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Sometimes Sam will watch the Casa Erotica video Gabriel made and pause it the moment Gabriel shows up. It's stupid and strange that that's the video he chooses to watch after Gabriel died, it is a damn porno after all.
But it's meaningful in the same strange and stupid way; it's Gabriel helping them—helping Sam, it's Sam's laptop it played on, and Sam likes to believe that Gabriel is looking at him only—not Dean, not anyone else, not even the girl Gabriel's filming with. Just Sam and only ever Sam.
He doesn't jerk off or anything to it, although Gabriel would definitely get a kick out of that. Instead, he just... cries. Those big ugly fat tears that turn your face bright red and turn you blind for a few moments after until you manage to blink them away and regain your sight.
He knows it's downright pathetic to cry watching porn but he can't help it. He just misses Gabriel so damn much, and if this is what he has to do to see him again?
Then so be it.