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1. and if we share in this sadness then where have you been? by akelamissed

   Fandoms: The Boys (TV 2019)  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   01 Aug 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Billy Butcher/The Homelander | John
   • Billy Butcher
   • The Homelander | John
   • Ryan Butcher | The Homelander's Son
   • Mother's Milk | M. M. (The Boys)
   • Post-Canon
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Soft Billy Butcher
   • Billy Butcher Being an Asshole
   • Billy Butcher Has Issues
   • Possessive Billy Butcher
   • The Homelander | John Has Issues
   • The Homelander | John Needs a Hug
   • Depowered The Homelander | John
   • Protective Billy Butcher
   • Billy Butcher Needs a Hug
   • Everyone Needs a Hug
   • Boys Will Be Boys
   • The Homelander | John Whump
   • Billy Butcher Whump
   • British Character
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • The Author Regrets Nothing
   • English Is Not the Author's First Language
   • Unresolved Emotional Tension
   • Choking
   • Dry Humping
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Emotional/Psychological Abuse
   • Past Child Abuse
   • Domestic Violence
   • First Kiss
   • Masturbation
   • Mutual Masturbation
   • Implied Childhood Sexual Abuse
   • Anal Sex
   • Anal Fingering
   • Breeding Kink
   • Blow Jobs
   • Jealousy
   • Service Top
   • Top Billy Butcher
   • Bottom The Homelander | John
   • Gentle Sex
   • Creampie
   • Emotional Manipulation
   • Superpowered Billy Butcher
   • Feelings Realization
   • Love Confessions
   • Butchlander

   Summary

   Billy has made a deal with Stan Edgar. Heavy one that is. He has to leave USA and take his "toy" with him. He was allowed that one wish. Just leave Vought alone, don't try to fuck with company again. He accepted because realised he has more people to care about. Those who around him need this chance to start over. And it is up to Billy to step back and be happy with just John. He still puts up a show in the White House. Makes people believe he killed Homelander.

   warning: minor canon divergence because Terror died before Easter events. Billy makes a deal with Edgar about John.

   More tags to be added as story continues. I have every chapter planned out, I just need to write it.

   Series

   • Part 1 of Midweek Drinking

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   English

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