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    Shane blinks back, and wonders what his face might be doing. He wonders if somewhere written among his freckles is the number of times that Shane’s intrusive thoughts have imagined the man before him in lewd scenarios. He wonders if his mouth --already disconnected from his conscious mind-- secretly whispers confessions of his fantasies in a devastating betrayal of the self.

    Shane swallows. The two blue eyes are so fucking close that they could each be a mile wide. They could be barrels of a gun or the tips of arrows. They’re trained on Shane and call on his animalistic reactions of fight or flight.

    Or fawn.

    Shane Hollander was diagnosed with autism as a child. With delayed speech, sensory difficulties, and a brain that refused to conform, Shane grew up always finding ways to cope using hockey, systems, and routine. After temporarily losing his speech in a very public meltdown at the world juniors, Shane is forced to carve a path as the first publicly autistic player in the NHL, accommodations and all.

    Chronic surprise Ilya Rozanov is determined to prove to Shane that he isn't a problem to be solved, while both men must learn to accept that they're worthy of love at all.

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