eyes better than one,’ or something (Human idiom!).
Onto main concern, reason I create Grace Files in first place.
Anomaly happen today. Too weird to ignore.
He no talk to me about it after. Maybe avoiding topic for fear of uncomfortable emotions. Maybe no even noticed change in himself until too late. Maybe trying to pretend it no happen. But eridians no forget. He know this.
Grace stressed before this, yes, many things to be stressed about on ship. But no to point of no return. Not like today. Something change today. I decide to learn more after tonight, night that make me write logs in first place.
Grace watching something in room with smooth, screen walls. He call it ‘TV,’ though I not know what TV an acronym for. I ask later. Not important now. Nothing new happen at first, I come in room, no have camera so no can watch with him. But I still spend time. Company.
And suddenly, Grace start leaking.
I no have my camera, so I not know if it was something on screen or something in Grace head. Frustrate.
I comfort, but is hard to do when I not know why leak is happening. So Rocky start to panic; Grace would no listen to me, and only so much I could do in ball. I did get him to hug me, though. After that all seem good. But I can no ignore this, random leak, inconsistent pattern. Worrying.
I know for fact Humans no leak for no reason. There always cause, internal or external, thought or experience, it no matter. Always have cause, even if Human in question not know what it is.
Stress is bad for Humans. When get stressed, they no act right. They no sleep good, feel good, function good or act good. In Grace, stress manifest as large sadness or anger. He does all other things, but sometimes lash out, leak a lot. I try to comfort. Nothing works. I no able to fix. At least in current time.
Grace been stressed over food situation again, very bad topic for him at moment. Sensitive. He would hate me to use that word but is true. He make many scientific developments, many ideas and experiments done. Grace make much progress, yet fail to recognise accomplishment. Less confident, more frustrate. No good.
Is making Grace hard to be around. Sound mean. Rocky sorry, but is true. Unlikely Grace will read Grace Files, so I no need to apologise, but will anyway.
Grace irritable, easy to enrage. Take me Vℓ minutes to get him out of bed yesterday. Grace stay up long time through his night working on way to eat Taumoeba safely. I watch, and he no even get up from desk to drink water. Which I know Humans need. Bad bad bad.
Maybe this is cause of anomaly. I think of this earlier, but I no convinced.
Whenever Grace stressed because bad sleep or bad eat or stay up late working, no just randomly leak everywhere! Grace take in stride, try to calm self, take nap (after I tell him to many times). Only then does leak occur if all of that no work.
So, after Grace calm down from anomalous leak, I ask why and he no tell me. I ask again, again, again, again, again, I+ times total. He still no answer. I maybe got angry with him. It no out of true anger. Worry.
Grace finally say he leaking over TV show ‘The X-Files,’ Grace say I not know what going on on screen; I no have my camera in moment. I listen to him then. I no convinced.
So I decide to write this. Rocky plan: If Grace no continue anomalous leak, Rocky abandon avenue and we continue to Erid. Rocky get to pretend beginning of Grace Files never even happen.
If Grace do continue to act strange… Rocky continue to write.
I name The Grace Files after his lies. I not know what ‘The X-Files’ is about, maybe is saddest TV show in Human history. But I no buy it. Grace easy to tell when lying. So I name after lie. Part spite, part irony, part for humour. Biggest part is worry, though. I not know what to do. Logs will help me figure out solution. Hopefully.
Solution remains undecided, but I keep watch of Grace for any more random leaking. Continuing to monitor. Closely.