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1. and I know none of this will matter in the long run by spinnerett

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Major Character Death
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   10 Jul 2026

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Hayden Pike
   • David Hollander & Shane Hollander & Yuna Hollander
   • Ottawa Centaurs Team Ensemble & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros Team Ensemble
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Hayden Pike
   • Gilbert Comeau
   • Patrice Drapeau
   • JJ Boiziau
   • Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros Team Ensemble (Game Changers)
   • Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander
   • A lot of these ppl r kinda in Shane’s thoughts not exactly present srry
   • Angst
   • Heavy Angst
   • Suicide
   • Suicidal Shane Hollander
   • Depressed Shane Hollander
   • Eating Disorders
   • Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
   • Its kinda complicated it’s more of disordered eating than an eating disorder
   • Whump
   • Shane Hollander Whump
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Hurt Shane Hollander
   • Self-Harm
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Self-Hatred
   • Insecurity
   • Autistic Shane Hollander
   • Bad Parent Yuna Hollander
   • sorry guys...
   • ACC no mediocre parent
   • idk - Freeform
   • Not Canon Compliant
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • POV Shane Hollander
   • Homophobia
   • Racism
   • Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros Being Assholes (Game Changers)
   • Good Friend Hayden Pike
   • SURPRISINFLY!!’
   • Overdosing
   • Depression
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Shane does not come out to the metros at the end of heated rivalry
   • They all find out when the fanmail thing happens
   • kinda open ended
   • Shane Hollander Has an Eating Disorder
   • Shane Hollander Has OCD
   • But liek… not written abt ..kinda
   • It’s a blink and you’ll miss it thjng
   • Angst with No Happy Ending

   Summary

   "I want- Oh, malysh…" Ilya's voice cracks and Shane can't force himself to look up and watch his fiance cry because of him. He shakes his head against his knees, "I can't—" he gasps out, "I can't— I don't want- I don't feel good—" he doesn't even know what he's saying at this point, words slipping through his tongue without any control as he lets out a cracked sob, all the pain from the past few months bearing down on him so hard it feels like his shoulders and back might break. He feels a strong pair of arms wrap around him, warm and comforting.

   
   Or, Shane has a much worse time after the whole fan mail situation.
   

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