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park that car, drop that phone (dream about me) by TrashyPandas (BlueJayFan)
Fandoms: Suits (US TV 2011)
08 Jun 2026
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Summary
The thing about deciding you're going to die is that it makes everything else remarkably simple.
Harvey hadn't arrived at the decision the way he imagined people did in movies—not in a single devastating moment, not with a particular song playing in the background or rain streaking down a window while he stood in silhouette.
It had been more gradual than that, more like water finding the lowest point in a room. You don't notice it happening until your socks are wet and by then it's already everywhere. He'd spent the better part of his forty-eighth year watching things go and watching himself watch them go, and somewhere in the wreckage of all that watching, the math had just started to make a different kind of sense.
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Or, Harvey decides he has no interest in seeing his fiftieth birthday.