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1. I've Learned to Live With the Way That it Hurts by SK_Morello

   Fandoms: Dragon Age (Video Games), Dragon Age - All Media Types, Dragon Age II  

   • Explicit
   • Major Character Death, Rape/Non-Con
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   06 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Rape/Non-Con
   • Arishok/Male Hawke (Dragon Age)
   • Arishok/Hawke (Dragon Age)
   • Fenris/Hawke (Dragon Age)
   • Fenris/Male Hawke (Dragon Age)
   • Hawke (Dragon Age)
   • Carver Hawke
   • Fenris (Dragon Age)
   • Varric Tethras
   • Isabela (Dragon Age)
   • Merrill (Dragon Age)
   • Anders (Dragon Age)
   • Sebastian Vael
   • Aveline Vallen
   • Tallis (Dragon Age)
   • Arishok (Dragon Age)
   • The Qun (Dragon Age)
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Saarebas
   • Bas-Saarebas
   • Mind Manipulation
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Mental Anguish
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Guilt
   • Sad Hawke (Dragon Age)
   • someone help him
   • No not you Arishok
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Slavery
   • Sexual Slavery
   • Mind Control Aftermath & Recovery
   • Recovery
   • Faithful to the Qun Hawke (Dragon Age)
   • Whump

   Summary

   Garrett Hawke knew what he was: a good mage. He also knew that that wasn't enough. Not in Kirkwall, not anywhere.

   Burdened by the death of his father and sister and constantly confronted with a weakened Veil in his new city, the certainties that Hawke built his life on have crumbled. As Carver drifts towards the Templars and he befriends dangerous mages he can't help but wonder how long it will take him to falter too.

   But he knows the dangers of the Circle, knows what awaits him in the Gallows. When Ketojan suggests mages might be happier under the Qun, it is a thought that grows within him, taking root.

   He will never be the same again.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   15,484

   Chapters:

   10/?

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

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